Mine.

Stuff I like and three blog posts from when I lived in Spain.

[icanlove2things]

When I first watched the pitt I thought they were being a little heavy handed with the pittsburgh references. But I’ve changed my mind and I actually don’t think they were heavy handed enough now. The only time I remember seeing a Steelers logo was during the honor walk, and Dana didn’t even say yinz ONCE! (She also didn’t commit to saying jagoff during the chairs fight which is my only criticism of her performance) Anyway, I hope they go even harder for season 2 because that’s the most pittsburgh thing they could do.

[icanlove2things]

You just cannot convince me that Breanna is gleefully using generative AI all over the place. This is the woman who went on strike when Harry wanted to help Ethan, there’s no way she’s contributing to the destruction of the planet just to potentially give them better covers on a hypothetical future job or whatever.

[icanlove2things]

It’s very funny to me that Sophie is trying to online date. Harry at least still thinks he’s a mostly normal person (he’s wrong), but Sophie already learned YEARS ago that dating a normal person isn’t possible. If I was her I’d AT LEAST be looking at the other leverage crews first.

[icanlove2things]

I had a dream last night that Athena was the one to find out about Kim and talk to Eddie about it and he was so deep in the delusion that his main concern was that HAD to tell Chris and Athena was so mad she almost slapped him.

[icanlove2things]

I TRULY would support Buck and Eddie with other people… if it actually made sense! I LIKED Eddie and Ana together and was really surprised when Eddie started freaking out about her but I thought, ok this is happening for a reason, let’s see what the better option is! So HOW are they gonna have Bobby tell Eddie about how he and Athena found each other in a way that perfectly mirrors so many moments Eddie and Buck have had… to then have Eddie pair up with some random girl from a call. (After he JUST told Buck that doesn’t work. Was that convo actually supposed to show us that Eddie is wrong all the time??) I would have even preferred if she was someone we’d literally never seen before. But at the very LEAST they could have had a more meaningful moment. Or had Felisa the actress come back! She would have made way more sense like I was honestly surprised nothing came of them after her ep! And HOW are they gonna have Buck say Natalia Sees him but then not show us that at all? (And what are we supposed to do with that Look that Eddie gave him when he said that??) Like at least SHOW us more of their conversations, her actually understanding things about Buck that resonate with him. Him joking about his death but also talking about it in a serious way, like a combo of how he talked about it with two of the people he cares about the most: Eddie and Maddie. Just SOMETHING to show us more of a bond, more of a reason why these women are Right for them.

I’ve said it before and I’ll keep saying it: none of this makes sense because of the literal way they have written this show and especially this season. I just don’t understand how a show that is so thoughtful with literally every other storyline keeps fucking up these ones this badly.

[icanlove2things]

But DOES Eddie actually not remember what happened after the shooting? Because Chimney said the same thing for a while until he finally confessed to Bobby that he was lying. And Eddie, if he admits that he remembers the shooting, he has to admit that he remembers bleeding out while reaching for Buck. He has to admit he remembers Buck risking everything to save him (including risking Christopher losing BOTH of his dads). He has to admit that when they were in the fire truck, he looked at Buck covered in blood and asked him if HE was hurt.

So maybe he really doesn’t remember. Or maybe he just doesn’t want to think about all of the things he can’t forget.

[icanlove2things]

I don’t understand why some people are upset about Buck’s couch potentially being ruined by Kameron’s water breaking? Who cares how it gets ruined?? If anything, Kameron ruining it should be a very clear indication that they’re not gonna do anything weird with her and Buck (which would obviously be unhinged). The point is that Buck needs to choose his next couch HIMSELF.

And maybe that will involve Eddie and Chris in some way (Eddie telling Buck he’s always welcome on his couch, or they all go shopping together to pick one out), but I also wouldn’t be mad if Buck just took that step on his own. He pushes through the fear of making a wrong choice and just chooses himself for once.

[icanlove2things]

The most Eddie Diaz ever flirted with a woman was Marjan during the Lonestar crossover and the main reason he did that was to be able to rub it in Buck’s face later.

[icanlove2things]

The last time Eddie said he was looking for a sign, Shannon told him she thought she was pregnant again, which he obviously took to mean they should be together. Then she told him she was only late and they should divorce. And then she died.

So yeah, I get why he refuses to believe in signs now.

And who knows what the writers will do, but what SHOULD happen is Eddie looking at the ‘signs’ he got with Marisol and literally running in the opposite direction.

[icanlove2things]

Something about Buck losing his math powers, the one really ‘cool’ thing that came out of his death, exactly when he’s trying to connect with Natalia, a person who thinks it’s so cool that he died.

[icanlove2things]

Eddie looking for what he had with Shannon because at the end of the day she gave him Christopher. So even though it was one disaster after another with them, he thinks that’s what he needs to look for again since the best thing in his life came from the two of them being together.

But he’s going down the absolute wrong track looking for someone to give him the feeling he had with Shannon in the beginning. Everything that Bobby said to him didn’t point to a random re-meet cute, it pointed to Buck, and I’m just gonna hold onto that until the finale at least.

[icanlove2things]

Ok but I still want to know what the reason was for Pepa to say ‘And who is this’ the way she did to Buck in 2x4.

[icanlove2things]

But what if Eddie finally breaks down and tells Buck his fears about being alone and Buck tells him that of course he’s not alone, he has the 118 and Christopher and most importantly, Buck himself. And Eddie says sure, until you get married and start your own family. And that’s when Buck finally realizes that he already has exactly what he’s been looking for. He already has the couch and he already knows the answer, he was just misunderstanding the assignment yet again.

[confessionsdiaz]

Its always a tiny bit funny watching ppl scramble over buddie rn when like?? have you guys been watching the same season i have??? and are thinking we are doomed?? after 6b?? after eddie screaming for buck after the lightning strike after he ran up with no regard for his own safety? the way bobby turned to eddie when it happened and the way he had to physically pull hiim back and force him to drive? the fact eddie literally restarted bucks heart? “do more”? the fact buck went to eddies when he felt overwhelmed by everyone and fell asleep on his couch? which then led to them discussing the shooting? “honestly eddie..i dont know”? . THE POKER DATE??? the buckley diaz scene that was just pure domesticity?? the buck and chris scene in that same ep?? eddie saying dating “feels like he has to perform”? and the whole tia pepa speech?? “WE ALL DIE ALONE/YOU DONT HAVE TO BE ANYTHING FOR ANYBODY? buck saying natalia sees him and eddie looks at him with that expression because EDDIE SEES HIM.” you havent been the same since it happened but how could you be” like right after that line eddie sees him. like the same way he did in 6x12??.

THATS NOT EVEN ALL-

LIKE LISTEN YOU CAN HAVE UR OWN WORRIES BUT SOMETIMES I NEED TO GIGGLE

[icanlove2things]

Ok but what if Buck and Eddie are together when disaster strikes, and there’s a moment when Buck would be safe, but instead he dives after Eddie, which gets them trapped together, mirroring that first call where Buck volunteered to stay with Eddie while he removed the grenade from that guys leg.

The call that set the tone for their whole relationship.

Because they’ve known since the very beginning, when they didn’t even know each other and Buck didn’t even like Eddie, that everything is easier when they’re together.

[icanlove2things]

WAIT. On a fourth rewatch of the cemetery scene, I had a revelation. Buck says Natalia sees more of him than he maybe even sees of himself. We obviously didn’t see any hint of that in their scenes together and Buck has become pretty damn introspective BUT what is he’s still right? She DID see something he doesn’t see, specifically because she doesn’t really know him yet.

She heard him talk about his experience and there had to be times he talked about Eddie and probably Christopher too. SHE SEES HOW HE FEELS ABOUT EDDIE.

Maybe that’s an absurd conclusion to come to but I’m gonna hang onto it anyway because I thought she was cool and I love the idea that she came for a story about death and is now a Buddie truther like the rest of us.

[icanlove2things]

Ok. So after this ep, if Buddie really doesn’t happen then I truly don’t know what’s going on and I will have to conclude that there’s no actual plan and the writers are just doing whatever they want like in the most recent Star Wars trilogy.

That scene with Natalia was just her fetishizing his death. She wanted to know all of the weird, surreal details like it was a movie she was watching, not someone’s actual life and very traumatizing experience. And that’s not necessarily a bad thing, she doesn’t owe Buck anything and it’s literally her job. But it DEFINITELY doesn’t speak to a deeper connection. So then to see him saying to EDDIE of all people that she really SEES him literally read like a joke. Especially since Eddie immediately lets Buck know that he seen that he’s different. And Eddie’s face??? I mean good lord how else are we supposed to interpret that??

The exact parallel of ‘You don’t have to pretend with me’ and ‘You don’t have to be anything for anybody.’

Eddie not wanting to look at Buck when he talks about making the most of his second chance because it sounds like he’s talking about making the most of it with other people.

Them both knowing exactly what the other is saying because THEY’VE BOTH BEEN THROUGH THE SAME THING.

All I’m saying is that if they don’t follow through on all of this SPECIFICALLY with Buddie becoming canon then there is some kind of intense nonsense going on in the 911 writers room and that’s the only explanation.