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icourtneychristine

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relatable quotes?

thestrawberrynight

spending a lot of time in the kitchen, baking bread with herbs, reading old kitchen book and trying new recipe, growing my own vegetables and fruits, having diners with neighbours and friends, and relaxing while taking the bath after the long day

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What’s your favourite kind of tea? 🍃 I hope everyone is well amidst the chaos 🌈

destroymylife

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I hope I ruined places for you.

I hope that there are restaurants and coffee shops and stores and bars that you cannot go to anymore because you’re terrified you’ll run into me, or maybe they are just so full of memories of the time we spent there that you can’t enjoy them anymore.

I hope that when you run into people you haven’t seen for years, they ask you how I am doing.

I hope you cringe as you explain that we’re not together anymore. I hope they ask why and pry for details and make you uncomfortable because you either have to lie or admit that you were wrong.

I hope that you are tormented by songs on the radio that remind you of me.

I hope that they make you feel so uneasy that you have to change the station. I hope that you can’t listen to your favorite band anymore without a twinge of guilt because I bought you their entire discography for Christmas. I hope that you feel terrible whenever the band we were supposed to see together comes to town because you never paid me back for the tickets I bought but couldn’t use because you didn’t request off from work even though I told you months in advance.

I hope that when you look around your room, you see the things I left behind; small little traces of me integrated seamlessly into your life that you can never fully erase.

The spare toothbrush on your nightstand. The hoodie that I used to borrow when I got cold at night. The charger that doesn’t fit your phone. Every gift that I bought you. The sock I lost under your bed. The cards and letters that I sent you.

I hope these things haunt you.

Because I shouldn’t have to be the only one who is devastated.