The Book of Ghobli

[i-am-ghobli]

My Life when gets Zaff...

I just cant imgine now how m life went as I stumble greatly with all my decision at the moment, everything seemed falling apart from my lovelife, personal choices, financials and even business, They are all not aligned to what was planned.

I am trying rebuild myself and seek what is unknown , for this past few months, I have action that seemed very unthinkable something that is not me deciding it actions resulted to a rough result and even unbearable pain, let me start when i started tio know Zaff

I know him through a social media app called growlr , People their are really boring , I was only their to just get some time off and speak to anyone about anything even none sense things which most of the time , till one time I got a message from an unknown profile without a picture or anything on it , Just a random hello and thats it.

We exchanges photos at first it was not a guy that I really wanted to hang out with , the looks is not the guy I realy wanted to meet up also the age gap is way too young for me , we went to a videocall and it went okay , Just this one night we agreed to meet up the next day .

It was really a busy day for me, I have lot if things to do actually until but I really wanted to get drunk that time , I dont remember when it was but I miss the feeling of getting wasted . So I agreed to meet up with Zaff with my partner's consent . Im not sure actually if this is a real person to begin with But I feel comfortable setting up this with him for some reason, I bought alcohol as planned even without him im okay getting drunk tonight

But this changes when we persolly meet inside the mall, I remember how he smells good that time someothing like a portion that just drifted me away and getting me so excited. It was really an impression that I know will last long and will let me remeber until this date . I looked at him and I know there is something on this guys that hooked me up , its not only the smell but also the way he look and smile, his eyes are almost a chinese man hahahah cant see it even on a short distance. .

I was very shy at that time even introducing to him , time is way to fast to analyse things of what is happening, Just one goal at this time to get the drinking started as planned . Then we have a small talks sof what happened to him and what was his previous relationship he mentioned of a failed relationship and seemingly ask of wanting him back , I even asked him to be back with them for some reason , I understand the feeling of those guys, but Zaff is different , I know he still wanted them but he has princsiples he believes in and something that is none negotibles and that is one of them , Once he step back there is no turning back , and that whats happened

I took the advantage of highlighting him of how our relationahip last with Aivan for almost 4 years now with a yeara of dating , we are still strong , I remember Aivan even saying that he is okay with the current set-up and that it wont never be a problem to him , which is a relief as what I have seen with zaff I know we have something , A future that can be unfold.

We have talked about sensefull things that night , I realy enjoy talking to this guy , I think we have a connection that is very important to some called dates. I was getting very excieted to what will happen next , Will after we got drunk , We got wasted and started the steamy night with him. The night is wild and is very sexy though I felt that his into Aivan than into me but thats okay , Im the one who initiated most of the thing that night and seemed like everything goes to plan . We woke up and enjoy most of the things in the morning . We took our breakfast and say good bye to zaff , and all the smiles and memories are here very intact even, I even took a recording of the kisses we had that night :)

and then hours of replies took minutess even seconds , It took very swiftly for us , I got very close to him , though there are some parts that I am still trying to figure things out about him as it seemed there are alot of thing to unlock for him . We took our second night again and we just talked and talked the whole night until we got tired . For me that was a very ideal night even having a shift the next day , It was worth the effort .

We got more hugs and kisses with him and even call him my BABY , I invited him to see my friends for a dinner but he declines and thats okay , I know there are alot of things to happen sonner so this can wait for sure . I asked for his opinion about meeting my ex and his not okay with it and I understand it , but for some reason i think that one of the minus points I made for him, Cause he has a point and I disregard it. , though to be honest at this point we are just friends and just maybe dating nothing official so I think this is none of his businesss. ?

Days passed with the regular morning messages and kamusta, all went well , we even schedule a game for a badminton with him and we are excited about it , we enjoy the game so good thats our 3rd night being together. We build memories out of this and everthing is build with good structure and purpose and intention.

But please this is just a start, emotions are being played and conflict arises for this. ....

can’t even begin to imagine how my life ended up here. Lately, I’ve been stumbling hard. Every single choice I make feels heavy, and everything seems to be falling apart all at once—my love life, my personal decisions, my finances, my businesses. Nothing is aligning with the plans I carefully laid out.

I’m trying to rebuild myself from the ground up, searching for answers in the unknown. But these past few months, I’ve made moves that feel entirely unlike me. Decisions that led to rough, unbearable pain.

And it all really started when I met Zaff.

I found him on Growlr. Let’s be real, the people on there are usually boring. I was only active to get some time off, to find a distraction and talk to anyone about absolutely anything, even nonsense. Then, a message popped up from an unknown profile. No picture. No info. Just a random, simple "hello."

We exchanged photos. Honestly? He wasn’t my usual type, and the age gap felt way too wide. But we hopped on a video call, and it went well enough that we spontaneously agreed to meet up the very next day.

It was a chaotic, busy day for me, but I had one stubborn goal: I wanted to get drunk. I missed the feeling of just getting completely wasted. So, with my partner’s consent, I agreed to meet Zaff. I wasn’t even sure if he was a real person, but for some reason, I felt comfortable taking the risk. I bought the alcohol ahead of time—I was perfectly fine getting drunk alone if he flaked.

But everything shifted the moment we met at the mall.

I still remember his scent. It hit me like a potion, drifting me away and replacing my stress with pure excitement. It was an impression made to last, one I still carry vividly today. I looked at him and knew right away that he had me hooked. It wasn’t just the smell; it was his look, his smile, and those eyes that practically disappeared when he laughed—so Chinese-like that I could barely see them even from a short distance haha.

I was incredibly shy introducing myself. Everything was moving way too fast to analyze, so I focused on the main mission: get the drinks pouring. As we settled in, we shared small talk about his past. He opened up about a failed relationship where the ex seemingly wanted him back. I even found myself suggesting he give it another shot, mostly because I understood the pain of the other guy. But Zaff is different. He still cared, sure, but he has unshakeable principles. Non-negotiables. Once he steps back, there is absolutely no turning back. That was my first glimpse of who he really is.

I used that opening to highlight my own life—how Aivan and I have been going strong for almost four years now, plus a year of dating. I remembered Aivan telling me he was completely fine with our current setup and that it would never be an issue. It was a massive relief because, looking at Zaff, I felt a spark. A future waiting to unfold.

We talked about real, meaningful things that night. I genuinely loved his vibe; we had that rare, authentic connection people search for on dates. The excitement was building, and once the alcohol took over, we got beautifully wasted.

What followed was a wild, incredibly sexy, steamy night. To be completely honest, I felt like he was a bit more into Aivan than me, but I was okay with that. I was the one who initiated most of it anyway, and everything seemed to go perfectly to plan. The next morning was just as sweet. We had breakfast, said our goodbyes, and those smiles remained entirely intact in my mind. I even took a little video recording of our kisses from that night. :)

Soon, our response times dropped from hours to minutes, then to seconds. We sped up. I got so close to him so quickly, even though I knew there were still so many layers to unlock. On our second night together, we just talked and talked until we physically couldn’t anymore. Even with a work shift the next day, it was the ideal night. Totally worth the effort.

The hugs and kisses grew more frequent. I even started calling him my "BABY." I invited him to have dinner with my friends, but he declined—which was fine, I figured we had all the time in the world for that. But then I asked his opinion about me meeting up with my ex. He wasn’t okay with it. Looking back, I think that’s where I lost points with him. He had a valid point, and I brushed it off, thinking, “We’re just friends dating anyway, nothing is official, so it's none of his business, right?”

Days went by filled with regular morning texts and kumusta updates. Everything felt solid. We even scheduled a badminton match, which became our 3rd night together. We had a blast. We were building memories with a real structure, purpose, and intention.

But this was only the beginning. Because right after the high, the emotions started playing tricks, and the conflict walked right in...

[i-am-ghobli]

Between Breakdowns and Breakthroughs

Ang dami talagang nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon.

Looking back from when I first took the risk to make some of the biggest decisions in my life, sobrang laki ng naging jump—mula sa simula hanggang ngayon. I won’t lie, may mga desisyon akong pinagsisihan. Some caused me pain and disappointment. Kaya ngayon, sinusubukan kong linisin yung isip ko, to remind myself of my north star—kung bakit ko nga ba ito sinimulan. So let me share with you the journey.

This is the story of how I started chasing my dreams.

I was always hopeful about what’s next. I had a stable income, and for someone my age, I was doing pretty well—nakakabili ng bagong phone, gadgets, or even travel abroad. But to be honest, I only pushed myself this hard because of a personal challenge I thought I couldn't overcome. My dream wasn't just a dream—it was fueled by heartbreak, by the feeling of not being enough for someone I loved. Seeing someone else take my place lit a fire in me. I thought I was reaching the finish line, but in reality, it was just the beginning of a much longer journey.

I’ve always known life isn’t easy. It’s full of tests, struggles, and painful lessons—but I never saw that as a problem before. I used to be a happy-go-lucky kind of person, going with the flow, confident I could make it through anything. That changed when I took my first real step out of my comfort zone.

I was earning well in a 9-hour shift job—5 AM to 3 PM. Life was stable. Then I moved out from my previous Employeer , A tech company for a higher salary and better benefits, though it meant working 12-hour shifts, four days a week. Surprisingly, I loved it. That 4-day rest felt like a luxury. I reached my first ₱500,000 in savings because of that job, and it really changed my lifestyle and life goals.

That opportunity also made me take more risks—I started investing, grew my credit limit to ₱3 million, and thought I was finally “making it.”

Then I realized, not all investments are failures. In fact, Top Up Online helped me build credit history—from ₱2M credit limit in 2023 to ₱8M today. UpSpace helped me lower my monthly costs and improve my living situation. Dati, nagbebedspace lang ako paying ₱4,500/month. Looking back, I saved about ₱216,000 in four years, even with some months na ako yung nag-shoulder ng rent dahil walang tenant. Still, it helped me survive and grow.

After a breakup in 2023, I struggled rebuilding myself. That’s when I started experimenting with other investments—crypto, lending—but those didn’t work for me. I realized I needed more training and experience. I loaned ₱100K to try my luck in the PSE stock market—disaster. Then in 2024, I loaned ₱1.2M to start my pharmacy business in Capiz. Since then, I’ve been bleeding for it. Sales targets are still unmet, and despite my efforts to manage operations, something felt off.

I was ready to shut it down, but my family wanted to save it. So I shifted focus—I decided to open another pharmacy in Metro Manila, where I could be more hands-on.

That’s how my Litex branch started. The beginning was rough. I felt scammed, overwhelmed, but I stayed optimistic. I told myself: Kaya ko ‘to. I just need guidance. I’ve already started, I’ve already invested. There’s no turning back now.

But here’s the hard part—this uncertainty gives me anxiety. My heart races thinking about all the “what-ifs.” So I decided to create a game plan, something solid to clear my head and keep me moving forward.

Right now, some legal hurdles are holding us back—no business permit yet, no FDA LTO. It feels like we’re not allowed to fully operate. So here’s my plan:

To-Do List:

Temporarily pause operations while permits are being finalized. I need to be transparent with my staff—this is required for compliance.

Complete the FDA-LTO requirements and ensure full compliance after inspection.

Draft and finalize employment contracts for my team, clearly stating salary, duties, and operations process.

While operations are paused, finalize the pharmacy manual, including sales and procurement reports.

Start studying marketing strategies and build internal promotions to boost future sales.

Now about the Clothing Line Business . I invested ₱500K in that partnership, but there’s been no remittance, no updates. I already talked with Paule, the owner—funds need to be returned. I plan to use that money as working capital for the pharmacy. I’m praying it gets resolved and helps boost the business and cover loans.

Running a business is not as easy as 1-2-3. It drains you—mind, body, and even soul. But instead of panicking, I remind myself: Worrying is just a problem looking for a solution.

I’ve come to realize there’s no shortcut. Some solutions take time. But as long as I stay true to my north star—my purpose—everything will eventually fall into place.

One day, I’ll read this journal again and remember everything I went through. I hope that by then, I’m living my life to the fullest, successful, fulfilled, and free.

[i-am-ghobli]

The Plan for 2025

This year is going to be a big adventure! We're going to start fresh and learn lots of new things. I know it would be great to have some of last year's good luck, but I'm also excited to see what happens this time.

I've written down all my ideas for this year, and I'm going to make them my goals. I really like planning things out, and knowing what I want to achieve gives me a lot of courage. I know there might be some challenges, but I'm ready to face them and try again if needed.

I know I don't have everything, but I'm going to work hard and make my plans happen. I've been dreaming about this for a long time, and I really want to succeed. It would be awesome to have someone to help me along the way.

I'm going to use my Notion app to keep track of everything. I'll take pictures and videos to remember all the special moments, and I'll write down everything in my notebook too.

I'm hoping to start a few businesses this year, like a coffee shop, a toy store, and a clothing line. I want to be successful and help others achieve their dreams too. I promise to be a good employer and follow the rules.

I'm also going to start a new hobby: collecting Hirono figures! I know they're expensive, but I really love them, and it will be a reward for all my hard work.

Music is still very important to me, so I'm going to write 5 new songs this year. I'll record them and write about it in my Notion app. I'll take pictures every month and choose the 5 best ones to put in an album at the end of the year.

I'm going to be much better at tracking my money this year. I'm going to use a special app to record every penny I spend and earn. This will help me save more money and understand how to manage it better.

Most importantly, I'm going to invest in myself. I want to be a better person, learn new things, and have a positive attitude. I want to help others achieve their goals and be someone they can rely on.

Aljun, always remember to enjoy life and don't limit yourself. There's a whole world out there waiting for you to explore. Have a wonderful and meaningful year!"

[i-am-ghobli]

Daydreaming

this is what I dream of someoday!!!

1 . Someday magkakaron ako ng sarili kong bahay , gigising ako ng umaga na nakatingin sa bintana habang niramramdam ang init ng unang sikat ng araw , habang inaayos ang kama =) tapos baba ako sa kitchen na napaka aesthetic with coffee maker while nag brebrew ng coffee is my sweet acoustic music galing sa aking google home , Nagprepare ng breakfast with egg and salad and fruits . Tapos makikita ko si Aivan na nakangiti sakin while papalapit at babatiin ako ng magandang araw, mag uusap kami about sa mga nangyari kagabi at nabasa sa news app

2. Kasama ang alaga naming aso ay magwawalking kami, as part ng daily routine ko for healthy living, and then nagmumusic gamit ung bagong earbuds and complete gear with running shoes , a very good start to do errands , tapos dederecho ng palengke para sa lunch and dinner na gagawin. 1 hour lang ang activity na to

3. Magprepreare na ng lunch and magreready na din sa shift, dito ay wala na ako sa corporate world kundi nagmamanage na lang ng mga business and investment , Meron coffee shop na nagrurun ng 24/7 , meron internet cafe na naghohost ng mga internal gaming competition, clothing brand na sobrang paldo and nagtretrending palagi, ang pharmacy na ngaun ay largest pharmacy chain na sa pilipinas at may sister company pa na health center. May series of meeting ako buong araw this is for expansion and improvement ng process ng business , Mag eend ang day ko shutting down my windows laptop and tablet and waiting na lang sa dinner

4. We decided na lumabas na lang sa bahay para kumain kasi tinatamad, we invited some of our friends , Max, Chan, Carl, Ceejay and JOWAS , we ordered our food hanggang sa mabusog , I paid the bill na kasi ako namn nag invite , Lahat na pala sila ay successful na din sa kanilang mga careers , I enjoy seeing them in one table , smiling to each other and kwento lang ng kwento

5. We decided to leave early na kasama si Aivan , Si Aivan na magdridrive ng car while nasa EDSA , I decided na mag walking na muna which is usual ginagawa , So tamabay kami sa MOA na may dolomite beach na at may magagandang amusement park, We sip some coffee , at kumain ulit , at nagrides at kumain ulit , We really enjoy the time together. And nasanay ako sa mga ngiti na un

*** Part 2

[i-am-ghobli]

The Road Less Traveled: A Business Journey

Starting a business is often romanticized as a leap of faith, a grand adventure. But the reality is far more complex, fraught with challenges and uncertainties. I can attest to this firsthand, having embarked on my own entrepreneurial journey with a mixture of excitement and trepidation.

With limited savings and a hefty loan, I poured my heart and soul into building my pharmacy. The initial investment was substantial, and I quickly realized that running a business is a marathon, not a sprint. The expenses were constant, from stocking the shelves to paying the bills. There were days when I felt like I was drowning in a sea of paperwork and unforeseen costs.

One particularly daunting moment came when I realized I had spent a staggering 250,000 PHP in just one week. It was a stark reminder of the financial demands of running a business. I had naively assumed that things would go smoothly, but I quickly learned that there would be plenty of obstacles along the way.

The challenges were compounded by the expectations of others. As soon as people found out I was a business owner, they assumed I was rolling in money. They would ask for loans or financial advice, completely oblivious to the struggles I was facing. It was a frustrating experience that made me feel more isolated than ever.

To make matters worse, my accounting skills were lacking. I found myself constantly falling short of my financial goals. The fear of losing everything was a constant companion. I began to question my decisions and wonder if I had made a grave mistake.

But amidst the chaos and uncertainty, I found a glimmer of hope. I realized that I had to take control of my situation. I needed to be proactive, to address the issues head-on. I started by improving my accounting practices and seeking advice from experienced entrepreneurs.

I also learned the importance of perseverance. There were times when I wanted to give up, but I pushed through. I reminded myself that the journey was as important as the destination. And I held onto the belief that things would eventually get better.

Today, I am still navigating the challenges of running a business. It has been a demanding and often overwhelming experience. But I have also learned valuable lessons about resilience, adaptability, and the importance of staying true to myself.

As I continue on this journey, I am grateful for the support of my loved ones and the opportunities that have come my way. And I am hopeful that my story will inspire others who are considering their own entrepreneurial ventures.

[i-am-ghobli]

Crypto Chronicles: When Doge Dreams Turn into a Meme-Worthy Mess

Okay, so, like, we all get FOMO, right? Fear of missing out on the next big thing. I've been there, chasing those crypto gains like it's a never-ending game of whack-a-mole. But let me tell you, this time it was different. It wasn't just about missing out on profits; it messed with my entire vibe.

Three weeks ago: I decided to YOLO it and threw ₱100,000 into crypto. Doge was my ride-or-die, and I was convinced I had this whole thing figured out. Charts? Check. Basics? Check. Easy money? Welp, not so much.

Days turned into weeks: My gains were flatter than a pancake. Sure, crypto's volatile, but this was starting to feel like a bad Netflix rom-com – all buildup, no payoff.

August 24th: The Breakout That Wasn't: Finally, Doge moved! But it was more like a gentle nudge than a rocket launch. I held on, hoping for another surge. Then, like a scene from a horror movie, my gains started disappearing faster than free pizza at a college party.

Panic Mode Activated: I cashed out with a measly ₱2,000 profit. But then, like a moth to a flame, I got sucked back in. Emotions took over, and I convinced myself I could turn it around. Spoiler alert: I couldn't. I was down ₱5,000.

The Rock Bottom Moment: Things went from bad to worse. My losses hit ₱10,000, and I was officially done. The stress was unreal. It was like carrying around a backpack full of bricks, and I finally realized it wasn't just about the money.

Lessons Learned the Hard Way:

Don't let your feels drive the wheel: Knowledge and experience beat FOMO every time.

Look at the whole picture, not just the shiny parts: Tunnel vision leads to bad decisions.

Play with money you can afford to lose: This isn't Monopoly, folks.

Set limits and stick to them: Don't let greed (or fear) take control.

Don't let crypto ruin your day: It's a tool, not your whole life.

The Silver Lining: Now that I'm out, I feel like a weight has been lifted. I'm ready to focus on the real-world stuff and find a healthier way to build my future.

Shoutout to the Universe: Thanks for the tough love. I needed this wake-up call.

So, to anyone out there feeling the crypto rollercoaster: buckle up, keep your head on straight, and remember, there's more to life than chasing digital coins.

[i-am-ghobli]

Winning Non-Stop Has Me Hyped to Start My Own Thing!

Okay, so basically, I've been on the luckiest streak of my life, and it's got me feeling like I can do anything! It all started a few months ago when I randomly entered a raffle and ended up winning a trip to Thailand for two! I couldn't believe it. It was like the universe was giving me a sign that good things were coming my way.

That win totally boosted my confidence. I started feeling like I had this special luck, and I wanted to test it out. So, I went to Timezone with my partner and just started dominating all the games. It was insane! I was winning left and right, and it felt amazing.

But the craziest thing happened just a few days ago. I was at the arcade, feeling super lucky, and decided to try my hand at the roulette wheel. And guess what? I won! Tickets started pouring out, and I was like, "Okay, this is definitely my day!" I kept going, winning at the coin drop and balloon pop games too. By the end of it, I had over 2,500 tickets!

Standing there with all those tickets, I felt a mix of emotions. I was grateful, excited, and honestly, a little shocked. It wasn't just about the wins; it was about how confident I felt. It was like I had tapped into this inner belief in myself that I didn't even know was there.

This whole experience has totally changed my mindset. I'm not afraid to take risks anymore. I'm ready to go after my dreams and see what I can achieve. I've always wanted to start my own business, and now I feel like it's the perfect time.

I'm picturing myself building a successful company, something that not only makes money but also makes a positive impact on the world. I want to be smart with my money too, investing it wisely so I can build a secure future for myself and my family.

Of course, I know that luck isn't everything. I'll need to work hard and be smart about my decisions. There will probably be challenges along the way, but I'm ready to face them head-on. I've learned that you have to be willing to adapt and learn from your mistakes.

I'm also going to surround myself with people who support me and believe in my vision. Having a strong network is so important when you're starting something new.

This whole winning streak has taught me so much. I've learned to trust my gut, to go for it even when things seem uncertain, and to never give up on my dreams. It's shown me that amazing things can happen when you have a positive attitude and believe in yourself.

So, to anyone out there who's ever felt that spark of an idea or had a lucky break, I say go for it! Don't let fear hold you back. Chase your passions, work hard, and never stop dreaming. You never know what you might accomplish when you believe in the power of possibility.

[i-am-ghobli]

A Touch of Evilness

I had the weirdest dream, one that I never expected and certainly never wanted. Revenge, the kind you see in dramas, was never something I considered. Here’s what I remember:

I found myself in an unfamiliar place, and there was Allan (my ex-partner), sleeping peacefully. Suddenly, I heard a crackling noise, like electricity surging through the room, which then burst into flames. Strangely, I felt no urge to wake him up; instead, I left the room thinking he deserved to burn. But then, his agonizing screams pierced through me, pounding my heart and awakening my conscience. Panic and heartache overwhelmed me.

I ran back to the room and saw my friend Chan trying to help Allan, whose face was engulfed in flames. My heart pounded so hard it felt like it might stop. I offered to help bring Allan to safety, but he refused, shouting words I couldn’t understand and rejecting my touch.

The pain in that moment felt so real that I woke up with tears streaming down my face. I couldn’t shake the hellish experience and the lingering question of why such evil thoughts had crept into my dream.

In my heart, I know that what happened between Allan and me is in the past, and I want to forget it all. I don’t want him to suffer; I believe he deserves a chance to correct his mistakes and find peace. I’m praying for these dark thoughts to leave my mind and heart. I just want to live in the harmony of my new world.

[i-am-ghobli]

Beyond Plans and Disappointment

Last week was a whirlwind of dreams and aspirations I'm eager to bring to life. But with all these big ideas swirling around in my head, my sleep has taken a hit. My trusty smartwatch tells me I'm only getting 4 to 6 hours of shut-eye each night, far from my usual 7 to 8 hours. I guess it's the excitement of turning my dreams into reality that's keeping me up at night.

Thanks to a personal loan from the bank, I've already started building my pharmacy in the province. The architectural plans are coming together, and it finally feels like things are kicking off. But with some extra cash on hand, I can't help but dream even bigger—a computer shop combined with a coffee shop and a bayad center. It sounds like the perfect plan, right? The only problem is, I have no idea where to set up shop or how to even begin.

I spent hours during what was supposed to be my downtime last week, constantly thinking about this new venture. But all that daydreaming, planning, and fluctuating between excitement and disappointment left me exhausted.

Then it hit me—I've been dreaming so big that I can't seem to make any decisions. It feels like completing this task is impossible no matter what I do. So, I made a decision to clear my mind, take a deep breath, and just be present in the moment.

And you know what? It worked. I felt the weight lift off my shoulders, and suddenly, everything seemed clearer. Yes, my dream is still there, but I realized there's a time and a place for everything. I need to start somewhere, even if it's just planning my next steps.

So, here's what I envision: a three-story building with 100 square meters of space on each floor. The first floor will be a cozy coffee shop where people can relax, work, and enjoy some good food and drinks. The second floor will house the internet cafe, with top-of-the-line computers and a gaming area designed to be the ultimate gaming hub. And finally, the third floor will be a VIP lounge with high-end amenities and futuristic interiors, perfect for gaming tournaments and special events.

I'm determined to build this dream with confidence and happiness. And even though there may be setbacks along the way, I won't lose hope. After all, everything will fall into place, one step at a time.

[i-am-ghobli]

Doge Breakout

Get ready for another tale, filled with lessons and perhaps a touch of regret. After three months of patiently waiting since investing in Dogecoin, the moment finally arrived. Yet, amidst the anticipation, life's priorities intervened with a pressing family matter.

Caught between seizing the opportunity to cash out with a modest gain of 10,000 pesos or holding out for the possibility of doubling my money, uncertainty loomed. There were no clear signs indicating when the surge might occur.

Ultimately, I chose to play it safe and withdrew my investment, content with breaking even. Memories of past losses haunted my decision-making process, fueling my desire to secure what I could.

However, fate had other plans. Within just 24 hours of cashing out, Dogecoin skyrocketed from 6.11 pesos to a staggering 8.0 pesos—a nearly 20% increase. Instant regret washed over me, questioning whether I had made the right call. But in the grand scheme of things, I realized it's all part of the unpredictable nature of this game.

As I reflect on this rollercoaster experience, I'm ready to release any lingering emotions and move forward. Every twist and turn serves as a valuable lesson, a chapter in my journey of growth and resilience.

Though today may be marked by a tinge of disappointment, I hold onto hope for brighter days ahead. This adventure in cryptocurrency is far from over, and I eagerly anticipate the opportunities and lessons it has yet to offer.

[i-am-ghobli]

Igniting the Bomb : Dreams and Me

The day arrived when I envisioned my life as a man with a beautiful, fulfilled existence, brimming with plans and aspirations. But reality struck hard, revealing a different picture. Success has never come easy for me; more often than not, I find myself stumbling into failure, eroding my confidence with each setback.

Now, I stand amidst the rubble of my dreams, feeling like a ticking bomb with no spark to ignite. Sleepless nights plague me as I ponder my next move. How can I breathe life into these plans? What steps must I take to turn my aspirations into reality?

I clutch onto a book filled with plans and revelations of the person I long to become. I'm fighting tooth and nail to live up to that image, to heed the call of success echoing in the depths of my soul. Every stride I take is a bridge to my future, mapped out five to ten years ahead. I just need a chance to reignite that spark within me and let myself explode with potential.

I yearn for a guiding light, a map to lead me down the right path. But I must confront the harsh truth of my current reality. I am who I am today, and every decision I make shapes my tomorrow. It's time to learn about myself anew, to embrace the person I am now and take deliberate steps forward. I must act wisely, for my actions today will sculpt my future.

So, let's start with who I am:

I find solace in playing music.

I thrive on planning and completing tasks, big or small.

I cherish the company of others.

My partner holds a special place in my heart.

Recognition for my achievements fuels my ambition.

Financial struggles weigh heavily on me.

I dream of achieving financial abundance but feel lost on where to begin.

Solitude often brings sadness.

Darkness occasionally clouds my thoughts.

I feel trapped, stuck in a rut of my own making.

But amidst the turmoil, I hold onto hope. With the guidance of a higher power, I trust that there's a plan for my prosperity. I cling to the promise of a brighter future, filled with hope and opportunity. And with each step forward, I inch closer to the person I aspire to be—successful, fulfilled, and at peace.

[i-am-ghobli]

Unexpected Tax Deficit

Hey everyone,

I've been pondering these unexpected expenses and bills that keep popping up on my pay slip lately. It's a new challenge for me, despite having a higher salary now than ever before. Even with this bump in pay, I still find myself facing unforeseen costs. Let me break it down for you.

So, I've seen an 85% increase in my salary compared to my last job, which has been fantastic. I've been enjoying treating myself on paydays, indulging in meals from fancy restaurants and splurging on food delivery services like FoodPanda and GrabFood. But then, out of the blue, I noticed a significant deduction of eight thousand pesos for taxes on my pay slip for two consecutive months. Naturally, I reached out to our payroll team for clarification, and after four days, they got back to me, explaining that it's due to be billed four times over my next few paychecks.

This deduction hit me hard, especially since I recently lost one of my bedspacers, impacting my income. But no matter what, I have to ensure everything is covered, especially since my credit score depends on it.

From this experience, I've learned some valuable lessons. It's crucial to have an emergency fund ready and understand the payroll process. I also need to ensure I'm making the most of my resources. Money truly matters, and here's what I've learned so far:

I invested some extra cash into crypto and lost fifteen thousand pesos shortly after.

I lent money to a friend without completing my emergency fund.

I splurged on dining out and online shopping, neglecting essential expenses.

I didn't track my expenses properly.

Moving forward, here's my plan:

Utilize my Citypay All account to cover expenses from my cards.

Use Chase Jaypee for top-up online payments.

Remind friends to repay any loans.

Cut down on unnecessary expenses and manage resources wisely.

Complete my emergency fund.

Keep track of income and expenses.

Cook at home more often.

I'm realizing that what I thought was a significant increase in earnings before might not be as substantial as I once believed. It's essential to explore other options and set achievable goals to overcome these financial hiccups.

Here's to resolving these money matters by April, starting fresh, and aiming for greatness. Let's make it happen!

[i-am-ghobli]

I am One with Waves

In the echoes of a world beyond, A beauty and peace, my heart did abscond. Life unfolded, once indifferent and far, Now, perspectives shift like a radiant star.

Oceans, vast and endless, weave tales untold, A symphony of waves, a narrative bold. In the embrace of warmth, their gentle sway, In the chill of water, a dance of dismay.

A canvas of wonders, painted by the sea, Fish, corals, and mountains, a vibrant decree. Nature's ballet, a balance untold, A harmonious rhythm, a story to unfold.

Asking oneself in this realm so divine, "How do you live in a world that intertwines?" I find my answer in the whispers of the sea, For now, I am one—a spirit, wild and free.

[i-am-ghobli]

It Doesn't Feel Right

In the midst of my daily life, there's a strange feeling that's been bothering me. I can't quite put my finger on it, and I don't remember when it all started. Despite being in good shape emotionally and financially, there's this weight on my shoulders.

I spend time with friends and my partner, and they're always there for me, talking and sharing moments. But when I'm alone in my room, something feels off. It's not boredom; it's more like my heart is racing, and my feet feel numb, making the world around me feel distant.

I know I'm troubled, but figuring out what's wrong seems like an impossible task. I'm standing on the edge, thinking about letting go of everything and everyone, but the fear of the unknown holds me back. I'm looking for relief, a solution to this inner turmoil, but it's elusive.

As I try to make sense of it all, I have a list of maybes. Maybe it's because my ex seems happier now. Perhaps lingering insecurities are affecting my contentment. Maybe I'm just tired and need a break, or it could be that I want to create music but find it hard to pick up my guitar.

This feeling doesn't sit well with me, but maybe it's a phase I need to go through. Perhaps, in time, I'll find the right place and moment to understand and express what's going on. Until then, I'm left with these maybes, floating in the quiet moments of contemplation.

[i-am-ghobli]

Nick Encounter

In the realm of unexpected moments, there was this unforgettable night with Nick. Now, let me set the scene – tiredness wrapped around me like a cozy blanket as I sought solace in a much-needed rest. Little did I know, the night was about to take an unexpected turn into the realms of steamy encounters.

In our cozy nest, occupied by the love of my life and the intriguing Nick, the ambiance hinted at mischief. Three in bed - oh, the tales that unfolded that night!

As I closed my eyes in pursuit of much-deserved sleep, there it was – Nick's hand reaching out, igniting a spark that resonated in the air. The touch, electrifying and unanticipated, sent shivers down my spine. In the midst of my partner's peaceful slumber, Nick pulled me closer, his embrace radiating heat that surpassed the room's warmth.

The scent of his presence was intoxicating, tempting me to indulge in desires I never thought I'd entertain. I couldn't resist the urge to reciprocate, drawn into a night that grew increasingly intense with every shared moment.

In the dance of shadows and whispers, Nick's touch became the protagonist. The air crackled with a playful energy, teasing and tantalizing, pushing the boundaries of comfort. Control slipped away, lost in the delightful chaos of the night.

But fear not, dear reader, for this tale takes an unexpected turn. Laughter, the cure-all, echoed in the aftermath, transforming the once-tempting escapade into a shared secret between friends. The memory, now etched in the annals of personal anecdotes, a whimsical reminder that life often surprises us in the most delightful ways.

[i-am-ghobli]

The Day I Checked my Scars

I just want to express how incredibly blessed I feel for the life God has gifted me. Each moment is a precious chapter in my journey, and I'm learning to embrace both the beautiful memories of my past and the excitement of moving forward to become a better person.

Reflecting on the past can be a bit daunting; it's like revisiting a movie filled with both joy and pain. Today is no ordinary day—it's a mix of anticipation and anxiety. I'm about to reconnect with people who were once an integral part of my life. These same individuals almost broke my spirit, pushing me to the brink of despair multiple times.

As the moment draws near, my heart races with a blend of excitement and trepidation. It's as if my world is baring its scars to the sun, revealing the wounds of the past. Yet, in the midst of this emotional whirlwind, the touch of my love, Aivan, brings me solace, safety, and the serenity of the present. With him by my side, I find the strength to face my fears head-on.

The time arrives, and I must confront and navigate the waters of the past. Initially, it feels like the ground beneath me is uncertain, but Aivan's presence assures me that I can overcome anything. Though my first steps may be awkward, with sparse words and hesitant responses, I press on.

As the day unfolds, it becomes apparent that I've entered a new chapter of life. The heaviness lifts, and the realization sets in: the pain is no more, and I've moved beyond the shackles of fear. I'm now with someone who genuinely cares and makes a difference in my world.

Today, I offer my gratitude to God for allowing me to experience this happiness. When I doubted I could find it, my loving partner, Randell Aivan, stood by my side, even when certainty eluded me. In his eyes, I discovered the guidance I needed. Now, hand in hand, we walk towards the light with joy and hearts illuminated with love. Thank you, Randell Aivan—I love you.

[i-am-ghobli]

Fellow Adventurer!!

Hey there!

I'm embarking on a fresh adventure, ready to explore life from a brand-new angle where I can unleash my true self without a care in the world! 🌟 It feels like my previous expectations for life have been a tad snug lately, like I've been living in a tiny box I can't quite wriggle out of. 📦 But right here, right now, I'm hoping that by expressing myself, I can finally give my inner self the room it deserves and connect with someone who gets me.

This space is like my personal canvas, where I can have a chat with my very own alter ego. 🗣️ Yup, that's right, I'm talking to my other self! It might be a sudden burst of creativity, a random cooking experiment, a quirky movie review, or even just a spontaneous reaction to a song or game I recently encountered. 🍳🎬🎶

I'm buzzing with excitement about what the future holds. I know that pouring my thoughts into this space will help me see my life in a whole new light, adding vibrant colors to create a wonderful masterpiece. 🌈 So, let's embark on this adventure together! I love you all, my fellow adventurers. 🚀

Yours truly,

GHOBLI