i am the crook

junksnippets and old crusties

[iamthecrook]

I will always wonder about you

[iamthecrook]

🔌

I'm dying.

Is there an outlet in here?

I'm dying.

Do you know the WiFi password?

I'm dying.

Can I plug myself in?

I'm dying.

I'll have to talk to my friend?

I'm dying.

You mean, make conversation?

I'm dying.

What is eye contact?

I'm dying.

Do I have less than 10 percent?

I'm dying.

Is this the meaning of "drained"?

I'm ----

[iamthecrook]

+

daddy calls me to sit on his lap; he puckers his lips, and i give them a smack

[iamthecrook]

saturday.

i don’t like the difference between 1:30 and 1:40. 1:30 is forgiving and makes you feel like you have enough time but as soon as 10 minutes passes you realize that you don’t have enough time at all 20 minutes flies by like 20 years it’s 2 o’clock it’s too fucking quick it’s life in a nutshell so i don’t like the difference between 1:30 and 1:40.

[iamthecrook]

translation

            I have stumbled         into your love:    tongues           divided,         but hearts                     whole.

[iamthecrook]

🎈

a carcass waits around like me, to be found in one whole piece;

a carcass breeds disease like me, ferments and boils within me deep;

a carcass lies still like me, on the floor of sanity;

a carcass tells secrets like me, only keeps its mouth shut when it’s asleep;

a carcass falls in love like me; the heart doesn’t beat. not a beat.

[iamthecrook]

modern relationship

I scrub furiously

at your dirty dishes

and stare at you

all the while;

you pound furiously

at your stupid controller

and stare at the tv

with a smile

[iamthecrook]

blister

I am the dried-up worm on the pavement

Who has made the mistake Of thinking that

He can make it

[iamthecrook]

I work I walk I suck my boyfriend off I wallow I swallow I disregard all sorrow I think I drink I vomit then I sink I joke I smoke I cough and I choke

[iamthecrook]

4 yrs.

I want to know what is Out there

Not In here

I know what is In here

It is people wondering What exactly is

Out there But I don’t want

To know what is In here

I’d prefer to know what is Out there

[iamthecrook]

good

I've been good, real good; way too good for my own good; for his own good, I behave good; everything is good; the sex is good, he treats me good; life is good when it's all good; I was so good at being bad; I want to be good at being bad; everything is good, until I get bad; he doesn't know my good from my bad

[iamthecrook]

,

across the devil's back I rob his hood and fantasize on things no good I take morale and shut the doors on love and sleeping beauty whores I drown a baby an innocent soul I suck them out I kill him too and it's all for a lovely ocean blue but blue is me it could never be you

[iamthecrook]

jumblefuck

         I still

love you I still

stuff my bones 

          into your bag

before I had no clue I was lost and  so were you

 pulled pulled out a gun limp at the wrist a shoddy shot that outright missed

even the orbits of many moons circle around me and you

a rather short and sweet example of how things could have been

I look away I choke it down I swallow it whole and  make no sound 

[iamthecrook]

100314

a monstrous soul ( I would long to kiss with a soft touch of lips ) I fear which would seep into me

[iamthecrook]

I exist for one who strings me along; when he holds the rope, I feel nothing wrong; but as soon as it snaps I feel the lash of a whip; a sting that's so sharp it makes me sick

[iamthecrook]

¢

chapped lips rip apart; dried out, subtle art     

[iamthecrook]

--

I crushed a fly beneath my toes; I felt its crunch, and scrunched my nose