Thoughts of: yesterday, today, and tomorrow.

I use to post things I enjoyed and would make ramblings about my feelings; not sure what will come of this at this point. Weird shit ahead.

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Thank you for loving me in ways I felt undeserving and undesirable. While it's true you did bring goods things into my life we were never meant to be together.

I hope you find yourself before you do irreversible harm to yourself. I wish better days for you.

I'm ready to let you go.

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Things I learned with my old therapist, the type of therapy I've been seeking can't yet work until I've seen a sec therapist and work shit out. Making that connection was astounding and I was even more perplexed when I learned they recommended it to help me love myself and deal with my trauma from sex and how I use aex as a coping mechanism.

I was able to have someone outside my family touch my back for the first time in years and didn't feel like there were ants under my skin. Km learning so much about myself. I'm really coming to terms with a lot and it's hard and I still have bad days but it's somehow easier.

Still gotta work on actually feeling deserving of love, and kindness, and beauty.... It's a lone journey and the emotional turmoil I have to scrape thru is exhausting and does leave me wishing for death at times. Pain and especially emotional pain to which you can not accurately communicate to another person is such a heavy heavy burden.

Therapy is a journey; good and bad and accepting what you can and working on things you can. Life is wonderful is so many ways and is the most painful thing we will ever endure.

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Missing the company of the person who made you feel content with life, knowing you'll never have that connection with them again is heartbreaking.

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Just need to get this out, it's just so exhausting.

2022

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You're probably reading this ans I hope you do, I want you to know it's hard getting over you. I however will move on and you'll just a line in this song.

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You're a piece of shit and I can't stand you; every time you said you loved me was a lie

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Hahahahahaha

How true it is

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O'er ladies' lips, who straight on kisses dream

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I caught you cheating

You had the nerve to say you're sleeping

Just not with her, but tell your friends

That I'll be lost without you

And I'll admit it

Sometimes I miss when we were in it

So I made a list so I never forget

All the things I hate about you

Ten, you're selfish, nine, you're jaded

Eight, the dumbest guy I dated

Seven, talk a big game 'til you're naked

Only six seconds, and I had to fake it

Five, you're toxic, four, can't trust you

Three, you still got mommy issues

Two years of your bullshit I can't undo

One, I hate the fact that you made me love you

Your friends must suck if they think you're cool

A sloppy drunk obsessed with his Juul

Keep buying bottles with your daddy's money

And I don't know how I fell for your shit

You gross me out, now I've got the ick

And I've got a list of why you don't get to fuck me

Ten, you're selfish, nine, you're jaded

Eight, the dumbest guy I dated

Seven, talk a big game 'til you're naked

Only six seconds and I had to fake it

Five, you're toxic, four, can't trust you

Three, you still got mommy issues

Two years of your bullshit I can't undo

One, I hate the fact that you made me love you

You made me love you

You made me love you

Ooh, ah

How'd you make me love you?

And I'll admit it

Sometimes I miss when we were in it

So I made a list, yeah

Ten things I hate about you

Ten, you're selfish, nine, you're jaded

Eight, the dumbest guy I dated

Seven talk a big game 'til you're naked

Only six seconds and I had to fake it

Five, you're toxic, four, can't trust you

Three, you still got mommy issues

Two years of your bullshit I can't undo

One, I hate the fact that you made me love you

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It's sick how much I desire your acceptance and love. Your lack of integrity to be truthful and forth coming will form new scars in my very being.

You became the things you promised you wouldn't.

Welcome the monster.

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Blurry but pretty.

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A. Whole. Ass. Bitch.

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People who encourage others toxic behavior but become defensive when someone reacts to their toxicity in a toxic manner kill me.

You don't know the half of it.

He's a piece of shit honestly.

Keep holding him down, he will not be doing much in life and you'll probably have to baby him for the rest of his life

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Will that be one scoop or two?! @stonedscorpiotbh anytime I smoke a kief bowl I think of you ❤💚💛

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