who, me?

The girl who lives in delusion she/her 28 🏳️‍🌈 I run on bi panic and adhd. A mix of fandom shit and personal diary. (new) KoFi: https://ko-fi.com/idontevenknowyou Currently obsessed with PHM and making beridians (beaded eridians), be warned!

[i-dont-even-know-you]

Open Comissions for my beridians and other trinkets!

Request Form │ Kofi

To request anything please use this form as a first step! Even if you will evetually use KoFi. Since I may not have the requiered materials to make all types of requests.

Shipping prices range from 10 to 30 euros aproximatetly.

You can find the comission requests on my KoFi to pay once I've given you the "all-clear", but if you are on a tight budget or would rather pay the exact shipping rate, let me know and we can make an arragement.

The beridians are bead-eridians from Project Hail Mary. The earring were originally inspired by them too, but they don't need to be. And the bracelets pictures are Taylor Swift and Heated Rivarly related, but can be made about truly anything! I am open to hearing your ideas and trying to bring them to life!

This is my first time doing this, so please let me know about anything I could improve!

BETTER QUALITY PICS OF THE EXAMPLES:

[pumpkinhrat]

She would, in fact, download a car

[boilingheart]

my personal take on rocky and adrian

rocky mate bad as hell, statement.

[aseriesofunfortunatetexts]

[violetbaude-deactivated20200229]

literally real life though

[keljnap]

[dragonridersongknits]

One of the greatest treasures of the Artemis II is seeing the general public's love for space come back in full force. Everyone, including myself is just so captivated in wonder by this, our own generations space race minus the race. What a bright thing to happen in a world so plagued by sadness lately. It feels nice to have hope.

[sharkfiinn]

content warning !!! seizure

i really really really love the idea of eridians hearing absolutely everything in a human body and being able to predict an episode of something, similarly to how medical alert service dogs can

[goodieprocter]

I was so taken by the image of 20-30 pebbles activating in unison that I had to draw it immediately

(Featuring Etch, Variolite, Prism, Cheeto, Dandelion, Citrus, and Cantaloupe, by @t3ch-wizard, @ghost-crows, @sharkfiinn, @problematiccheeto, @nacho-business1, @moth-in-a-mason-jar, and @leafnyx respectively (and Kelly, but she’s mine))

[jarondont]

my contribution to the eridian welcoming committee

(template credit to @justcakethanks)

[playing-with-colors]

This fandom has a serious lack of toxic yuri strattland. We’re not nutritionally balanced as a culture.

[playing-with-colors]

Just wanted to share a few of the color variations I had for this one.

[rockrockgrace]

For Grace:

When the transformations started, how long did it take for an Eridian Cuddlepile to happen involving you?

"I think right away ... ... I only remember being so so scared. Then? I felt safe. It was like a dream." - Grace

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

First vs. Last Photobooth

[i-dont-even-know-you]

I'm usually a big big cryer, but I got started on some new SSRI about a month ago so now that has died down quite a bit.

That means that a movie that would usually get me sobbing, like Heartstopper Forever, doesn't really make me shed a single tear.

You know what got me though? The freaking drawings at the end!!!! Omg I got shoved back into a little sad, depressed and riddled with anxiety old me reading the novels on my phone. All the scenes from the show and the movie brought back to the origins... That got me!

Thank god for the sertraline or I would have been a freaking mess 5 minutes into the movie

[i-dont-even-know-you]

Finished my rewatch of Heartstopper and proceeded to start Heartstopper Forever but I was blindsided by how absolutely insanely huge these boys look! These are not teenagers, these are GROWN ASS MEN! They're still cute and adorable together, but they're cute and adorable MEN!

[kosmogrl]

august will be good august will be good august will be good august will be good august will be good august will be good august will be good august will be good august will be good august will be good august will be good

[lelif]

on survival

-// @aridante // @orivu // @buzzkillgirls // ? // ? // richard siken// @cemeterything // moomin, tove jansson// @disenchanted-killjoy // isn't that enough, shawn mendes// @ prettytheyswag on twitter// @ coletyumuch on twitter// ? // ? // bird by bird, anne lamott// undertale// @strawberrycircuits

[sweettoothedtrickster13]

[Image ID: A series of screenshots taken from a variety of media. The transcriptions of the posts have been slightly edited for screen readability.

The first screenshot is by Gabe k-s, a user from I believe Substack. The post reads:

There must be something like the opposite of suicide, whereby a person radically and abruptly decides to start living, or rescue their own life from destruction/obscurity.

The next screenshot is from tumblr user aridante. The post reads:

Get in loser we're living past the end of our myth.

The next screenshot is from tumblr user orivu. The post reads:

You've died a thousand times before, who cares. Just climb out of this grave again and again and again and again and again and again and again.

The next screenshot is from tumblr user buzzkillgirls. The post reads:

So. Bad news. We have to keep going tomorrow. Good news is that I'll keep going with you.

The next screenshot is a pair of drawings of a a small animal, perhaps a cat, in a green cloak.

In the first one, it has the cloak tucked around its mouth and a lantern in its hand, looking determined. The text in the drawing is in all caps and reads:

I'm getting out of here. By God, am I going to make my way out of here.

In the second drawing of the animal, it has released its cloak so it has fallen back around its shoulders. It is giving a thumbs up and a sparkle is next to the thumbs up. The text now reads:

You got out! By God, you got out of there!

The next screenshot is a pair of tweets- one by Noshi at noshiepic, and a reply by Richard Silken at Richard Silken. The tweet by Noshi reads:

My suffering isn't beautiful.

Richard Silken replied:

But your survival is.

The next screenshot is a post and a reblog by tumblr user cemetery thing. The post reads:

Oh, and that gap in my resume is when I was digging my own grave.

The self reblog reads:

The dirt under my nails is- yeah. It won't wash out. Although that's actually from when I dug myself out again. I suppose success and defeat can look the same in a mirror.

The next screenshot is a pair of illustrations of Moomin.

The first one is of Moomin in not-quite waist deep water, saying 'I guess I had better drown myself' with their head down and eyes wide.

The second illustration is of Moomin in now neck deep water, swimming and saying 'It's a pity I swim so well.'

The next screenshot is a post by tumblr user disenchanted-killjoy. The post reads:

Don't care, didn't ask, plus this hole you put me in wasn't deep enough and I'm climbing out right now.

The next screenshot is from 'Isnt't that enough,' a song by Shawn Mendes. The lyrics that were chosen to be part of this posts are:

Gone are the birds/Close are the tears/A house full of love/Space for your fears/My hand's still shaking, my mind's still racing/My heart's still breaking in two/I'm still changing, my friends stay patient/My mother still calls for the news.

The next screenshot is a tweet by claire at pretty they swag. The tweet reads:

Bro, you have to keep going. You care too much. Your kindness too overwhelming. Your cheerfulness is too upbeat. They need you.

The next screenshot is a tweet by at cole tyumuch. The tweet reads:

The bravest thing I ever did was continue my life when I wanted to die, and nobody really knows.

The next screenshot is a graphic of a skeleton playing an electric guitar in a graveyard. The text reads:

Today fucking sucks, tomorrow might not. Only one way to find out...be there.

Under the graphic are the phone number and the website for the suicide prevention lifeline. The phone number is 1 800 273 8255 and the website is suicidepreventionlifeline dot org.

The next screenshot is a picture of a sunny window with sheer orange curtains covering it. The text over the curtains reads:

The sun is on my back. I smile because I thought I would be cold forever.

The next screenshot is a snippet of text from bird by bird, a book by Anne Lamott. The highlighted text reads:

And then the miracle happens. The sun comes up again.

The next screenshot is a pair of images from the video game Undertale created by Toby Fox. In both, the player character is looking in a mirror and the text is what shows on screen when you interact with it. The first text is:

It's you!

The second text is:

Despite everything, it's still you.

The next- and final- screenshot is a post by tumblr user strawberry circuits. The post reads:

Sometimes the moral of the story really is just 'you cannot go back and what happened to you is going to be with you for the rest of your life. But it's still going to be okay,' huh.

End Image ID]

[i-dont-even-know-you]

I didn't realise just how many times Ody says something along the lines of "this is the last thing before we go home, guys, I promise". Like he says it at least 3 times and every time I'm like "oh baby, no..."

[roxxybunny]

sex with accommodations is hot. sex where you negotiate accessible positions is hot. sex where you listen to your body is hot. sex with limitations is hot. sex where you take breaks is hot. sex that doesn’t look like porn is hot. sex that’s human & messy & clunky & vulnerable & honest is HOT!!! get with it