hurricane for social change

don't ask me for my name but I'm 22.

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Introduction and rules.

Hi! I'm hurricane. I live somewhere in Northern England. I'm not a member of the patriarchal society. I want a society where men and women equally rule which makes me a feminist. However I have a slightly extreme view that the world could be a better place if for a year all countries in the western world was ran by a woman. I believe matriarchy should be given a free trial with one rule only- world war 3 cannot break out.

I have bipolar disorder. Sometimes my posts might not make sense to you. But its part of the thrill for you to judge when I am manic or depressed. Good luck!

I don't wanna say what I currently do to protect my privacy and also so this post is versatile. So in other words... I'm lazy. Yes. I'm not going to do a post so I have to change it like 5 years down the line.

So... who am I then? That's a good question. I'm a writer, a performer, an artist, a bitch, a daughter, a sister, a patient, a fan... I'm a fan of animal. I'm a big halsey fan! I love Amy lee and bebe rexha. Nirvana. Sinead O'connor is officially an Angel since her death. I love Princess Diana. I support the act of emigration. I value democracy as it was in 2010s. I like alternate views. I've been down the dark Web and I don't find it scary. I have no intention to hurt anyone and never will have. I want to contribute to my country but not to society. I heavily value freedom of speech but I feel I don't have any. I am me.

So now you know who I am. It's important we set some boundaries to keep each other safe.

Don't ask me any personal questions, I won't be asking you any.

MI5 please leave me alone. I'm not interfering with your work. I am interested in counter terrorism but I will not try to join you. Not yet anyway! I probably never will.

If you are homophobic, biphobic, transphobic or racist leave my blog alone you are not welcome here.

Don't glamourise my illness or trauma because you will be blocked.

I'm writing this from my phone, don't expect much from my pocket blog.

No you can't have a face reveal.

Its my blog I can write what I want.

Ask to dm me.

I'm not an agony aunt. I won't give you advice.

I'm an activist. Let me act for what I believe in and I'll let you act for your beliefs

Respect me and I'll respect you.

No opinions unless I ask for it.

If you know me irl don't say my name in the comments.

Have fun!

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Most women have the same fate. When will it change?

TW- r@p3, @ bvse, SA

Ive been sexually harassed since I can remember. Today I am an angry anxious feminist. I’ve been abused since I was a child. My dad is a complete donkey. He is the most violent, aggressive, horrible man I’ve ever met. I don’t know what to do anymore. Whether or not I want to report him or simply cut him out my life. But I do know that I don’t want to go home. I can’t stay there for 4 months. My recovery only goes forwards and if I relapse so be it but not yet. My mother probably thinks of me as this careless young adult. Wreckless and wild. But I am not. I could never do anything that suggests I’m not tamed. I’m tired of people not seeing me for who I am. Most importantly I’m waiting for the day a man puts his hands where they aren’t welcome. I am tired.

There’s nothing I can do anymore. I am waiting. Everyday I expect a man to try and own me. I’m like a porcelain doll who can walk around and eat… sleep… breathe. But I’m not something you can possess.

“Don’t belong to no city don’t belong to no man”- Halsey, badlands, hurricane.

So can someone tell me what the hell I am supposed to do? I can’t be the only one who feels unsafe wherever I go. Life is hard when you look like me. With a nice body and all the right portions.

Im tired of men.

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There's something wrong with my insides... who's going to prepare me for emergency surgery if I need the "worst case scenario?"

So I'm going to be honest here... I have undergone screening for IBD. Inflammatory bowel disease. Now this blog isn't changing anytime soon to have one focus. Because it's a blog for social change. Now... I'm too old for play therapy probably because I'm early 20s and that's for children predominantly.

So... what is this post even about? You now know something personal about me. I've trusted you with it. Okay, could be coeliac disease but honestly I have ibd in my family deeply embedded into my gene coding. So how the heck am I supposed to prepare myself incase I need surgery? I don't know anything right now. You might be thinking, hurricane... think positively! But I've been scared of this and having a child for a long time. But this post isn't about fear of child birth. This post is about waking up to an emergency stoma bag. What does the NHS do when you need emergency surgery?

I'm sorry, we're shipping you off in an ambulance to get you some bowel removed because you're gonna die if we don't. What if they don't have time to do that? Girly... I'm sorry. You're going to hospital. Bang straight under anaesthesia.

So is it really so bad preparing yourself for the worst? Maybe not. Maybe it could be positive if you think these people will save me. But I have a relative with a stoma bag and I don't want to break confidentiality so I can't say who. But this members stoma hasn't got the hole in the right place. So tell me... what is this member supposed to do? Actually I'm sorry, unless you are a surgeon I don't want you opinion. They have already had a lot of surgery. The body has been under alot of strength. They may not survive. I don't deal with death very well so that's not the best outcome for anyone.

I'm currently a student but that doesn't mean this is a student blog. There's not alot I can say and if this was a student blog it wouldn't last as long as a generic blog for social change would. My question is for any university student with a stoma, how do you manage? What do you do? I've already been in hospital this year. My degree is almost complete. I am scared. I don't know how to do uni with a stoma. But I kind of know how to do uni with bipolar but that is a separate blog. So if I'm to poo in a bag for the rest of my life probably because fuck doubling the amount of surgery... who's going to prepare me if its an emergency surgery?

Well... that answer is straightforward. Me! I'm the only one who can prepare myself for the best and worst case scenario. Im scared of pooing in public. Okay there. I said it. I can't poo in public. So what would be so bad about having a stoma? The fact I'm in student accommodation and I don't wanna change it? The fact that I can't open a window in my bathroom? There is air freshener... you can get automatic ones. There are different ones. Specific ones for people with stoma bags.

Don't give me hate for writing this. I'm not saying it's okay to jump to conclusions. I'm saying you should always be prepared for emergencies. Have a plan ready. Planning in advance is highly recommended for a lot of things. People keep survival kits in their car. People carry a first aid kit. So why don't we be prepared for other emergencies?

Emergency surgery is scary. One of my relatives had emergency eye surgery. Yep, you can imagine the fear can't you? One day your vision is fine the next you can't see barely. Surgery. They are fine now thank god because I don't know how I would have coped if they needed more support than they already need. It's stressful for everyone.

The after care is okay I assume but there's so much neglect going on inside the NHS. I know it's not the staffs fault but something needs to change. We can all agree on that can't we?

So why don't we let children and teenagers do a sponsored wear a stoma bag for a few weeks? Why don't we educate people when they are old enough to understand how to prepare themselves in the unlikely event of having emergency surgery? How likely even is that? I'm too lazy to research I have enough going on. So who actually makes the rules about this? The board of education? When will school actually teach useful things they can apply outside the class room or is that just the job for university? Okay PHSE is a thing but when was that so accessible it taught everyone what they needed to know? It doesn't.

So I'm going now. I need to prepare myself for the results on Monday. I may or may not update you after. It depends on how you react to this. Any student with a stoma please comment and educate me. Take care of yourselves.

Hurricane, over and out!