As good as it gets

Name's Shepard, Tim Shepard, and we run things a bit different this side o' town. [ indie rp account for s.e. hinton's character tim shepard. mun&muse over 21; nsfw tracking: irunthings ]

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losing my mind!! tim’s blog had gotten flagged, but now i have it back and i,,, dunno what i’m doing about it but what’s good, dead dash??

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theyoungestdixon​:

What did you name a little bundle of pure innocence? More importantly, what did you name that little bundle who would soon be tainted by the world her mother brought her in to? Grace wasn’t prepared for something as simple as naming her child, how would she be able to keep her alive? She barely kept herself and her dog alive for Christ’s sake. 

Her gaze was set on the baby girl, who was gazing up at her parents as though they were saints. They were this little things only chance at survival for now, and that scared the hell out of Grace. Still, despite the fear, her arms had molded around the little blanket after a few minutes of holding her, it was effortless now. “Just Lil’Squirt for now, I guess.” 

Looking over at Tim, Grace was quiet. He looked just as terrified as she felt, the only difference was that the terror in the pit of her stomach was being overshadowed by the cloudiness of exhaustion in her head. That’s what showed on her face. 

“Y’remember anything ‘bout Angie bein’ this little?”

The way the baby looked at him made him uncomfortable  It was probably because the kid had no idea what her father was really like -- that he wasn't at all father material, despite having raised Curly and Angela.  He really did a bang-up job on those two.  But this kid -- this kid -- she had no idea what she had gotten herself into by being born.  She didn't know that Tim was an absolute storm, chaotic and temperamental and destructive, but he guessed she would find out soon enough.

"She slept a lot." But he blamed that on the whiskey he knew their dad slipped her, and claimed it on the account of her "teething" at a month old.  "When she wasn't, she was fussing for attention -- eating, shitting -- made me hold her for two hours once.  Cried whenever I tried to sit her down.  Why she's so fucking spoiled now."

He almost laughed, though it came out more like a huff.  Subconsciously, he knew, that he would end up spoiling this kid just as rotten.  If he could man up and wrap his head around the fact that they actually had to take her home with them.

"Gotta give the dogs her blanket or somethin', 'fore she goes home." He rubbed the back of his neck.  "That Curtis kid said he read it in a book once -- they gotta smell her so they don't kill her or some shit."  Not that LA was capable of killing, regardless of the lies Tim told of her ferocity.

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theyoungestdixon​:

Shaking was an understatement. When they plopped that little thing into, Grace’s arms, expecting her to coo and kiss it, she started to tremble, partly out of fear, and partly out of pain. What if she started to cry again? Then what? To say she was clueless was just touching the baseline. She had never even held a baby before, now she just gave birth to one and was expected to take her home. Poor little girl had the worst set of people to call parents, hopefully they wouldn’t screw her up too badly. Her face was all red and squished under a too big cap. Tiny, so fucking tiny, with a little dimple in her chin that matched her mothers. Her eyes were blue. At least, she thought they were blue. Maybe brown? Who cares. Looking up at over at Tim, Grace swallowed, “Names?" 

Tim had named his dog after his sister, and yet Grace still looked up at him as if he had any idea what a baby should be called.  He probably shouldn’t have even been allowed to have a baby, let alone name one.  The only names that came to mind where generic: Killer, Tough Guy; Man.  The words gendered to that of a son though, and that was their daughter sitting in Grace’s arms.

The kid had no idea what she had gotten herself into popping out into the world like that.  She looked up at her parents -- god -- and around the room as if it was something special; as if she hadn’t just found herself on the wrong side of the tracks, poor and never good enough.  But she was good.  Even looking at her, Tim felt uncomfortable.  He didn’t know how to handle good.

“Dunno,” he admitted as he pulled the little doctor’s stool over to sit beside them.  His face read shock still, as if he was lost.  How did he get there in the first place?

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@theyoungestdixon

     For something so small, that kid had lungs.  She broke into the world      fighting and screaming, and, like a Shepard, would continue to for       the rest of her life.  Tim was disappointed it was a girl.  He had never      been able to wrap his head around the way they thought -- living with      and raising his sister had been no help; this kid was going to be       nothing like her aunt.

     She was gross, too; covered in red and slime and whatever had been      nourishing her while safe from the world in Grace’s womb.  Tim never      took Sex Ed, not that the education system would have favored him;      he knew about condoms, but clearly that had not been enough.  There      they were at the birth of their daughter -- daughter.

     The nurses promised she was healthy, gave measurements and weight,      before bundling her in a little cocoon with her small face peeking out      of the blanket.  She was mere feet away and Tim already knew he      would ruin her.

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Tim Shepard aesthetic (inspired by a piece of work by @shepardtrash )

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This is just….. wow!

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¡¡Happy Birthday Tommy!!!♥♫♪

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[ ; making an entirely new account seems like quite a lot of work, so let’s just try the reboot here.  you want a starter? like this for a starter.  want to plot?  shoot me a message. ]

[i-run-things]

I miss the heck out of you! I will gladly start up Grace again if you're thinking about Tim, I miss these two! TBH I check your blog every now and then because you're the only person from Grace that I still would love to roleplay with. I've been thinking about reviving her but I need to catch up on TWD first! If you would want to continue with these two, I'm all for it!

@theyoungestdixon

I miss the heck out of you too, oh my god!! I’m definitely thinking about it; I would definitely love to, especially if we get these two back at it. I miss them too; they’re such a great ship.  (You should definitely catch up with TWD though when you get the chance; I can’t wait for it to come back on).  I just got back from a mini vacation; if I can get myself organized maybe their kid can finally pop out xD

[i-run-things]

I could start; no problem!  – are they still in the hospital, or home?

[theyoungestdixon-deactivated201]

I guess in the hospital since they still need to name lil’squirt. We decided on a girl, right?

[i-run-things]

We did, yes! I’ll have a starter up soon c:

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I miss the heck out of you! I will gladly start up Grace again if you're thinking about Tim, I miss these two! TBH I check your blog every now and then because you're the only person from Grace that I still would love to roleplay with. I've been thinking about reviving her but I need to catch up on TWD first! If you would want to continue with these two, I'm all for it!

@theyoungestdixon

I miss the heck out of you too, oh my god!! I’m definitely thinking about it; I would definitely love to, especially if we get these two back at it. I miss them too; they’re such a great ship.  (You should definitely catch up with TWD though when you get the chance; I can’t wait for it to come back on).  I just got back from a mini vacation; if I can get myself organized maybe their kid can finally pop out xD

[i-run-things]

Okay good, because I agree (we need to give her an actual name too, I think xD).  Do you want to start something?  Or I can when I get the chance (probably Friday sometime)?

[theyoungestdixon-deactivated201]

If you don’t mind starting that would be great, and I can reply whenever it is I get out of work. Or I can start if you don’t have the time to, cause I’m fine with whichever!

[i-run-things]

I could start; no problem!  -- are they still in the hospital, or home?

[i-run-things]

I miss the heck out of you! I will gladly start up Grace again if you're thinking about Tim, I miss these two! TBH I check your blog every now and then because you're the only person from Grace that I still would love to roleplay with. I've been thinking about reviving her but I need to catch up on TWD first! If you would want to continue with these two, I'm all for it!

@theyoungestdixon

I miss the heck out of you too, oh my god!! I’m definitely thinking about it; I would definitely love to, especially if we get these two back at it. I miss them too; they’re such a great ship.  (You should definitely catch up with TWD though when you get the chance; I can’t wait for it to come back on).  I just got back from a mini vacation; if I can get myself organized maybe their kid can finally pop out xD

[i-run-things]

They really are, and same!  Honestly, poor Grace xD  Do you want to start with new threads, but still continue off where we were?  Like if we were to start a new thread, it could be right after Lil Squirt is born?  – or do you want to skip ahead?

[theyoungestdixon-deactivated201]

Definitely start new but continue, right after little squirt (totally forgot that was baby’s nick name) is born, because new daddy Tim gives me feels and I need it. 

[i-run-things]

Okay good, because I agree (we need to give her an actual name too, I think xD).  Do you want to start something?  Or I can when I get the chance (probably Friday sometime)?

[i-run-things]

I miss the heck out of you! I will gladly start up Grace again if you're thinking about Tim, I miss these two! TBH I check your blog every now and then because you're the only person from Grace that I still would love to roleplay with. I've been thinking about reviving her but I need to catch up on TWD first! If you would want to continue with these two, I'm all for it!

@theyoungestdixon

I miss the heck out of you too, oh my god!! I’m definitely thinking about it; I would definitely love to, especially if we get these two back at it. I miss them too; they’re such a great ship.  (You should definitely catch up with TWD though when you get the chance; I can’t wait for it to come back on).  I just got back from a mini vacation; if I can get myself organized maybe their kid can finally pop out xD

[theyoungestdixon-deactivated201]

These two are perfect for each other and I still ship them to the moon and back. Grace has been in labor for like, a year, poor girl. I will totally catch up on TWD and make myself not lose interest this time! 

[i-run-things]

They really are, and same!  Honestly, poor Grace xD  Do you want to start with new threads, but still continue off where we were?  Like if we were to start a new thread, it could be right after Lil Squirt is born?  -- or do you want to skip ahead?

[i-run-things]

I miss the heck out of you! I will gladly start up Grace again if you're thinking about Tim, I miss these two! TBH I check your blog every now and then because you're the only person from Grace that I still would love to roleplay with. I've been thinking about reviving her but I need to catch up on TWD first! If you would want to continue with these two, I'm all for it!

@theyoungestdixon

I miss the heck out of you too, oh my god!! I’m definitely thinking about it; I would definitely love to, especially if we get these two back at it. I miss them too; they’re such a great ship.  (You should definitely catch up with TWD though when you get the chance; I can’t wait for it to come back on).  I just got back from a mini vacation; if I can get myself organized maybe their kid can finally pop out xD

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emilybrooksrpworld replied to your post: ;; dude, my ass just went through every single...

Miss you! Miss Tim! Let me know if you come back!!!

Oh same!  If I decide to make the new blog, I’ll definitely let you know.  I’m leaning towards it, of course, but I know I shouldn’t xD  I’m picking up where I left off with all the main stuff if I do it, I just feel like I need to do something (that and I’m pretty sure this account is going to end up locking me out soon because it says it has to send some kind of email to me, but the email isn’t sending??) I don’t know; I’ll keep you posted though c:

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;; dude, my ass just went through every single page of this blog from the beginning.  bawled my eyes out.  remember when the community used to be alive?  remember grace and tim? remember saturdays?  i’m a mess.  a nostalgic mess.  i miss tim; i’ve been on an outsiders kick for a while.  it’s just hard to revive with the community being so dead.  honestly, tim has been my most involved and successful blog. i miss getting anons and stuff.  forever contemplating a revival (though maybe on a new blog; get organized).