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[iaminthegetawaycar]

I want to be with you

you are destroying yourself

no one is to blame for this

you too

[iaminthegetawaycar]

"He felt love, he felt something he wanna have for the first time. He never wanna let it go. So someone took his love from him. Someone took his star"

-Of course this is about Remus, like a am some kind of angst lover...

[iaminthegetawaycar]

I can see the reflections of the moon in the sea

You give up

You're swimming under the moon

Are you swimming right? No, you're drifting

You're drifting in a sea of thoughts

[iaminthegetawaycar]

this mortal body of mine can't take any more of this care for it

-R.J.L, after the first fullmoon with his real family.

[iaminthegetawaycar]

my love has never been so broken

I say am I the one who is broken at one point

don't make me believe otherwise

I may not be running but I'm afraid

I don't like Romeo but I would be Romeo for you

And I don't like to be tied up but I would drink the poison from your lips

If you were the devil, I would be Eve, I would break the rules for you

I'd climb from hell to heaven for you, I'd push heaven into hell

I shouldn't

i will hold myself

so as not to break you

I will not bind myself to you

What kind of force of nature would I be if I did?

Again, From Remus to Sirius.

[iaminthegetawaycar]

options are spinning in my head

you are in all

and possibilities

never scared me this much

There were before you but you are the first darlin'

for the first time i turned off my brain

I opened my heart

It's not as dark as I thought

as dark as i show

every cell I have is against me

my feet are shaking to run

you can vibrate in different ways

From Remus to Sirius

[iaminthegetawaycar]

I hate people the most when they can't see how tired I am

-R.J.L

[iaminthegetawaycar]

I can't bleed inside anmore

My walls are rotting it can't hold any blood

You can't take anythink you said

You make me think

I like to think, to think about you

They said "you should stop running"

Thats all i know

Help me, i am stucked. I don't know anything but to run away

Should i run?

Should I run and leave everything behind

Behind us, behind you

For the first time, I think before run

I think about you

Oh darlin'

I want you

Remus to Sirius or Sirius to Remus. As a Remus kinnie, this is something i would say

[iaminthegetawaycar]

You are dead to me. They didnt belive me for the first time.

How, Why?

I can't feel you

I can't feel anything for you

I want to, but you're not worth it

Do even like me that way. Be fucking clear mate..

You are "part of me" You was.

You was the one i said " forever".

You was the one i said "i love you".

You never said it back.

You are a ghost. Ghost of my ex'version

a lover version

happier version

version that you killed

you are the ghost i killed.

Remus to Sirius , after "the prank"

[iaminthegetawaycar]

I am so tired becase of all that running,

Not becase screaming in tears

I was always afraid of how I feel

So i am crying in silence

İs it okey to feel?

"This is sick", "unnatural" he said.

Am I wrong, am I some kind of monster?

Some people should be wrong

Is this true or i am the only monster

I am afraid to learn

Learn who I am

A selfish monster?

A dumb slave?

Or am i just a runner, running from feeling?

Remus to Sirius, he never read it.

[iaminthegetawaycar]

When I say trust and attachment issues, I'm not saying that I hung up on my feelings after I got attached and broke my trust, but that the thing is I was pretending to be a slut cause i cant turn off my feelings.