She will be loved

Once upon a time, a girl was dying to grow up. Now, she's dying to go back.

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it’s a curse

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but never will I let it control me

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Looking up

There are a lot of times when we may feel disappointed, a lot of times we may not see the light at the end of the tunnel. A lot of times we let our emotions take over - get the best of us…these are the times we fail to realize that just by doing so, we are already limiting our God. Just by doing so, we are (indirectly) doubting Him and His amazing ways. Our whole lives serve as proof of how great and living our God is. Our whole lives point to the reality of His love and miracles. We should realize that to have faith in God is to have trust in Him. In times of despair, we may feel lost - hopeless, even - but that is also where God is working. We may forget that for a while and start to act on our own - the surge of emotions clouding our decisions - but what matters is what we do afterwards. What we do knowing that our God told us to be still and know that He is God and to seek Him first and everything would just follow. That’s it, that’s it. Just look up and have faith in His great timing.

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Never giving up

“My chains are gone, I’ve been set free.” I know, I know, I’ve been overly dramatic - considering my last post and all. But these past few days, God has been reaching out to me. These past few days, I have kept on praying to God that He (will) fill me with His Holy Spirit. I have kept on praying that He (will) restore to me the joy of His salvation - the grace He has bestowed upon me. I have kept on praying that He (will) get rid of that “empty feeling” because I know that that was a deceit from the enemy.

A deceit that I now realized (had) became a stronghold. A deceit that I could never have realized if I had just given in to that “empty feeling” without a fight - spiritual fight to be exact. Just like what our pastor said “ Satan is good at rationalizing sin(s), be careful.” Satan is good at deceiving us, at letting us think that what we did, do, and will keep on doing is actually “okay”. Satan keeps on feeding us lies - uses our logic against us. “God’s thoughts are greater than our thoughts” (read Isaiah 55:9) we can never even dream of understanding His thoughts…but we can have faith and that’s what God wants us to develop. We have our own free will and that’s where satan will attack, that’s where satan holds us at our necks. Don’t let him. Let our free wills - a gift from God- be given back to Him. Our actions are consequences of only our actions. Not solely on satan or God or this “God allowed that to happen” statement. I was rebuked by our pastor’s sermon. Let’s not wash our hands, we are the ones responsible. Do you think God wanted us to sin just for the sake of fulfilling His purpose for us? No. He is a perfect God who demanded us to also be as perfect as He is (read Matthew 5:48). Why would He even “allow” us to sin? But our God is a merciful God and He is a God of second, third, fourth, of many chances. That is why He turned, turn, and will continue to turn our shortcomings into victories and our sins into lessons. These victories and lessons are not the outcome of “God allowed this to happen”, these are given to us because of God’s grace and love for us, a product of Him not giving up on us.

I am eternally grateful that God has always held my hand. That He never did give up on me - even if I almost did. I am eternally grateful that God has answered my prayers. Answered it in His amazing yet subtle and mysterious ways. I am eternally grateful, extremely thankful, always at awe to have such an awesome God. To have a God so concerned, so indescribable. Thank You, Lord God, and I am so sorry for allowing the enemy to take control of me through my feelings and emotions. I pray that You be with me every step of my way.

“Lord, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I’m not scared coz you’re holding my breath. I only fear that I don’t have enough time left to tell the world that there’s no time left.” -Forgive me by Group 1 crew 🎶

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“are you sure you set the right camera timer?? Hold up let me see here”

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This empty feeling

I don’t know. I really don’t. I can’t explain something I can barely comprehend. Oftentimes I disregard this feeling but it keeps coming back - it’s funny coz although it’s “empty” it still comes back. Maybe sometimes, when you’ve gotten too used to the presence of a certain thing, you actually forget - even for the slightest moment- that it’s there. Still there, waiting for you to notice it again.

I don’t know. I still don’t. Why am I even feeling this way? I’m way too blessed to even feel this way. But why? It seems that this is a burden I can never get rid of. A burden that will never leave me. Or maybe it’s me who can’t leave it?

I don’t know. I obviously don’t. I can’t stress this any more than I could; it has bothered me long enough - but never enough to dismiss it. How did I ever get this feeling? Why does it not leave me? My questions never got their answers - when will they ever?

I don’t know. I don’t think I ever will.

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Your life as a dog

Video

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Emotional suicide

Why are human emotions so complicated? Is it just me? Or is it really just me?

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2015 SUMMER HIGHLIGHT PART 3: First time laser tag and t’was legen….dary, mom and dad’s ninong and ninang already, project laags, barkada shots and first non-blood related yet still significant passengers!

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#missingsummer

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Thoughts

Others are having these….well….uhm….exciting lives. And here I am, still waiting for my “great perhaps”. Although it may sometimes occur to me how everyone have already found their roads and I’m still stuck deciding which one to take, I don’t really care (about my situation). I’m surprisingly happy that they are happy. Actually, I am enjoying my time deciding. Haha! I’m sorry for not having a great life with stories to tell but I’m glad I’m contented with what God has given me: time.

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STOP

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Omg.

[wnq-anonymous]

You Chose You chose. You chose. You chose. You chose to give away your love. You chose to have a broken heart. You chose to give up. You chose to hang on. You chose to react. You chose to feel insecure. You chose to feel anger. You chose to fight back. You chose to have hope. You chose to be naïve. You chose to ignore your intuition. You chose to ignore advice. You chose to look the other way. You chose to not listen. You chose to be stuck in the past. You chose your perspective. You chose to blame. You chose to be right. You chose your pride. You chose your games. You chose your ego. You chose your paranoia. You chose to compete. You chose your enemies. You chose your consequences. You chose. You chose. You chose. You chose. However, you are not alone. Generations of women in your family have chosen. Women around the world have chosen. We all have chosen at one time in our lives. We stand behind you now screaming: Choose to let go. Choose dignity. Choose to forgive yourself. Choose to forgive others. Choose to see your value. Choose to show the world you’re not a victim. Choose to make us proud.

Shannon L. Alder (via wnq-anonymous)

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Wow. I feel better. There's this unexplainable happiness I'm feeling right now.

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Talk about marketing. HAHAHAH! Maayo kayo akong best friend ana 😂😂😂😂😂 still can't recover hahahah! Although in fairness, there was a positive uhm...feedback? HAHAHAH!

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If only these hills were made of real chocolates!

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Relieved

It’s a relief nga we’re traveling as a “family” lang jud :) this was what I’ve always been asking and it feels so good to feel unstressed during a vacation - a feeling I’ve long since forgotten. Looking forward to more vacations like this! :)

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To sum up my awesome day :’) thank you so much guys! My smiles and laughs are infinite when I’m with you :)) more memories to make! Best part of the day? Jamming! And ofc, food haha(photo not mine)