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I received an email from Tumblr this morning informing me that today is the first anniversary of this blog
12 months of me? You're welcome. đ
putting a pause on things (II)
There is much more still to come. But ... not quite yet.
Iâll be stepping away from this blog for a little while to focus on my wellbeing, and perhaps work on some of my other writing. When I feel ready, Iâll pick up the most recent thread precisely where we left off.
As always, thank you for your support, and your patience.
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new ask game: give me an extremely specific assumption you have about me based off of my fanfic. go.
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âBye dad! Bye Britt!â
A car door slams and once again, we are left alone. Like every Sunday afternoon, we stay put, watching as Henry runs up the driveway and to the front door, turning to wave at us one last time before disappearing into Nicoleâs house. Only once heâs safely inside does the car begin to roll backwards towards the street.
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Iâve been thinking too âŠ
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For nearly the entirety of our relationship I have been nothing more than a silent observer. I have listened with minimal protest as you dictated the course of our relationship. But tonight that ends.
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For nearly the entirety of our relationship I have been nothing more than a tyrant. I have imposed my will on you at every turn and you have yielded to me with very little remonstration. But those days are past now.
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It would seem that we have once again found ourselves in uncharted territory, my love.
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The room is still, and so quiet, as if the whole world is holding its breath.
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I used to long for the noise of a city that once felt so alive. Every blare of a car horn, every angry shout of a local annoyed with a tourist filled my head until there was no room left to think.
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Not today.
Not yet.
And -
Maybe not ever.
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âBye dad! Bye Britt!â
A car door slams and once again, we are left alone. Like every Sunday afternoon, we stay put, watching as Henry runs up the driveway and to the front door, turning to wave at us one last time before disappearing into Nicoleâs house. Only once heâs safely inside does the car begin to roll backwards towards the street.
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Iâve been thinking too âŠ
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For nearly the entirety of our relationship I have been nothing more than a silent observer. I have listened with minimal protest as you dictated the course of our relationship. But tonight that ends.
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For nearly the entirety of our relationship I have been nothing more than a tyrant. I have imposed my will on you at every turn and you have yielded to me with very little remonstration. But those days are past now.
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It would seem that we have once again found ourselves in uncharted territory, my love.
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The room is still, and so quiet, as if the whole world is holding its breath.
The kiss lingers.
Or - perhaps - it does not.
Time has always seemed to behave in such a peculiar way whenever our lips meet. What feels like an all-too-brief moment can turn out to be hours in real time, as though I have stumbled my way through an enchanted circle before emerging, bewildered as to where I am and when I am.
You pull back, pressing your forehead against mine, and when I open my eyes it is still Sunday evening in LA, I think. Your arms are still draped over my shoulders, the fingers of your left hand combing through my hair once more. I have been wondering recently if I should cut it, another watershed between then and now. But I would miss you playing with it, like I miss your lips on mine.
âMay I kiss you again?â I ask.
âNo,â you respond, with amusement in your voice, so that the bluntness of your response doesnât take me aback so very much. âNot yet.â
My hands are resting on your sides. I dare not move them, just in case that is also not permitted.  âThen what shall I do?â
You move your head to the right, nose grazing against mine, before your lips trace the rest of the way along my cheekbone. Intrigued, I lean into it, tilt my head just so, and now your mouth is hovering right by the shell of my ear, your warm breath sending a tiny shiver down my spine when you whisper, âGet undressed.â Then, before I can react, you disentangle yourself from my loose hold, and sit down on the edge of the bed, in a reversal of our earlier roles, when you were trying on all those clothes, which are still strewn across the chair in the corner of the room.
âMay I talk?â I ask, fiddling with the fastenings on my shirt. I feel incredibly self-conscious all of a sudden. My fingers have all become thumbs, and it is as if I have never once opened a button in my life.
âYou may.â You shift slightly on the bed, putting one hand slightly behind you on the mattress to better support your back. Your legs are slightly open, your other hand resting on the swell of your belly, and even though your positioning should look somewhat awkward, to me you appear every bit as graceful and composed as a queen upon her throne. A hint of a smile plays around the corners of your lips as you watch me.
Somehow, I manage to persuade my idiot fingers to do what they are supposed to. With each button I unfasten, I somehow feel your gaze more, even though you have not moved, or changed your expression at all, until I shrug the shirt off, and let it fall to the floor. At this, your gaze travels down my torso, then back up again, until you meet my eyes.  âI thought you were going to talk, Charlie. You usually have so much to say.â
There is a glint in your eye, a spark. It travels through the air between us, and when it reaches me, it catches. I reach for my belt, unfastening it quickly, and sliding it out of the belt loops of my jeans in one quick, fluid motion.  âIâve bound your wrists with this belt,â my mouth says, before my brain has caught up with it.  âIâve left marks on you with this belt.â
âYou have,â you say agreeably, as though we are talking about the weather.
I unfasten my jeans, and work the zipper down slowly.  âIâve sat on the edge of the bed and watched you strip for me. Iâve made you bleed for me.â
âYou have,â you say again, your eyes slightly narrowed now, as though you are not sure where I am going with this. Unfortunately, I am not sure where I am going with this either, but now that I have begun talking, I find that I cannot stop.
My jeans slide down my thighs with less resistance than they would have done a few months ago. I lost some weight during my period of self-isolation, and have yet to gain it back again. This may in fact be the best shape you have ever seen me in, and at some point I will appreciate that, but not right now.  âYou did everything I asked of you,â I say, extracting one foot and then the other from the jeans, which I leave in a heap on the floor.  âEverything.â
âI did,â you affirm.  âCome here,â you add. It is a command, and it is an invitation, and my feet begin propelling me towards you as though I have been caught in your gravitational field. Â
Once I am within arms reach, you shuffle forwards on the edge of the bed, and settle your hands on my hips, your fingers toying with the waistband of my underwear. Â
âDid I ever make you do something you didnât want to?â I blurt out, as if now is the time for my guilty conscience to try to assuage itself. Ah, I think, foolishly. Thatâs what I was getting at.
You tilt your head far, far back to look up at me.  âNo, never,â you say softly, as solemnly as if you are uttering a prayer, and I can sense nothing but truth in your voice and in your eyes.  âNever, ever. I trust you, Charlie.â
Youâve always trusted me, havenât you? Even when I did not deserve it. Â
I smile at you, rest my hands atop yours, and together we slide my briefs down, down, down, until they hit the floor. Your gaze traverses me again, up and down. At these close quarters, it feels as tangible as a physical touch, and I feel myself begin to respond with interest, which makes you smile too. That gleam in your eye is back once more, and yet again it travels the short distance between us, adding more fuel to the fire that has burned low of late, but will never fully go out.
âDo you trust me?â you ask, as if it is in any doubt.
âI do,â I say, because it reminds me of our wedding day, and the vows we wrote because we didnât like the conventional ones, and how happy we were that day, and how happy we are now, and because I trust you.
Some of what Iâm thinking and feeling must be showing on my face, because you huff out a laugh.  âYou ridiculous man,â you say.  âLay down on the bed. Get comfortable. And if youâre very lucky, you might get that kiss you were asking for.â
I nod, and immediately do as you have asked of me. Â
And then.
And then ...
The room is still, and so quiet once more.
The world is holding its breath, and so am I.
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âBye dad! Bye Britt!â
A car door slams and once again, we are left alone. Like every Sunday afternoon, we stay put, watching as Henry runs up the driveway and to the front door, turning to wave at us one last time before disappearing into Nicoleâs house. Only once heâs safely inside does the car begin to roll backwards towards the street.
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Iâve been thinking too ...
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For nearly the entirety of our relationship I have been nothing more than a silent observer. I have listened with minimal protest as you dictated the course of our relationship. But tonight that ends.
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For nearly the entirety of our relationship I have been nothing more than a tyrant. I have imposed my will on you at every turn and you have yielded to me with very little remonstration. But those days are past now.
My interest was already piqued even before you tell me you wish to try something unconventional by our standards. And once you have declared it, I find that my mind has become like one of the sprinters I have barely been paying attention to on the television. It is on the starting blocks, ready to explode into action with a thousand different thoughts and ideas all racing towards the finish line. Â
But ... this is usual for me. You have said that you have something in mind which is out of the ordinary. And so, with some difficulty, I try to disengage my imagination, and instead focus on that which is important in the here and now: you.
You are looking particularly lovely this evening. All the time we have been spending in the garden has been paying off: a light dusting of cute freckles has appeared across the bridge of your nose, and I will kiss each one of them when the opportunity presents itself. And there is a glow about you, as if you have been lit from within. When I asked you about it the other day, you laughed and told me it was some product or other made by Becca, whoever she is. But I donât think thatâs it, and I donât think itâs âpregnancy glowâ either, although Iâm sure that is certainly a contributing factor in how well you look. No, I think it may be due to the newfound confidence you now possess - in yourself, in me, in us.
Oh, how you have flourished now you have the space to do so.
The urge to reach for you is almost unbearable, and my fingers betray me, twitching uselessly against the sofa cushion, as if it is any kind of replacement for your soft skin. Your expression is inscrutable, though you are obviously thinking about something. When you exclaim that you need me, my first instinct is to touch you, but I hesitate, and in doing so I realize that there is more to this than that. If I had reacted instantly, I would never have noticed.
I am calm, and I am gentle when I ask you what you need. Your gaze, carefully averted for the past few moments, now returns to mine. You swallow, and it is clear that you are having some difficulty getting your words out. Again, my instinct is to say or do something to comfort you, but to do so would be to interrupt you, so I simply wait and hope that my silent presence is reassuring enough.
What you tell me next is somehow both surprising, and not. It is certainly unconventional by our standards. But we need this, donât we? You need to discover how it feels to be in control. And I need to learn how to cede it.
It seems that weâll both be out of our comfort zones tonight, my love. But you are my safe place, and I hope that I am yours. Weâll figure this out. Together.
âAll right,â I say, softly.  âYouâre in control tonight.â
Wherever you lead, I will follow.
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âBye dad! Bye Britt!â
A car door slams and once again, we are left alone. Like every Sunday afternoon, we stay put, watching as Henry runs up the driveway and to the front door, turning to wave at us one last time before disappearing into Nicoleâs house. Only once heâs safely inside does the car begin to roll backwards towards the street.
Iâve been thinking too ...
Charlie Barber sits on the edge of the bed, and watches as his lovely wife tries on almost an entire runway showâs worth of maternity clothes. Items that have already been tried on have been discarded in a heap upon the floor, much to his dismay, and he knows that every single one of them will be returned tomorrow morning. He knows this because this is becoming an all-too common occurrence in the New York apartment they share.
It is the late spring of 2011. Charlie and Nicole have been married for three months. Henry is just a name, as distant and unknowable as a far-off city Charlie never intends to visit, like Timbuktu. And as Charlie sits there, the phone in his back pocket buzzes to announce the arrival of yet another message from someone he knows he shouldnât reply to.
âHow do I look?â
Charlie glances up from the one clear spot on the floor he has been desperately fixating on, to see Nicole leaning dramatically against the dresser. âYou look beautiful,â he responds. Too quickly, perhaps, or too slowly. Too effusive, or perhaps not enthusiastic enough. Who knows these days?
âLiar.â There isnât a hint of humor in her expression as she stares him down.
She isnât wrong, either.
Charlie is a shallow, vapid man who was deeply attracted to his wifeâs pregnant body until he suddenly wasnât, and now even just looking at her for too long feels as strange and uncomfortable as trying to stare directly at the sun.  âOkay then, you look terrible,â he tells her, sarcasm dripping from his voice like syrup from a pancake.
Nicoleâs expression falls, and Charlie feels like a piece of shit every bit as much as he feels a sense of petty satisfaction at a point scored. He forgets, sometimes, that heâs married to someone just as shallow and vapid as he is. Nicole wants to be some kind of earth mother, and she wants to be a sex object, and she wants him to want to fuck her, but she doesnât want him to touch her, and she wants him to say she looks beautiful but then she doesnât believe him when he does ...
Itâs exhausting.
Nicole storms off to the bathroom to fume. Once he hears the door slam, Charlie pulls out his phone and stares at it for a long time, before taking a shaky breath and turning it off. At least he did one thing right today.
Meanwhile, 2,789 miles and a decade away, I use every ounce of concentration I possess to keep my hands steady on the steering wheel and my eyes on the road. I remove myself from our bedroom before I tear that gorgeous dress off your body where you stand. Funnily enough, my mind is not at all focused on some Olympic sport Iâve never even heard of ... and itâs certainly a miracle that my heart hasnât yet burst through my ribcage in response to your touch.
I need you.
I long for you.
I cannot imagine not being completely in love with every single part of you.
I am not that Charlie anymore. And you are not a reflection of who I am at my worst, but instead who I hope to be at my very best.
Itâs time, I think, to make some new memories. Ones I can look back on in ten years with fondness instead of reproach. Ones we can both look back on, together. Â
Do you remember that night, my love? I was so nervous, for so many different reasons. But I forgot all about my worries as soon as I looked at you and realized that you were not uncertain at all. Â
I stretch out my arm along the sofa cushions, my hand almost but not quite touching yours, and return your hint of a smile with one of my own. âWhat have you been thinking about, my love?â
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I just want you to know how much I appreciate you, Charlie, and the contribution that you have made to the community and it has been wonderful getting to know you! Send Britt and Little B my love. đ
Thank you. That's very kind of you to say.
I shan't be forwarding this on, since I can barely think of anyone I would class as tolerable let alone wonderful on this godforsaken hellsite. But rest assured, you definitely fall into the latter group, and you are very much appreciated.
https://twitter.com/michaelbuble/status/1415398803562131457?s=21
Can you compete with these skills?
I have begrudgingly watched the video several times now, and I'm still rather unsure as to exactly what "skills" you seem to think are on display here.
Can I also throw a ball against a wall?
Yes, Anon. I can.
Aren't you tired, my love? You've been running through my mind all day ...
Do yourself a favor and stop talking so I can kiss you.
Are you cake? Cause I want a piece of that.
Are you sure you didn't mean to send this to @mikeybuble? đ€ Your YouTube search history doesn't lie ...
Iâm actually really glad you brought him up. Heâs invited me to one of his concerts, complete with a private backstage tour. I think Iâll take him up on it now. đ
Ah, @iamakiller perhaps you can enjoy my YouTube videos alone this evening while Britt accompanies me? I suggest starting with âFeeling Good,â a real crowd pleaser, that one.
Hah.
I'm sure the real Michael "Crimes Against Music" Bublé has far better things to do than hanging around on Tumblr.
You're probably just some thirty to forty year-old woman impersonating him!
Isn't there a hapless cashier somewhere that you should be harassing, Karen?
Are you cake? Cause I want a piece of that.
Are you sure you didn't mean to send this to @mikeybuble? đ€ Your YouTube search history doesn't lie ...
Iâm actually really glad you brought him up. Heâs invited me to one of his concerts, complete with a private backstage tour. I think Iâll take him up on it now. đ
Are you cake? Cause I want a piece of that.
Are you sure you didn't mean to send this to @mikeybuble? đ€ Your YouTube search history doesn't lie ...
Good afternoon, my love. For the made up fic title, how about: The Tragic Demise of Michael BublĂ©? đ€
Plot twist: it's actually a story about the tragic demise of one (1) Charlie Barber at the hands of Mr. Michael Bublé. The only demise Michael suffers is that of his career when he's carted off to prison. One can only take so much torment before they snap!
Hmph. I'd like to see him try.
Charlie Barber never sleeps. He waits.
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Hello, Charlie! I know you have asked for anonymous opinions, but I think youâll find my name important. Iâve heard you and your wife are big fans and I wanted to take this opportunity to thank you. Iâve included a signed poster of myself, as well as my entire Christmas collection on vinyl. Do be sure to give your wife my best for me, will you?