dead inside

this is where i vent when my life’s fucked. //tw suicide thoughts, self harm, self hate. —backup acc: @i-will-die-tomorrow

[user-boxer]

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[quotemadness]

“You deserve something you don’t have to question. You deserve someone who is sure of you.”

— r.h. Sin

[konoko]

[stay-close]

“I know you loved me. I just don’t understand why you didn’t love me enough to stay.”

— Sylvain Reynard, Gabriel’s Rapture

[flowerfieldsofelysian-deactivat]

She’s a ten but anytime she’s going through a hard time, she automatically reads and listens to music all day because she would rather escape this world and focus on other peoples sorrow and problems than her own.

[konoko]

how to uninstall feelings /google search

[i-wish-we-never-met]

I know you're here, but I feel like you're so far away

[1anonyymous1]

I stopped trying with a lot of people and i’m glad I did

[i-will-die-today]

i wouldve left me just the same as you

[100493503004422]

growing up I was always afraid of being Found Out. not sure what I was hiding. just my whole self I guess

[wishing-for-deathx]

I’m drunk on the idea that death only death can save me

[my-road-to-existence-deactivate]

I am a failure. Doesn't matter what I am trying to do, I will always fuck it up.

[i-wish-we-never-met]

I have thought that I would wait for you as if there was forever, and I have loved the idea of forever, our forever. but I forgot that I, we, wouldn't have much time. forever sounds so reckless, so naive, even so selfish for mortal beings. I wouldn't have forever to wait for you, and even I don't have time to wait anymore. because I realized, I have fallen for you as I fell for the thought of forever. only the idea.

[aureumaze]

I screamed my lungs out at the shadow that I saw, I thought it was you. It didn't feel like you. I knew it wasn't you. My voice just echoed, and the echo wrapped up my whole body, consuming me as the lonesome you gave me.

The voices in my head shut, every time your name came out of this mouth. Everything became so quiet. So empty and hollow.

I grabbed and I grabbed, but nothing was there for me to get. I probably have loved you too much that I always created false images of you in the back of my head. Forgetting the fact that you weren't even here.

Those moments where everything about you was built based on my memories, because you have faded away some time ago. Your solid form has become shadow, blurred out every time I tried to reach you out.

I wanted to fade away too, I wanted to show you that I have become a shadow just like you. But each time I tried, I heard voices and I kept looking back. It wasn't yours, it was the memories.

False images, falses voices, creating a huge false hope. I became hopelessly hopeful with the thought of you, of us.

—a.m.

[futureless]

hate when pro-lifers are like “what if ur mom would’ve aborted you?”

bro does it look like i wanna be here right now?

[xashtray]

maybe i should start hoping that everything will be fine, that one day i will be happy. even if i dont think i will even make it to next year right now

[xashtray]

"I keep trying medication, but if I'm being honest doing anything that's good for me makes me wanna vomit."

Happier in Hell - Royal & the Serpent