Hi it’s like 1 am and I’m falling apart and I want so badly to talk to you but I don’t want to bother you. I’m sorry I’m so needy and I text you all the time, you just mean so much to me and I don’t want to let you go again. That was one of the worst mistakes I’ve ever made and I regret it every day. And now here I am crying like a fucking baby thinking about everything we could’ve been and knowing that I’m the one that fucked it up and I wish so badly that I hadn’t. I thought that I might get the chance to fix it now but I think I was wrong and now everything hurts so much more than it did the first time. I can’t open up to anyone else or love anyone else because my heart is still set on you and I know you don’t feel the same and that’s okay because I can’t expect you to but it still hurts so much. Our talks on the phone are my favorite things in life rn and I’m just so scared to let you go, I’m so far gone honestly. Every time I get a notification I find myself hoping it’s you and when it’s not I just feel kind of empty. I worry about you all the time and no matter what I’m doing I always find myself thinking about you. I know I should be falling for this new guy who’s completely set on me, he’s so sweet and it’s obvious that he cares but I just can’t, because you’re there, and I don’t want to let you go... I wish I could let go, forget about my feelings, it would be so much easier than this constant ache like I’m missing a piece of myself when you’re not here, because you never are...












