Nature has cunning ways of finding our weakest spot. We rip out so much of ourselves to be cured of things faster than we should that we go bankrupt by the age of thirty and have less to offer each time we start with someone new.
But to feel nothing so as not to feel anything - what a waste!
Then let me say one more thing. It’ll clear the air. I may have come close, but I never had what you two have. Something always held me back or stood in the way. How you live your life is your business, just remember, our hearts and our bodies are given to us only once. And before you know it, your heart is worn out, and, as for your body, there comes a point when no one looks at it, much less wants to come near it. Right now, there’s sorrow, pain. Don’t kill it and with it the joy you’ve felt.
你們非常幸運,發現了對方。在最意料不到的時候,老天爺狡猾地發現了我們的弱點。現在或許你不想要有任何感受,或許你從來不想有什麼感受,好好去感受那無法抹滅的情感,你們擁有一段美好的友誼,或許不只是友誼……
我很羨慕你,在我老家多數父母會希望船過水無痕,祈禱他們兒子重新振作,我不是那種父母。為了迅速痊癒我們狠狠折磨自己,到了30歲心靈早已枯竭,碰到新的對象能付出就愈來愈少,逼迫自己不去感受,只為了失去感受的能力,多麼可惜啊!我曾經差點跟你一樣,但我不曾擁有像你們之間的情感,始終有一股力量拉扯著我從中阻攔,你要怎麼過你的日子由你決定,只要記得,我們的身體和心靈只能活一回,不知不覺中心靈便已枯萎,至於你的身體,到了某個時候就沒有人想端詳它,更不想靠近它。現在,你有憂傷、痛苦,別去扼殺它也別抹煞掉你感受到的喜悅。