✧ I am mixed origins please for the love of hell itself stop reblogging or commenting on my shit. lf you are interacting with my blog while being anti-endogenic systems , you are breaking your own dni. Let me be mostly traumagenic with some others in peace.
to everyone who’s responded to this post with “people are terrible” and “people who call themselves good are bad” and “everyone i’ve ever met is awful”
this post is for you specifically
i know we all hate reading comprehension on tumblr dot hell, but this post is not about other people. it’s not about the people who have hurt you, or saved you, or the ones you’ve met or those who you’ve invented in your head
this post is about you
if you cannot find evidence of the goodness around you, if you are jaded and your existence is miserable and you truly believe no one has ever showed you kindness, then this post is for and about you
you can’t control the actions of other people. you can’t make people show you kindness in the ways you want to receive it. if you look for proof of your version of kindness in the people who surround you, and can’t find it, you can decide it doesn’t exist
or you can be your own proof of concept
you are not special
there are at least hundreds of thousands of people who are just like you
so if you can choose to show others kindness - if you can bite back your temper and hold the door open for others and overtip and compliment strangers - then that is proof that hundreds of thousands of people, who are just like you, are capable of doing the same and likely are doing the same
i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again
the simplest way to increase the number of kind people in the world is to be one
A liddle is a headmate that feels like they are between a little and a middle. Some liddles may behave similarly to and/or feel like a child, tween or teen or slide between them but this is not a requirement.
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Examples:
an age slider who slides between little and middle (example: a headmate who slides between 10-14 in a system where 10-12yr olds are considered littles and 13-14yr olds are considered middles)
a little who is more mature than most
a middle who is less mature than most
a middle who age regresses
a headmate who's age borders between little and middle (example: the system considers 12 year olds middles and the headmate is about to turn 12)
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Related roles:
little
middle
biggle
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Colour meaning:
colours picked as a mix of the little flag and middle flag on pluralpedia
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Alt name: kiddle
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A liddle is a headmate that feels like they are between a little and a middle. Some liddles may behave similarly to and/or feel like a child, tween or teen or slide between them but this is not a requirement.
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Examples:
an age slider who slides between little and middle (example: a headmate who slides between 10-14 in a system where 10-12yr olds are considered littles and 13-14yr olds are considered middles)
a little who is more mature than most
a middle who is less mature than most
a middle who age regresses
a headmate who's age borders between little and middle (example: the system considers 12 year olds middles and the headmate is about to turn 12)
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Related roles:
little
middle
biggle
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Colour meaning:
colours picked as a mix of the little flag and middle flag on pluralpedia
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Alt name: kiddle
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pinterest link
pluralpedia link
If you would like to repost/upload this or any of our other work to a different site, feel free to do so with credit
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Already coined? consider this an alt flag
Feel free to make alt flags and tag me or link back to this post
an alter that holds any trauma related to unpredictable parents/guardians.
the -type umbrella was made by @minnowco1ns as an all-ages alternative to the -kid umbrella. the colors and snake image were taken from the Snakekid design as found on Pluralpedia, which does not have a known original coiner*.
archival tags: @radiomogai @liom-archive
*while Pluralpedia currently accredits it to the Pinterest user fcralfcnrir, other -kid flags with a similar design which mention them in the Coiner field state that there is no known coiner and it was simply reuploaded by fcralfcnrir onto Pinterest.
A part that is programmed to be strongly compelled to obey their programmers / those who are approved by their programmers to the point they have little of their own autonomy.
This term is RAMCOA/OEA exclusive.
Virtue Programmed
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A part that is programmed to only do what their programmers consider ‘good’ or ‘correct’. The part can be programmed to be an angel / the program might be religion related or not.
This term is RAMCOA/OEA exclusive.
Sin Programmed
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A part that is programmed to only do what their programmers consider ‘bad’ or ‘wrong’, often paired with scapegoating them or making them believe that they’re the reason the abuse is happening. The part can be programmed to be a demon / the program might be religion related or not.
[A screenshot of a post by Phosphor [&] @/bazelgeuse-apologist from the now-shutdown social media platform, Cohost.]
every so often I see people go "why am I host, there are so many other people in this head who would do a better job--" okay, but would they really? is the problem really that you, specifically, are weak, or is the problem that your life would reduce anyone to a fine paste? what makes you so sure that your headmates wouldn't also crack under the Ceaseless Onslaught Of Being Embodied?
"I suck at being on fire, there are people other than me who would be better at being on fire--" no one is good at being on fire!!! I get wanting a break from being on fire but please do not put yourself down for not being at your best when you are on fire
Over our decade-plus in the community, we've seen a certain genre of thought show up again and again. People complaining about their system's current host, whether that's non-hosts ragging on the host or hosts ragging on themselves. People asking how to change the host of their system. People assuming that the problem is the host, specifically, and that if they were swapped out for someone more sane, more able, more acceptable, their problems would be fixed.
To be clear, we do have a lot of sympathy for the people saying these things. In almost every case, this sentiment is born out of the system being in an incredibly stressful situation, exacerbated by maladaptive coping techniques and executive dysfunction. When you're a host, it's easy to hate yourself even more than a singlet would, because there's a bunch of other people inside suffering from the consequences of self-neglect and self-destruction. When you're a non-host, "frustration" doesn't even begin to describe what it's like to be chained to someone else, and yet helpless to act as you're both slowly dragged under.
We should know. We once thought this ourselves, after all.
The problem is, host-changing isn't the silver bullet it's assumed to be. (We should know. We experienced it, after all.) There are reasons why singlets fall into addiction, self-harm, push people away - trauma, abusive living environments, undiagnosed conditions. The list goes on, and at no point does it include "because they're just a bad person." Likewise, there are reasons why a host may fall into addiction, self-harm, etc - and many of the reasons are the same. Plural people aren't so fundamentally different from singlets. It's tempting to wipe the slate clean by putting someone else in charge, but the slate will not stay clean* so long as the things responsible for driving the host into dysfunction remain unaddressed.
(* If it was even clean to begin with. Chances are, it wasn't. It's just messy in a different way.)
Now, I'm not saying that you aren't allowed to be frustrated or depressed. Nor am I saying that you have to give up on selves-improvement and that hosts should be free to run their systems into the ground without criticism. What I am saying is to be critical of the line of thought that leads to "our host is Bad and our non-hosts are Good and everything would be fixed if we had a different host." And by "critical", I don't mean that you should repress these thoughts or beat yourselves up for having them. I mean you should look closer:
What external things are making the system's life hard right now? This can include interpersonal things like abusive caretakers, big world things like current events, past trauma and undiagnosed conditions, material stress like lack of food...
How might the host's (and other headmates') behaviors be linked to these stressors?
What is making it hard for them to address maladaptive behavior? What has actually helped them make meaningful change? What hasn't?
Once you have an understanding of why Things Are Hard, think about what you can do to reduce harm:
Of these stressors, which are within your control right now? You might not be able to singlehandedly control world politics, but maybe there's a shitty friend who you can slowly distance yourself from, or you can work towards learning better coping skills for cPTSD. You do not have to fix everything that is wrong in the world - you just need to find yourselves a little more breathing room.
Of the uncontrollable stressors, what are some things you can do to redirect self-harming energy? We have friends who, whenever something politically shitty happens, find a way to directly help the people in their city, and then they go for a run to release the tension from their body. (Said friends are poor, trans, and disabled, too, so this isn't just a matter of privilege making it easy to soak up blows.) There will always be things outside of your direct and immediate control, but you can learn to reduce the harm that they might compel you to cause to yourself.
What kinds of support would be helpful for doing these things? Where might you be able to find this support? (Non-shitty friends, online support groups, competent therapists...)
And most importantly:
How can you all, as a system, work together towards these goals, without using shame or coercion? (If the answer is "work together? lmao as if" then it might be worth working on in-system conflict management, communication, etc. This, too, is a vital harm reduction skill.)
Once you have harm reduction in hand, you can think about what you might be able to do to move towards a better future. What would this better future look like? What are some concrete things you can do to prepare for that future? This might mean learning life skills like cooking and budgeting in preparation for moving away from abusive family. This might mean finding connections in a city that you want to move to. This might mean doing volunteer work to get to know like-minded people, which can open up unexpected opportunities in turn.
Good luck, and be kind to all of yourselves - it isn't easy being embodied.
Further reading:
Not Applicable's post on the topic of switching hosts and their #cooperation tag.
LB Lee's How to Make a Pocket Crisis Guide and The Psychological Badness Scale
reminder that the books themselves also suck ass actually. there's an entire plotline endorsing slavery. the one character who advocates to end slavery is bullied and made fun of. the one slave who doesnt like being enslaved is bullied and treated as an outcast. the bankers are the picture of racist stereotypes of jewish people. the one asian character is named fckn Cho Chang. the worldbuilding SUCKS. fuck harry potter and fuck rowling. stop giving her your money.
213 followers or so on syspiration. . . I wonder at what point will we get hate in our inbox? Like I've been told to kill myself on this account , had somebody jump me for using the cpunk tag "wrong" on mundane excitements when that was a thing ( when excluding one post it was me, a physically disabled person, posting about things that excited me in a day)
But syspiration? Is fine so far? I wonder if its because I have no obvious stances on there. I guess. I wonder when someone will ask about our rq stance. Because I've seen both pro rqs and anti rqs follow us on there
To be fair , most of our Internet stances is "we actually dont like blanket labelling an entire group. I will judge based on person." We are violently pro endo though. And on the left side of politics. But you know
I have a lot of thoughts about how online spaces treat minors who went through sexual trauma. Im not sure how to word most of them though. I think minors should be allowed to have a space to talk about what happened without being told they can't talk about it with no pointers of where they can
Having a breakdown? Why don't you try our new, original and ethically tested solution : Switching With Your Headmates™? Only for the low low price of a maybe headache and sometimes a "where the fuck are we". Available in your nearest plural shops. Sometimes. When it wants to work.
⠀⠀⠀personality⠀⠀⠀﹕ brighteyes kinda of gives of,,,a vibes of a aunt who had anything to be really annoying but shes not and shes really fun and sweet and awesome to be around, kinda like of the awesome nanny you visit once and then never again.
⠀⠀⠀front triggers⠀⠀⠀﹕ source content, getting the system ready to go out, dressing up, clothing shops
⠀⠀⠀hobbies⠀⠀⠀﹕ playing roleplay games or any sort of game that has character customization or decor, taking walks, calling with friends, sewing, watching drama shows/fake reality tv
⠀⠀⠀aesthetic pics⠀⠀⠀﹕
⠀⠀⠀outfits⠀⠀⠀﹕
⠀⠀⠀voiceclaim⠀⠀⠀﹕ cake(fionna and cake)(or akin to it)