Hyping The Sway

New to the Hype House and Sway House lifestyle...but we're rolling with it!

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ALL THIS DAMN DRAMA IS NUTS, MAN! Here we all were, praising Nessa for more than half of her career and now look what's gone down. I'm just...shook.

I feel TERRIBLE for Josh and Mads. I can't even believe this.

Plus, I love the song and now I feel TERRIBLE for loving it LOL

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I pretty much created this account only for The Moment cause it was a bangin' idea and now I'm lost as to what to post on here LOL so I'm sorry if things are a little stale on here...

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I’ve recently fallen in love with the Hustle House ...TUCKER HAS MY ENTIRE HEART.

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Check out my profile on Wattpad, I'm hypingthesway https://www.wattpad.com/hypingthesway?utm_source=web&utm_medium=tumblr&utm_content=share_profile I'm not really sure what I'm doing here but I enjoy writing so I thought I'd give it a go!

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Hi babes!!

So as I’ve posted before, I have put The Moment on Wattpad, incase you enjoy reading on there better but I’ve decided I’m going to start writing a new story. I have this idea in my head and I’ve had it there since the middle of The Moment so I’ve just got to take the plunge. BUT I need to know if you guys want me to post the story here as well, like I did with The Moment or if I should just keep it on Wattpad. I’m still working the details of the story out, mainly who it should be about, which is also something I need your help with. 

I’ve decided on three people so if you guys could choose from the list, that would be much appreciated. 

1. Ryland Storms (I’m iffy on him since he was included in The Moment)

2. Michael Sanzone

3. Griffin Johnson

Remember to let me know if you want it posted here as well as Wattpad! (I will share that on my next post! Thanks guys!) 

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The Moment - Noah Beck

Chapter Fifty-Two - The Final Chapter

Although the night was absolutely amazing and definitely one of the best I’ve had in a long time, it made me ridiculously sad. To think about going months without a single one of these people by my side was daunting and it was becoming a way bigger issue to me than it probably should have been. These people are my family and have practically raised me and to leave them, just because my name’s been under fire recently, is an awful thing to think about.

“You okay?” Noah asked, lifting his shoulder which resulted in my head lifting as well. Nodding my head, I tried to forget about how sad I was and focus on the movie but Noah wasn’t having any of that. “Regan...” He pleaded, shifting his body so I was forced to sit up properly. “Talk to me.”

“There’s nothing to talk about, I’m just sad.” I explained...well, I tried to explain. I was sad for your typical reason; I didn’t want to leave my friends and there’s nothing I could really explain other than that.

As the night continued, more and more people came up to me, wishing me a safe flight and a good time and before I knew it, I had a flight to catch in five hours. Saying my final goodbyes to everyone who had managed to stay late at the movie night, I took Noah’s hand in mine and headed out to my car. 

“Call me when you land, okay? Just so I know you’re safe.” Placing his hands on my waist, I placed mine on his shoulders, pulling him closer. With our chests pressed against each other, I held on for dear life. He meant more to me now than he ever has before and I was scared of losing that.

“I love you.” I whispered, closing my eyes as the tears began to form. 

Hearing him smile from over my shoulder, he tightened his grip on my waist, replying, “I love you too.”

Pulling my head back, I connected my lips with his, trying to savour the moment for as long as possible.

“You should go.” He said, pulling his head away from mine. “You don’t want to be late for your flight.” Considering I still had to toss last minute things in my suitcases, he wasn’t wrong; I should go...but I don’t want to. Placing one last kiss on my lips, he took a step back, letting his hands fall from my waist and allowing me to get into my car. Everything about this moment was sad; it was like that scene in the O.C. where Ryan heads back to Chino and Marissa stands in the driveway watching him leave; one of the saddest moments in TV history, in my opinion.

As I entered my house, I looked around at a parent-less house and I realized...that’s how I like it. I enjoy being on my own. I enjoy taking care of myself. I enjoy the situation I’m in and I just know that once I get to Italy, I’ll be doing there what I’m doing here. Looking at the note and plane ticket on the side table, I placed my keys down next to it as I headed upstairs and finished packing. It was around 2 in the morning and my flight was leaving around 7 and although I felt like I should be early, I wanted to wait until the last minute. I wanted to enjoy whatever time I had left.

Closing up the suitcases, I began wheeling them out of my room and carrying them down the stairs; it would have been a hell of a lot easier if I had two other people to help...but I barely exist to them. Grabbing my keys and the ticket, I saw the headlights from the Uber shine through the windows and knew it was time. 

Mumbling where I needed to go, I handed my suitcases to the driver and climbed in the backseat, beginning to scroll through my phone. It was still so dark out, which only made me more depressed as the scenery passed by the window, making it even harder to think about how this was supposed to help me.

“Wait,” I found myself saying about 30 minutes into the drive. “I forgot something.” Watching as the car turned around, I suddenly became nervous with myself. How could I do this?

Entering the house, I ran upstairs, trying not to fall as I reached the bedroom door. My heart began to race as I stood there, wondering how I could have ever thought about doing it. Taking a deep breath, I opened the door and watched as his head turned to face me. His eyes lit up, even in the darkest of rooms and I suddenly felt at peace.

“Regan...” Noah said, getting up from his bed and walking over to me.

“I couldn’t go.” I whispered, pulling him as close to me as possible, finally feeling a genuine smile form on my face for the first time in days.

A/N: And there we have it! The final chapter of The Moment! I cannot believe I wrote fifty-two chapters of this damn thing! I’m so proud of myself. I’m so so grateful for all of you who have read this amazing story and who have stuck by my awkward and sometimes non-existent upload schedule. It’s honestly such a blessing to have you guys and know that people actually enjoy my writing. I cannot thank each and every single one of you enough. I love you all so much! And who knows, maybe there will be another story coming soon! (I say that as I’ve already got ideas in the works LOL) Thank you and I love you! 

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The Moment - Noah Beck

Chapter Fifty-One

Waking up in his arms felt like paradise, even though it was mildly uncomfortable but that was mostly because we were extremely tired from the night before. Pushing myself to get out of bed, I grabbed a some clothes and headed into the shower. Standing there, with the water dripping onto my hair, I couldn’t believe I was leaving tomorrow morning. It all just seemed kind of pointless now that Noah and I were back on track. Beginning to ran my fingers through my hair, I felt his hands wrap around my waist and his chest press against my back.

“Morning.” He mumbled against my shoulder, as he left a soft kiss. 

“Morning.” I repeated, turning around to face him. “How’d you sleep?”

“Let’s just say that’ll be the best sleep I’ll have for the next month or so.” Letting out a sigh, I looked down at the ground, beginning to feel bad about leaving him for however long. “Hey, it’s okay.” He said, placing his hand on my cheek and trying to catch my eye. “I’ll miss you but it’s okay.” Wrapping his hands back around my waist, I wrapped my around his neck, not wanting to let him go.

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“They’ve planned a movie night, did you want to come?” I asked, as we stood in my driveway after the long drive home. He was leaning against his car as my arms rested on his shoulders. 

“Of course.” He replied, smiling.

“Okay, I’ll meet you there then.” Pressing my lips against his, I thought about how this would be one of our last kisses. I could think of a million things we’d do for the last time in the next 24hrs and all I wanted to do was cry.

Heading inside, I placed my keys down, noticing the note from my parents. 

“Had an emergency meeting. Took an earlier flight. See you when you land!”

Rolling my eyes, I couldn’t believe it. Not only was I going, pretty much against my will but now I was also going alone. I thought maybe this would be an opportunity for my parents and I to actually bond and enjoy actual family time together but in reality, they just wanted me away from Noah.

The day went by pretty fast, as I mostly just packed the rest of my things away and before I knew it, I was already late for the movie night.

“Sorry, sorry!” I said, walking out into the backyard area. “I was packing and lost track of time-” Stopping in my tracks, I looked at the scenery around me. There was a giant screen and little white bean bags placed on the grass and even a snack and drink bar off to the side. “Tayler...”

“Talk to Casey and Charly.” He said, raising his hands in defence. 

“Here I am thinking it’s just gonna be us and turns out it’s a whole-ass party.” Wrapping my arms around Tayler, he pulled me into a hug before letting go.

“Speaking of party, I see you invited Noah.”

“Long story.” I informed, letting out a laugh. Looking over at him, I smiled as he returned one before I headed towards Casey, who was standing at the front by the screen.

“Okay guys, so today is unfortunately Regan’s last day here for...well, we don’t exactly know because she’s a pain in the ass like that.” Sarcastically rolling my eyes, I laughed along with Casey before she continued. “But um, in all honesty, I do hope you have an amazing trip and that you find there whatever you can’t find here.” My smile faded as I looked over at Noah, thinking about that statement. “Anyway, today we’ve got Grease!”

Making my way to the bean bag with Noah, I squished my way onto it as Noah wrapped his arm around me. Placing a soft kiss to the side of my head, I smiled as the movie started.

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The Moment - Noah Beck

Chapter Fifty

“I think we should probably figure out what we’re having for dinner, Noah.” The day had gone by so fast as we sat around and enjoyed each other’s company and I just never wanted it to end.

“I bought stuff for spaghetti, I’m thinking we’ll make a salad and some garlic bread?” Nodding my head, I headed into the kitchen and began pulling out the things we needed. “You’ll probably have way too much of this in Italy...I guess I didn’t really think that through.” Noah said, coming up behind me. 

I honestly didn’t even want to think about it. The thought of leaving him and all my friends in a couple of days was daunting and all I wanted to do was just ignore it. I can’t believe after everything that happened, I’m standing here making dinner with Noah and still leaving him behind in a couple of days.

“Let’s just not talk about it, okay?” I asked, placing the pasta in the pot. “I just want to enjoy whatever time we have left together.” Thinking about leaving for however long was really getting to me and it was starting to put a damper on my mood. We had a good day so far but the lingering feeling of goodbye was quickly setting in.

“Are you okay?” He asked, getting the plates ready.

Letting out a sigh, I closed the oven door and looked at him, beginning to play with the dish towel. “What’s going to happen to us when I go?” Still wanting a different response than the one I received before.

“Reg-”

“Noah seriously. I don’t know how long I’m going for and that’s what we need to think about. Are we together? Are we more than friends but slightly less than a relationship? Do we really want the first couple of months of our relationship, if we have one, to be me in Italy?” The room was silent as Noah processed what I was saying and I was terrified of the answer. I knew what was best for both of us but actually admitting that was not something I was prepared for. “The reality of it is, Noah, is that what we’re doing right now is fine but to think of it being anything more than that is naive at this point.”

“Okay, then let’s just go with it...Regan, I’m trying here and you’re really not making this easy.” He explained, running his fingers through his hair. Maybe I was being harsh but I just wanted to know what I was getting into before leaving.

“I’m not hungry.” I stated, placing the towel down on the counter and heading towards the bedroom. Hearing the beginning of my name leave Noah’s mouth, I closed the door and laid down on the bed. Today was supposed to be amazing, it was supposed to be romantic and it was supposed to be relaxing but when it came down to it, all it did was stress me out even more. 

About 20 minutes later, I heard the door open and felt Noah slide into the bed. His arms pulled me closer to him but still, we laid in silence.

“I want to be with you.” He whispered, his breath hitting the top of my head. “I want to walk around and call you my girlfriend again. I want to have dinners with your parents, who probably really dislike me. I want to sit in a room full of people and have them know that you’re with me. But,” He explained, shifting his position so he was now looking in my eyes. “if that means I have to wait until you get back, I’ll wait. I want you to have the best time and not worry about what or how I’m doing. So when you go, there’s no strings; you do whatever you want to do in whatever moment you’re in and when you come back, no questions asked. I love you, Regan and whether you’re here or there, that’s not going to change.”

Burying my head in his chest, his arms wrapped around my waist, tighter than before and I couldn’t help but feel a sense of relief. We have an understanding of where we stand and that’s honestly all I wanted. I’m not looking to start anything with anyone while I’m gone but at least this way, it doesn’t feel as though Noah and I have put our lives on hold for each other. This way, we can enjoy our lives and when I get back, it’ll be like nothing ever happened and we can get back on track. Lifting my head, I connected my lips with his and enjoyed every last second I had with him.

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The Moment - Noah Beck

Chapter Forty-Nine

With our chests pressed against each other, Noah ran his fingers through my hair and all I wanted to do was go for round two but this moment was just too pure to ruin.

“What are you thinking about?” He whispered, his breath hitting my face as he spoke.

“How I could live here in this cabin with you.” I explained, burying my head into his chest. His body was warm as I got as close to it as possible. “What’s going to happen when I’m gone, Noah?”

“I told you, I’m going to miss you everyday.” He explained.

“I mean besides that.” Pushing myself away from him, I sat up in the bed, holding the covers close to my chest. “I’m going to be away while you’re here...with Dixie.”

“Hey,” He said, sitting up next to me, forcing me to look at him. “I made a mistake with Dixie; I was stupid but I’m telling you right now, Regan, it never went to the level that you and I have. I know I haven’t exactly given you much reason to, but I need you to trust me.” The room fell silent as I thought about it, Noah was asking me to trust him....after everything he put me through, after everything I had to deal with...can I really trust him while in separate countries? “I love you, Regan.”

I froze. The last time I heard those words, they were coming from a completely different boy and everything in me was telling me to react the exact same way. Run.

“You don’t have to say it back, I know I probably don’t deserve to hear those words from you but I mean it.” I still didn’t know what to say or do. Sure, I felt so strongly for Noah and I felt like saying those words would be the right thing to do but it would also make leaving a hell of a lot worse. “Now, go shower; I’ll get started on lunch.”

“If I must...” I said, beginning to make my way towards the bathroom door, but stopping to lean my back against the door. “But it’ll just be oh so lonely in there...” I teased, stretching my leg out from the blanket I was using to cover myself. “How will I ever survive on my own...” Laughing as I saw Noah throw the blanket off him, he ran towards me, taking my waist in his hands, beginning to kiss me as he pushed me into the bathroom and towards the shower.

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Tying the elastic around the end of my braid, I walked down the hall, towards the kitchen, and felt my phone buzz in my pocket.

“Tomorrow night, since you’re leaving us Sunday morning, we’re having a movie night, you know, like the old days? So get your snacks and your comfy clothes ready.” Typing a quick response to Tayler, I shoved my phone away, entering the kitchen.

“So how are we going to spend the day?” I asked, pushing myself onto the counter.

“You tell me...” Noah said, sliding himself in between my legs and placing his hands on my waist. “We can do whatever you want...wherever you want...” His lips traveled down my neck as he spoke and God...there was nothing I wanted more than to rip his clothes off...again.

“Did we really just come here to have sex all day?” I asked, letting out a laugh.

“Would that really be such a bad thing?” He asked, looking up at me.

“No...” Pressing my lips against his, I thought about it. If this was how I was going to spend my last days in LA with Noah...I’m happy with it. “But,” I said, breaking the kiss. “there’s gotta be something we can do here...” Pushing Noah away from me, I jumped off the counter and began searching the cabin. Opening drawer after drawer, I couldn’t believe the boys hadn’t brought any boardgames here. “Jackpot.” I whispered to myself before making my way back towards the kitchen. “Strip Go-Fish?” I asked, holding up the deck of cards. “I would suggest Poker...but I don’t know how to play.” I laughed. 

“I’ll get the drinks.” Noah said.

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The Moment - Noah Beck

Chapter Forty-Eight

The car ride was silent but his right hand held onto my left, making me feel so at ease with everything around me. I honestly had nothing but questions when it came to Noah. Where were we going? Was this a date? Were we getting back together? What happened between him and Dixie? How much happened between him and Dixie?

“Are you ready?” He asked, raising our hands to his lips and softly kissing the back of mine. The car turned the corner and all I saw was road and I couldn’t have been anymore confused.

“Wow, I’m impressed, how’d you know this was my favourite road in LA?” I asked, turning to look at him. Watching as he tried to stop himself from laughing, I smiled, enjoying the view from the passenger side.

“Very funny.” He replied. “But what sarcastic remark can you find to say about that?” Pointing towards the windshield, I followed his finger and I just couldn’t...think. “Going away can be...um...stressful, so I um...” Smiling as Noah began to stutter, I pulled my hand away from his and began opening the car door. 

“Noah, just say you wanted to get me alone.” Stepping out of the car, leaving a frazzled Noah behind, I made my way towards the door. 

“The boys and I bought it,” He explained, coming up behind me. “when things get a little too much, we come out here and just relax a bit.” 

The cabin was small, nothing too crazy but the feeling it created made it so much more than just a cabin. It was homey, it was warm and it was inviting. No sounds of traffic, no camera flashes and certainly no worries about filming and uploading.

“Why have you guys never told me about this place?” I asked, walking further into the cabin.

“It’s in the rules.” He explained, pointing to a whiteboard placed just behind the front door.

1. Clean before leaving

2. Lock up before leaving

3. To preserve its relaxing state, refrain from telling anyone about this place

“Well you kinda broke rule 3.”

“With permission.” Placing my bag down, he walked over to me, placing his hands on my waist. “This place can be as much yours as it is mine, Regs. You don’t need to fly to another country to get away from it all; you can come here...with or without me.”

“Noah,” I whispered, placing my left hand on his right cheek before continuing. “it’s not up to me. My parents want me to go.” 

“You’ve been independent your whole life, why change that now? I don’t really understand it but I’ll say that I do to make it easier for you but just know that I’m going to be in LA missing the shit out of you and when you come back, I want to be the first face you see.”

“That,” I said, pulling his face closer to mine. “I can promise.” Pressing my lips against his, I wanted to live in this moment forever. It was one you only dream about and it was actually happening to me.

His hands felt cold against my skin as they slipped underneath my shirt, but as he broke the kiss to fully remove it, I missed the cold feeling. Watching as he pulled the back of his shirt over his hand, I placed my hands on his chest, sliding them down towards the button of his jeans. Taking my hand in his, he led me towards the bedroom, not bothering to close the door behind us, I sat him down on the edge of the bed as I stepped in between his legs, wrapping my arms around his neck. His hands fiddled with the button on my jeans, sliding them off before I pushed him back and climbed on top of him. The bed had been made up and looked so nice but I knew once we were done, it was going to look like a fucking mess.

A/N: Why am I starting to have a small crush on Michael Sanzone? WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME? These people that I NEVER thought were cute...ARE NOW CUTE. Send help.

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The Moment - Noah Beck

Chapter Forty-Seven

His hands were cold on my skin but the moment was anything but. He looked in my eyes and I couldn’t even think of words to say. I just wanted him back, I wanted what we had back.

“I should have never done any of it; I should have told you everything.” He explained, relaxing his hands a little but keeping them against my skin. “I’d sit next to Dixie and I’d just think ‘what the hell am I doing?’. She’s a lovely girl, don’t get me wrong but she’ll never mean to me what you do and I should have never tried to make her.”

“Noah,” I whispered, placing my hands on his wrists, removing his hands from my face. “I’m leaving...none of this matters anymore.”

Looking away from me, Noah sighed as he shoved his hands back in his pockets and returned to his original position against the car. I couldn’t look at him, I couldn’t bare to see him like this but I didn’t know what else to say. Feeling the tears begin to build, I turned back towards the house, deciding it was best to leave the conversation there but as I did, Noah spoke once more.

“Don’t go.”

“Noah, the party’s for me, I can’t-”

“I’m not talking about the party, Regan.” Looking over at me, as I turned back, his eyes pleaded with me. “Don’t go to Italy.”

“I have-”

“You don’t.” He said, making his way over to me once more. “You don’t have to; not anymore.”

I didn’t think it would ever happen again; his lips on mine. I didn’t think I’d ever feel it again; the feeling I got whenever he was around. It seemed so far from the point at which we were at but it wasn’t. His left hand was around my waist as his right cupped my cheek, pulling me closer to him with every second. It was a moment I never wanted to end. It was a moment I’d been longing for for so long now.

“Things are still so crazy around here.” I whispered against his lips, once they had left mine.

“And we’ll get through them together; going to Italy is only going to make things worse. And not to mention, I’m going to miss you way too much.”

Letting out a laugh, I placed my hand on his cheek, sliding my thumb over his lips before removing my hand. 

“I should really get back to the party.” Placing a soft kiss to my forehead, his hand left my waist and I immediately missed the feeling. Beginning to make my way towards the front door, I stopped as I heard Noah open his car door. “Aren’t you coming?” I asked, turning to face him.

Looking at me from over the door, he replied, “No, if I go in there, it’ll be about us and tonight’s about you. Go, I’ll call you.” Raising my eyebrows in doubt as that familiar statement left his lips, every time he didn’t call me began to run through my mind. “For real this time.”

Standing in the driveway, I watched his car disappear from my sight and suddenly I realized; the decision to leave had just become ten times harder. Heading back in, I saw everyone having a great time and after the conversation I just had, I knew this night was going to be one of the best ones I’ve had in a long time.

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Waking up the next morning, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I had two days left with my friends, two days left with Noah and two days left in LA.

“Morning gorgeous,” His voice ran through me and I swear I could have listened to it for the rest of my life. “Pack a bag; meet me at yours by 10.” The sound of the dial tone appeared as he hung up the phone and it was only then that I realized the time. 9:14am.

“Shit.” Jumping out of the spare bed, I laughed as I tripped over Griffin, who had fallen asleep on the floor next to the bed, instead of in it. Grabbing my belongings, I raced to my car and began making my way home.

“Walk of shame, I see.” It was almost as if that was his favourite position; leaning against the car, like he was the high school senior taking out the freshman for the very first time.

“I am so sorry, give me 10 minutes.” I pleaded, feeling so embarrassed about the state I was in.

“Don’t bother showering,” He instructed, opening his car door. “Where we’re going, we’ll be getting a hell of a lot dirtier.” Sending the sexiest smirk I’ve ever seen my way, he got in his car and closed the door without another word. Letting out a chuckle to hide how incredibly turned on I was just by the stupid smirk, I turned around and headed inside.

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The Moment - Noah Beck

Chapter Forty-Six

I sat on my bed, staring at a half-empty closet and I just didn’t know how I’d be able to do it. How can I just pick up and leave when everything that makes me happy is here? Sure, there are things that make me upset here and really make me regret some decisions I’ve made but shouldn’t the good outweigh the negatives? And if there’s more good than bad...is leaving really worth it?

“Hey, I need your help with something, come by the house tonight?” Tayler explained, as I read his message. “Dress up, we’re filming.” His second message came through and I couldn’t help but sigh as I thought about the effort I’d have to put in. 

I looked over at the many and quite frankly unnecessary amount of options I had, when my eyes landed on the dress I wore for my first date with Noah. That night was the first night I had ever worn it and I couldn’t help but think it was now tainted with memories of everything that happened. But it really was a cute dress...maybe I should wear it, give it a new ora; a positive one.

Putting the finishing touches on my makeup, I walked over to my closet, eyes peeled on the dress, still debating whether or not I’d give it another try. I’m already going to be thinking of Noah all night, what’s the difference if I’m wearing this dress or not?

Looking in the mirror, I checked myself out, making sure everything was in order before grabbing my purse, phone and keys and heading towards the door.

“Oh, sweetie, you look gorgeous.” My mom complimented, as she looked at me from the living room. “Going out?”

“Just helping Tayler with something.” Locking the door behind me, I entered my car, turning it on but before I left the driveway, I reached for my phone. “I’m leaving in two days, we should talk.” Pressing send, I let out a breath as I thought about where that conversation could go. There were so many possibilities that it was honestly stressing me out.

Walking into Tayler’s house, it was quiet...and that’s one thing this house isn’t. I heard voices coming from the backyard, so I made my way over there, assuming we’d be filming outside, which makes what I’m wearing even more unnecessary.

“SURPRISE!” Jumping back, as confetti was thrown in the air and flashes went off every five seconds, I looked around at a group of people all dressed to the nines, staring at me.

“You leaving really sucks, Regs...but at least it gave us another reason to party.” Tayler explained, walking over to me. “I’m really going to miss you, you know?” Bringing his hand to my cheek, his thumb swiped along my skin and I couldn’t help but let out a sad smile. How am I going to survive without my friends? Tilting my head to the left, I buried it in Tayler’s hand as I tried to fight back the tears.

“None of that,” Casey said, pulling Tayler away from me. “no tears, no sad smiles, no goodbyes...just...fun.”

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The party was amazing so far and I had everyone around me that made me the happiest person alive but there was still one thing hanging over my head. Just as I reached into my purse to pull out my phone, I felt it buzz.

“I’m outside.” Locking my phone, I looked around, wondering if anyone would notice I was gone...from a party thrown specifically for me....never.

The music seemed to disappear as I closed the front door behind me, making my way over to the boy who was leaning against his car with his hands shoved in his pockets. Watching as he lifted his head towards me, his eyes focused on my dress and a small part of me was hoping we could just ignore the obvious.

“I don’t want to keep you for long.” He explained, pushing himself off his car with his back. It was the first time in days that I was seeing him and though it might not seem like a long time, when you’re used to spending every day together, as friends and as more, days can feel like a lifetime. “I can’t believe you’re actually going, Regs. You know I never wanted this, I-”

“Then what did you want, Noah? Since clearly it wasn’t me.”

“Are you kidding me?” He asked, stepping closer to me. “You’re all I ever wanted. The second I got to LA, you were the reason I stayed. You made me feel the most secure I’ve ever felt in my life. But when I kissed you, in the bathroom, everything just became...so complicated after that and it was starting to look more like I was going to lose you than anything else. We said...we promised that we would be friends no matter what and I was trying to make sure that we kept that promise-”

“By getting with my best friend?” I said, cutting him off. “Noah, if you thought we were better off as friends, you should have just said that instead of causing all this shit!”

“That’s just it, Regan,” He said, stepping even closer to me and cupping my face as he continued, “I don’t think we’re better off as friends.” 

A/N: OHHHH! The conversation Regan DESERVES! The chapter YOU GUYS DESERVE! How is this conversation going to end? Will Regan and Noah work things out? Will things go south yet again? Let me know!

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The Moment - Noah Beck

Chapter Forty-Five

The days seemed to pass quicker than normal and I hated nothing more. I wanted to spend as much time with my friends as possible but the days barely allowed me to enjoy the moments. Two questions still remained on my mind; 1) should I really be going with my parents? and 2) should I call him?

I hadn’t spoken to him since the night I told him I was leaving and a part of me appreciated that but at the same time, another part of me hated it. I hate to admit it but when I told him, I was hoping he’d beg me to stay or at least talk to me out going but all he did was...well, nothing. I think that’s what hurt the most; he couldn’t even say anything, not even as a friend. Granted, we’re not really friends anymore.

“Regs...”  Griffin said, throwing a pillow in my direction, snapping me out of my thoughts.

“Sorry.” Looking back at the camera, I ushered Bryce to continue. He was filming a random vlog bit of asking his friends random questions...content at its finest.

“Cake or cupcakes?”

“Cake.”

“Balloons or streamers?”

“Balloons.”

“Day or night?”

“Night.”

“Great! Thanks.” Bryce said, beginning to put his camera away.

“Are you not asking Griff?”

“Oh, he asked me already.” Griffin explained, waving it off. Nodding my head, I sat down next to Griffin on the couch, swinging my legs over his. Slightly turning his upper body towards me, he asked “Are you going to try to talk to him before you leave?”

“Hang on a minute,” Bryce said, inserting himself into the conversation. “We need to clarify who the “he” is in this situation because at this point, it could be Noah or Ryland.” Rolling my eyes, I knew I was about to get the third degree.

“Yeah, what the hell is that about?” Griffin asked. “I mean, how in the hell did Ryland Storms....get you?”

“Yeah, you do realize Griffin Johnson exists, right?” Sighing as I shook my head, I watched as Griffin fist bumped Bryce. Slapping Griffin’s left arm, I couldn’t help but laugh as he shrugged his shoulders.

“What? Gotta give credit where credit’s due.” He said, laughing. “No but seriously, Ryland’s the one in the video, isn’t he?”

“It happened once and then it just kept happening and pretty soon, it was hard to not be with him, you know?” Watching them nod their heads, I knew they were mentally trying to think back to a situation where Ryland and I potentially made it obvious but I knew they’d never find one. We were careful...almost too careful at times. 

“Damn, who knew Ryland was that good.” Griffin said, laughing along with Bryce.

Trying to avoid the embarrassment that I was currently feeling, I changed the subject, “What would I even say to Noah? I mean, he jumped ship so quickly, I don’t think he even cares whether or not we end on a positive note.”

“Did he ever tell you why he did it?” Bryce asked.

Looking over at Bryce, I scrunched my face, thinking about how to answer that but in reality, I couldn’t because I didn’t have an answer. He hadn’t. He had never given me an explanation as to why he did it. The only information I got from him was that he was the one who instigated it with Dixie but that still didn’t tell me why. 

I guess Ryland was right...there is something I’m holding onto. 

A/N: Why do you guys think Noah did it? Did something happen? Was he scared? Did he just not care about Regan like he said he did? Let me know!

[hypingthesway]

The Moment - Noah Beck

Chapter Forty-Four

His lips brushed mine and I knew I should have stopped him but there was something telling me not to. He was the one who was always there...he’s the one who’s still here. My hand found his neck, pulling him closer but what happened next shocked me the most.

“I’m sorry.” My hand fell from his neck as he pulled away, stepping away from me. “I don’t know why I thought that was a good idea. I um-”

“Ryland, it’s okay, really-” I explained, trying to reassure him as I took his wrist in my hand.

“No, it’s...not.” Pulling away, he made his way to the doorway as he spoke, “We should go, Cross, we don’t want them to suspect anything.” Watching as he left, I couldn’t help but mentally slap myself in the face. What was I thinking?

“Ryland?” Letting out a sigh as I reached the doorway, I knew exactly who had caught us. Looking at Casey’s surprised face, I knew if she had never caught us together, she would have never figured it out. 

“Ryland.” I repeated. I honestly didn’t feel the need to explain myself, as it seemed things between me and Ryland were going to be left in the past. Heading back out to the pool area, I stood next to Jaden and Nick in the circle and waited for the music to begin.

“Alright! The rules,” Tayler shouted, getting everyone’s attention. “We’re going to start with Josh, when the first Thunder comes up, Josh will begin drinking until the next Thunder comes up, in which he will stop and Nessa will start and then so on and so forth. This game is designed to get you fucked up, so if you’re not on that level, we go again until you are! Start!” The music began playing and everyone began singing along and I just knew it was going to be a wild time.

---

Sitting down on the pool chair, I brought the can to my lips as I mumbled against it, “So after all that, we’re just going to ignore each other again?” He hadn’t spoke to me since the kitchen and honestly, I thought we would’ve just been able to have a conversation out in the open, as it felt like we were in a good place. 

“You ignored me, Cross.”

“And now you’re ignoring me. Does it really matter?” I asked, not understanding why it mattered who ignored who first. Deciding to ignore the fact that everyone was around us and would probably, at some point, clue into the fact that we were having more than just a causal conversation, I turned to face him, crossing my legs in the process. “Do you remember, it was at some random party at Hype, when everyone was so fucked up and you and I actually spent the entire time together? We weren’t worried about people seeing us or wondering what was going on; it was just...us.”

“Regan, it was you,” Looking away as my first name left his mouth, I knew what happened...well what almost happened in the kitchen was really getting to him. “who was worried the entire time. You know how many times I sat in a room full of people and I wanted to just blurt it out? You know how many times Fletcher asked me if I was seeing anyone and it killed me to say no? I hated keeping you a secret; to me, it downplayed how much I actually cared about you. I wanted to kiss you, in the kitchen. God, I wanted to kiss you so bad,” swinging his legs to the edge of his chair as he faced me, he took my hands in his as he continued, “ but it wouldn’t have done either of us any good. There’s something about Noah that you’re holding onto and there’s something about you that I’m holding onto. The only difference between us is that I know what it is; you don’t. Talk to him...forgive him...figure it out.” Leaning over to me, his right hand found my cheek as he pressed a soft kiss to the other one. before getting up from the chair. “I’m not going to say it again, Regan, cause it’s not my place but I don’t think you should go and I think you know that too.”

Looking down towards my phone as he walked away, I knew there was really only one thing left to do but the question was...did I have the balls to do it?

A/N: Has anyone actually played Thunderstruck? Cause I have and oof, it really does get you! But it’s a good time so if you haven’t, (and you’re of age) try it out with your friends, when it’s safe to do so!

[hypingthesway]

The Moment - Noah Beck

Chapter Forty-Three

He had moved from the fridge to the counter and was now sitting beside me as we sat in silence. I honestly don’t know what made me say it. Maybe it was the alcohol, maybe it was the fact that I was leaving at the end of the week or maybe it was the fact that it was true.

Ryland was someone I never thought I would connect with on a romantic level...and honestly, a platonic one as well. Sure, we’d have conversations here and there when everyone else was around but when I met him, to think of being alone with him in a room and being genuinely happy and comfortable, that seemed like something so impossible but it wasn’t. Even now, sitting here with him in complete silence, I feel so at peace with everything and I can’t believe I ruined that feeling by fearing what others would think and say about our relationship.

“That’s all I ever wanted.” His words were quiet; mainly because of the music but I think he was holding back the shakiness of them. Pushing himself back further on the counter, he turned to face me, crossing his legs, as he continued, “When I met you, I saw something in you that I only wished I could see in everyone else; myself included. The way you viewed life was something I’ve never seen before. You cherished it, you experienced every single moment for what it was; good or bad and you feel everything so deeply, I just wanted to make sure the only thing you felt was happiness. That day that I saw you dancing on the edge of the pool with Kouvr to the fucking Backstreet Boys before slipping and taking Kouvr down with you, I knew I should have told you...what you meant to me and how much I wanted to be more than just a guy you occasionally said hi to.”

I didn’t know whether or not I should speak; I had never gotten this much out of Ryland before and I feel like he really needed to let all of this go; whether or not it was killing me to hear it.

“Basically, I just um...” He continued, as I mimicked his sitting position. “I get why you feel like you need to go and I’m not going to be the asshole who tells you to stay but um...I don’t want you to feel like all of us aren’t on your side or that we can’t help you with this because we are and we can. I think you’re better than him but you can’t help who you love.”

The silence returned as I thought about it; maybe it hurt so bad because the one person I pushed aside my biggest fear for turned out to be an asshole and the one person I refused to do it for turned out to be the only one who deserved it.

“I can’t stay, Ryland.”

“And that’s fine, really it is, but I couldn’t go another however many months without telling you what I’ve been meaning to say for ages now. You made me feel, Cross and I’ll never forget that.”

“What the hell are you two doing in here!?” Josh asked as he ran towards the fridge. “We’re about to play Thunderstruck!” Grabbing two drinks, he left the kitchen, just as fast as he came in.

“Wouldn’t want to miss that.” Ryland said, letting out a small smile as he pushed himself off the counter and extended his hand towards me. Taking hold of it, I pushed myself off the counter with my other hand but a small part of me couldn’t let go of him. My eyes locked onto his as he placed his free hand on the counter beside me and there it was.

Was I really having the moment with Ryland? Was it real? Or was it just because of all the things he said? I didn’t think I’d ever be in a position where starting things back up with Ryland would ever be an option. But here I was with Ryland slowly and quite frankly...unsurely, leaning towards me...

A/N: Uh Oh!!! Will Regan and Ryland start things back up again? Or will something ruin the moment? Do you guys ship Regan and Ryland? What’s their ship name? Let me know!

[hypingthesway]

The Moment - Noah Beck

Chapter Forty-Two

“You better shop every single day; I want a complete wardrobe upgrade.” Casey instructed as we sat on the edge of the pool. “Oh, and call me every day.” Letting out a laugh, I nodded my head in agreement before bringing my drink up to my lips.

“Well you weren’t wrong.” Griffin said, shoving his phone in my face as he sat down next to me. Rolling my eyes at the article that was plastered all over the internet, as I knew that it would be. “How do they get it out so fast? I mean, it’s only been a couple of hours.”

“Because these people have nothing better to do, Griff.” 

Letting out a chuckle, he nodded his head as he said “Fair enough.”

“Are you three coming in or what?” Josh asked, popping his head from out of the water. “It’s supposed to be a pool day, not a ‘sit by the pool’ day.” 

“Just give me a sec; let me get another drink.” I said, getting up from the edge.

“Or you could go in now.” Feeling a body against mine, I held my breath as my body hit the water and I was already ready to kill whoever that was. 

“Ryland.”

“Hey Cross,” He said, with a smirk on his face. “Funny seeing you here.”

“What are you doing here?” I asked. It’s not that I minded that he was here, it’s just that I wasn’t expecting him to be. I mean, I just didn’t think the invitation had been extended past Sway.

“I invited him, obviously.” Tayler said, joining the conversation. “We said invite everyone so I...invited everyone.”

“Plus, information spreads quickly...who knows if the Hype House would have seen you before you left.” I looked away, avoiding Ryland’s sad eyes as he looked at me. I couldn’t bare the thought of breaking his heart for the second time. “Hey,” He said, reaching for my hand under the water, as Tayler swam away. “you sure this is what you want to do?” His fingers brushed mine as I thought about everything that happened. I broke Ryland’s heart and Noah broke mine.

“Positive.” I lied. I’m not sure about it; I’m not sure about anything anymore. “I’m going to grab a drink.”

Heading into the kitchen, I tied my hair back in a pony before reaching the fridge. Pulling out a drink, I stood in the kitchen, trying to convince myself that this was going to be a good thing. Heading to Italy is going to help me; it’s going to clear my head of everything that went to shit this year and it’s going to help get my mind back on track. 

“How long are you going for?”

“A month or two...maybe more.” I explained, breathing out.

“So in other words, you don’t know.”

“Ryland-”

“It’s fine Cross, do what you gotta do.” Hopping onto the counter, I watched as Ryland grabbed a drink from the fridge, closed the door and leaned against it, tracing the rim of the can. “I really hope you’re doing this for you; it’s been a while since you’ve listened to yourself instead of other people.”

“You made me happy.” I blurted out, instantly regretting even thinking it. Watching as his eyes darted up from the can, I knew I had just started something I wasn’t sure I could finish.

[hypingthesway]

The Moment - Noah Beck

Chapter Forty-One

“So how we are going to spend the next week with you, Regs? What do you want to do?” Bryce asked.

“I need a way to make this up to Casey. I cannot have my best friend being pissed at me.”

“Why don’t we do a pool day?” Griffin suggested, looking at the group. “We’ll get the music going, have a couple drinks, invite everyone and just enjoy the day.”

“Well we’re certainly not inviting everyone.” I said, shaking my head. If this is going to be my last week with the group, I sure as hell don’t want those two around. “But I’m down. I’ll have to go home and grab a swimsuit but-”

“I’ll come with you, I’ll have to pick up some booze anyway.” Griffin said, beginning to get up from the chair. “Plus, this might be my only chance to make a move.” Winking as his arm wrapped over my shoulders, I couldn’t help but laugh. We both know nothing would ever happen with us, the only reason being that he dated one of my best friends and despite what she’s done to me, I could never return the favour.

“Alright, lay it on me.” Griffin said, as we closed the doors to his car.

“Excuse me?” 

Letting out a chuckle, he continued, “You can’t seriously leave over Noah; there’s gotta be more to it than that. He’s a nice guy but he’s not worth leaving the country because of.”

“It’s all just getting too much, Griff. I mean, let’s be real, this time tomorrow, there’s going to be an article about you and me doing what we’re doing except people are going to think we’re dating. It might help you in the long run because you’re a boy but it really doesn’t do me any good.”

“But come on Regan, leaving the country!?”

“Why do you guys keep saying it like that? It’s not like I’m leaving for good; I’m coming back.”

“Because Regs,” Griffin said, as he began to open the door as we arrived at the store. “that’s what it feels like when you go away; to us it feels like a lifetime.”

Sitting in the car as I waited for Griffin to come back, I wondered if that was true. I wondered if me going away for a couple of months really had that much of an affect on the others. Maybe going away is causing more harm than good at this point.

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“Finally!” Bryce shouted as Griffin and I returned to Tayler’s. 

The house was filled with all of my best friends and I just knew this day was going to be a good one. However, there was one final thing I still needed to do.

“Casey...”

“Regan...”

Our arms wrapped around each other and I knew an explanation wasn’t needed but it just felt so unfinished without one.

“I shouldn’t have reacted like that.” Casey began.

“You had every right; I should have told you the minute I found out. I promise you that I’m not going to be like my parents; I’m going to come back.”

“I know.” 

“Now that we’re back on track here,” Tayler said, wrapping both arms around me and Casey. “let’s have a good fucking day.”