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Is all love dramatic love.

Is movie love the kind of love you want.

Weird after 16 years this is still the only place I have to post how I’m feeling tonight. I’m lonely. I’m lost. My brain is going toward past things because it’s easy. Life is scary right now, the unknown is what scares me the most. I have no idea what I’m doing. I know my propose and it’s been so fulfilling I can’t even tell you. But I recently realized I don’t know who I am or was. There’s not a version of me I’d like to go back too. I feel foolish for not prioritizing myself more. But I am determined to find something that lights my soul on fire. But for now, I’ll lay her lonely and wondering what if

I want something different but I’m not strong enough to ask for it yet.

Life is so weird right now. Sometimes it hits me like what am I doing with my life. My dreams never stop. It’s like the same 5 dreams have been on repeat for the last 10 years with the universe throwing in some things to fuck with me every once and a while.

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Have you ever wanted to cry but no tears came out, so you just stare blankly into space while feeling your heart break into pieces

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Life is moving forward but in my dreams I’m stuck in the past. Why must I over think everything. Why do you keep showing up. It’s been years. What is it. My mind is exhausted.