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[ichbringmichum1]

[hurteverything]

there is never enough time and it makes me so sad. we would've reconnected if he hadn't died. i just wanted a little more time but we never have enough time

[raibura]

Be honest do you think your mental illness/mood disorder makes you more creative funny or interesting

Yes

No

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Voting ended on5h

[looo-ch]

[fairycosmos]

leaves a suicide note that just says Omggggg

[kosmogrl]

[kosmogrl]

sorry I didn’t show up it was because umm.. you see, I was busy. maybe another time??

[shoelace4-48]

i mentally killed myself a hundred times

[bigdog200-deactivated20151225]

the rumors are true: i dont feel very good

[dogpuppy]

[hurteverything]

my semi daily i want to be shot post 🔥 #mymooddrop

[innerchildabortionclinic]

[brutalistarchitecture2]

HAMMOND B3 ORGAN CISTERN by GABRIELLE CALVOCORESSI

[ravioliet]

a long distance friend is kind of a dead wife in a way

[nude-tayne]

[kickaway]

me and my good friend rue bennett are one of the same

[hurteverything]

#liveblogging my suicide book but ive been thinking about this a lot and i feel its tailored more towards those who arent mentally ill so far because i was never influenced by another person to feel suicidal or to consider suicide as an option it was more of something i led myself to? idk if other bipolar ppl feel that way but i started feeling suicidal and expressing that at age 9 (part of which probably had to do with abuse) but its kind of lonely to have that specific experience and have it very early on in life. i wonder if he addresses that later. im not too far into the book so who knows

[lesvegas]

A few years ago while trying to find ways to commit suicide as painlessly as possible, I came across a PDF of Dr. Paul Quinnett's The Forever Decision. Thinking it might go into actual methods of suicide (I read an article once that actually did that and was trying to find it again) I started to read it, and I think I only got about two pages in before I was crying too much to actually see the words.

I downloaded the PDF to my hard drive and I open it again whenever I'm feeling too suicidal to do much else, but not enough to start booking a ride to the hospital. And every time without fail I only go up to a few pages before backing off and choosing to live another day just because suicide suddenly seems even more unbearable than whatever the hell upset me in the first place.

All the book really does is [I'm pulling a summary from GoodReads here as, again, I've read no more than 5 pages] "discusses the social aspects of suicide, the right to die, anger, loneliness, depression, stress, hopelessness, drug and alcohol abuse, the consequences of a suicide attempt, and how to get help."

But it also starts with the author kindly asking the reader to complete the book before going through with anything, and for some reason I'm compelled to really just try to read it all before finalizing everything. Despite not yet completing it (hopefully never will) I think I can safely say it's saved my life at least a few times now.

It's intentionally legal to copy and redistribute this book to keep it as accessible as possible, and it's very easy to find, but here's a link for it anyways.