Recovery is possible for everyone.

The ramblings of a recovered anorexic, bulimic and self harmer. survivor of sexual abuse and rape. Here to offer hope that recovery from anything is possible. This page will include positive quotes, snipets of my story which are truthful and raw, so could be uncomfortable for others, but also my story of recovery.

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i hope all my badasses trying to recover from an eating disorder enjoyed some yummy, satisfying and nutritious food today. i’m proud of you and even if you didn’t, tomorrow is another day to try again. i believe in you!

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“Let them judge you. Let them misunderstand you. Let them gossip about you. Their opinions aren’t your problems. You stay kind, committed to love and free in your authenticity. No matter what they do or say, don’t you doubt your worth or the beauty of your truth. Just keep shining like you always do.”

— Scott Stabile

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“Time spent healing is not wasted time.”

— It is so important for your existence. 

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You are worth it. Stop. Say it as many times as you need to.

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Body SHAMING is not ok

Ranting post after yet again being called fat yesterday.

BODY SHAMING IS NOT RIGHT AT ANYTIME OR ANY SIZE, IN OUR SOCIETY TOODAY YOU CANT WIN, IM TO FAT NOW BY SOME PEOPLES STANDARDS BUT WAS DYING TWO YEARD AGO. AS A SOCIETY WE NEED TO STOP THIS BEFORE WR PRODUCE MORE MESSED UP YOYNG PEOPLE.

I know which one I prefer, starving to death misirable, dying, unhappy hating lofe or a little bit chunky and happy, glowing enjoying life.

So yesterday again someone at my place of work insinuated that I was to fat no not a resident a member of staff by saying don't sit on that chair it'll be brake.

Now I'm the first to laugh at jokes made about me and I'm a joker myself, but I don't find this funny I may have laughed but it hurt, and no not just because I have an eating disorder it's hurtful and rude to anyone.

It's a good job I'm in a good place because I would of shown you or anorexia would of just what your words did by starving. But do you know no matter what size I am I'm beautiful now as I am, I have boobs and a butt and tummy and it's all beautiful. So yes your words hurt but I'm stronger then that and words.

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It is understood that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of any storm.

When a rainbow appears, it does not mean that the storm never happened or that Iam not still dealing with its aftermath.

It means that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds.

Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of colour, energy and hope

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A bit about me

So I am a 32 year recovered anorexic, bulimic and self harmer. I am also a survivor of sexual abuse and rape. After 17 years of hating, despising and trying to disappear I am now almost fully recovered. Some things I believe you can't recover fully from but you have to accept, process and believe your stronger such as sexual abuse.

But above all this I am so much more I am a nurse, a daughter, an auntie, a friend, kind, caring and loyal. My life is 200000% better then it's ever been I smile and laugh every day, I have amazing friends but it's not been an easy journey but if by having this page I can help even one person by giving them hope then my struggle has been worth it.

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Learn to love yourself

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Only very recently did I realize that stigmatisation still exists so vividly when it comes to mental health problems and physical health problems, and yet again it was from the very profession I work in nursing. Meant to be one of the most understanding professions.

I have always been an advocate for promoting mental health in equality to that of physical health. I have recently been asked to prove I'm well enough but tell me would someone who was recovering from cancer be asked the same question please could you go to the doctors and prove your recovering from cancer, I don't think so. I have been through so much you only have to look at me now and know I'm recovering. I and all the others who suffer from mental health that's 1 in 4 people so everyone of you will know someone with a mental illness don't deserve judgement we shouldn't have to prove anything especially when we fight every day to stay well. So I'm not ashamed of my struggle and never will I be made to feel like I should be again. I'm one of the strongest people and will not be ashamed of my past and will continue to fight for equality between mental and physical illness.

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The difference between physical and mental health is also apparent in children and babies. 😢

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A bit about me

so new blog, I feel I should writea little bit about me. Iam 32 years of age and have suffered with anorexia nervosa, depression and self hrm for 17 years I have been in many forms of treatment and have eventually made it out th other side. I have always fiercely been an advocate that mental health and physical health should be treated equally, that people who suffer from mental health of any kind should not be judged, but being a nurse my self I am more than aware of the stigma that is still attached to mental health, the fear people have and the lack of understanding. I have faced it many times outside and shockingly within the nursing profession of which is viewed as one of the most caring an understanding professions sadly this is not always true.

Mt blog will be used to help to try to participate in reducing the stigma around mental health, and promoting that recovery is possible. Its a positive place.