Chaotic world

I'm going to write the things I want to say but don't feel like sharing with the people I know, feel free to relate to all these crazy situations. #Biromantic #GreyAsexual #Asexual

[moringmark]

Before & After

[ur-daily-inspiration]

[i-will-be-me-in-here]

- It's just not fair...

+ What do you mean?

- This!

+ What is 'this'?

- Me loving you more than just a friend, and you believing this could be one of your best friendships...

+ I...

- Do not say more... I'll be here, I'll be your friend, I'll burry this feelings until they are gone, until I can love you just as a friend.

+...

[i-will-be-me-in-here]

Me: "I will start to focus on myself, I can't be like this, is so pathetic".

Her: "Hi"

Me: "Ah sh#t here we go again" with my golden retriever heart pounding so fast...

Me: "Hi, how are you? Are you alright? Anything I can do for you today? Do you want me to bring you the moon maybe?"

[i-will-be-me-in-here]

For a while I knew I was able to be a women lover but didn't admit it to myself, I didn't Internalize it. But I recently did and felt this heavy weight getting off my shoulders.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm still ace, or just a repressed lesbian.

Who knows... Time will tell... For now, I'm still ace.

[i-will-be-me-in-here]

It's been a while since I posted here. I kinda mad at the fact that a company may refuse to hire you based on your sexuality, and I mean like when they are actually trying to hire people from the LGBTQ+ community, and just because you don't look "gay enough" they assume you're straight and reject your application...

[i-will-be-me-in-here]

Finally I have a bedroom just for myself

Finally, after a whole life, I get a room for myself and I don't need to share, it's weird for my parents that I lockthe door, they may think I want privacy for other purposes but in the I just want privacy to cry, so no de can see my red and swollen nose and eyes. Because according to them there's no need for me to feel sad, depressed, unmotivated... But they get mad and scared when I dare to mention the S word (suicide). When are they really gonna stop invalidating my feelings?

#bedroom #room #alone #myself #thoughts

[i-will-be-me-in-here]

My not romantic man

I always dreamed about my future man to be romantic but I guess you just see that on TV. If mine isn't I don't care anymore, otherwise we would be too cheesy for this world. Don't get me wrong he knows how to make me smile and puts his best efforts to have things perfectly for me. But I know he won't ever send me a love letter nor anything like that, and that's just fine, I can be overly romantic for the two of us.

[i-will-be-me-in-here]

How do I close my mind or shut it down?

I wish you all could understand how terrible and miserable does overthinking can be. It ruins your life for real.

[friendly-animals]

(Source)

[i-will-be-me-in-here]

Why did I have to born human?

I was growing up just okay. Happy to not being able to feel something that now I do and it's just uncomfortable.

[ermelina]

When your boyfriend or girlfriend asks if you are okay..

Don’t lie to them. If y'all are in love, tell them what’s bothering you. They care. It’s okay to be vulnerable with them. Don’t tell them “yes, I’m okay” and you’re not, because then you’ll be mad at them for not understanding your hurt when YOU HAVEN’T EVEN EXPLAINED IT to them. People can’t read minds. Give them the chance to listen, give them the chance to understand. Let them love you, communication is key.

[leerings]

this applies to close friends too, not just romantic partners

[homo-ousios]

@eruditeesoterica 🔍👀

[murallamuerta]

“Si no encuentras una manera de desahogarte, terminaras explotando.”

— Bojack horseman

[i-will-be-me-in-here]

Should I be hating myself?

I'm not trusting you anymore. I want to but it's hard for me and I'm hating it. Should I silence myself? idk but it's hurting me. I don't want to not trust you because it breaks you and I don't want to hurt you. Why am I like this?

[i-will-be-me-in-here]

More of my feelings October 18th 2018

I FUCKING HATE MYSELF, if you make me hate me you do me wrong! PLEASE break me with the truth but don't lie to me. I fucking hate myself right now and I would stab myself if I could, for being such a fool. I want to give you a try but you keep lying! what the fuck are you hidding?

[i-will-be-me-in-here]

October 18th 2018

I wish with all my hearth to believe you! with all my freaking heart but you're just lying, lying about your location when I'm live seeing where you are because you allowed me to share with indefinitely on iMessage. I fucking hate myself for believing this fairytale I'm breaking myself but it's a good lesson, it will give me more reasons to die.

[i-will-be-me-in-here]

October 2nd, 2018

You say you're not busy, but you take forever to reply, you're always taking more than three minutes, and that's not the problem, the problem is when you say you're doing nothing more besides talking to me. You leave for minutes and come back with silly excuses that I believe, most of the times. Short replies are so frequents now. I think you just desire me and even though you try, you don't actually love me, you try but there's nothing strong.