heart to break

[iddahyun]

gettin’ by ,

[iddahyun]

iddaehan‌:

Dahyun had definitely been a blessing in Daehan’s own introverted life–her exuberance in introducing friends to others having given him a rather great help in expanding his own connections with others as well. “I missed you. Missed doing something like this.” Daehan tilted his head slightly, the words slipping from behind his lips without any consequences. “Thank goodness we both found some time to do something like this together.” He faintly pouted in her direction, a little sliver of his mischievous television personality slipping comfortably through to lighten the tense and odd atmosphere between them. “You should do more variety shows–so that we could see each other more often. I don’t have many people to really talk to, you know that.”

over the years, she had learned how to read daehan. even through his idol persona, she could tell what he was feeling deep down. honestly, he was easier to read than most. she was usually content with letting people be, letting them come to her if they wanted to talk about something troubling them. but there were exceptions to the rule. jiyeon and the rest of her members, of course. daehan too. and especially on a night off like this, she wanted to make sure he was enjoying himself as much as possible. “i don’t care where we are as long as you’re comfortable.” in true dahyun fashion, that was her top priority tonight. she had a habit of putting others above herself. sometimes it paid off and sometimes it took it’s toll on her, sacrificing her own happiness or wants for the benefit of someone else. a blessing and a curse.

she eyed him carefully as he got his new drink, watching for sincerity in his words. “you tell me if you want to leave, okay? we can always do something else. i’m not going to be happy if you aren’t happy, okay?” she narrows her eyes at him but her lips carry a small grin. she’s serious, she wants them both to be able to relax, and she wants him to know that. his touch on her back feels comforting, familiar. they’ve known each other so long that moments like that just come naturally. she’s always been fond of physical touch, in the most platonic of ways. it was just comforting, knowing someone else was that close. she’s surprised when his fingers stop; she’s not always the best at recognizing boundaries when in public. it’s a shock to many that she hasn’t found herself in a scandal of some kind yet. dahyun reaches up and brushes at the general area that daehan had almost touched. “did i get it?” she asks.

a small giggle escapes her lips at his question and she shakes her head. “no, no. clubs are always loud, that’s basically the point of a club. and that’s why i didn’t take you to one. bars can be quieter sometimes, and i thought you’d like a more mellow place better.” maybe she didn’t know him as well as she thought. at least in a louder place with more people, they would be nearly invisible. but it would also prove harder to communicate.

“i missed this too.” her schedule recently didn’t lend her to a lot of free time. aurora had more competition than ever, which meant the company and her manager wanted them to be seen as much as possible. she was grateful for the opportunities being thrown her way and wanted to do the most she could to help her group, but a night off was nice. a night off with a friend she didn’t get to see that often? even better. “i think i have some variety coming up! i forgot what, but i know i’ve got a couple things lined up. hmmm, i should probably figure out what it was and prepare myself.”

[iddahyun]

my old story .

@jueunid ;; an anxious late night cafe visit.

the text dahyun had received from jueun was unexpected but familiar. the girl was nervous, worried about their latest comeback. it was a text dahyun had sent in the past to her sunbaes, seeking out some kind of reassurance or advice. she had only been active in the industry for four years now, but it brought a sort of smile to her face that she was able to pay back the favor now for the younger generation.

it was easy to see how the public pitted aurora and mayday against each other. while the groups were vastly different in her eyes, they still wore the same ‘innocent girl’ titles. the softer side of girl groups. and any similarity brought comparison. for dahyun, at least, she tended to find camaraderie in the midas family. they all had to face the same training, the same demons, the same dungeon. she had only made it out with the help of others and aimed to do the same for those younger than her. so she jumped at the opportunity to help the younger girl.

their meeting location was familiar enough. a local coffee shop that stayed open late, catering to those with unusual schedules like their own. dahyun has only just arrived outside the place when she spots jueun walking up. with a yawn she waves at the girl. “come,” she beckons, linking her arm through the other girl’s and guiding her inside. “you can get whatever you’d like. my treat.” she’s used to paying for others, especially being one of the older ones in her group. and with the amount of personal schedules she had begun to receive the past year or so, she no longer felt worried about what she could afford, especially small things like this.

she gets herself a tea and waits for jueun to order before steering them towards a table in the corner of the cafe. “now what’s wrong? and how can i help?” those words seem to sum dahyun up to a tee. constantly worrying about others, constantly wanting to fix broken things. being the mother she lost too early. it came naturally to her, caring for others.

[iddahyun]

gettin’ by ,

@iddaehan ;; a bar in gangnam.

it had always been important to dahyun to retain some sense of normalcy in this industry. midas, aurora, and being an idol had been her life for so long now, it felt important to force herself to do things normal people did. it helped keep the ever looming anxiety at bay, helped relieve some of the pressures to be perfect. but dahyun wasn’t one to spend that time alone, or any time alone really. being around others brought her strength, and it seemed as time went on, she needed more and more of that.

accompanying her tonight was daehan. he’d been around since her first day of training, always smiling, always comforting. tonight was no different.

it wasn’t easy going out with a member of the opposite sex, even if her intentions were completely innocent. they may have been friends for years now, but the public had a tendency to misconstrue any interactions as something more. that’s why dahyun had opted for a familiar place tonight, a trendy but hidden bar owned by a friend of her family’s. it was the kind of place that attracted those who sought out anonymity and offered a safe place from paparazzi or excited fans. drinking, dancing, it was the exact environment that dahyun liked to unwind in.

but it was obvious that her companion for the night wasn’t as comfortable as she was.

he looked good, but that was nothing new. there was a reason he was considered the ‘nation’s it boy’. but he looked a little... stiff.

“han-nie, would you like another drink?” she asked, sensing that he was a little more tense than she was. she had already started her second round. “it’s okay to relax, you know. no one’s going to know you were here; the owner won’t allow it.” she offered him the most comforting smile she could muster and placed a hand softly on his arm. “or we can go somewhere else if you’d rather?” she wanted to make sure he was enjoying himself as well. dahyun had always been good at finding joy wherever she was, no matter what she was doing. it was in her nature to cater to others, a blessing and a curse. 

[iddahyun]

broken ,

@idjaeyoon​ ;; detail your character recording a minor cf appearance.

she knows what people say. dahyun’s heard the comments from friends outside of the industry, and even from some in it. she’s seen the comments that the fans leave. they tell her she’s lucky she’s so pretty, and while she’s never been very subconscious about her looks, she’s not sure if she believes them.

the shoot is an easy one.

this is far from the first independent shoot of the year for her. it seems every season, midas has scheduled her more and more to do. a photoshoot here, an appearance at some event there, a variety appearance, etc. there’s rarely a moment of rest, but she thinks she prefers it that way. dahyun has always taken advantage of distractions. people assumed that now her life was seemingly perfect. but there are always monsters and memories lurking around the corner, ready to tear down the facade she’s built for herself.

a shoot like this is an escape from all that. it’s mindless work, it’s fun. she gets a chance to do something she’s always been a natural at: smiling. the girl is rarely caught without a smile, though it seems to falter when she spots who her co-model will be for this shoot.

they’ve finally finished her hair and make-up when her eyes meet his. he’s dressed in an outfit similar to her own, matching stripes and all. someone higher up does an introduction of some sort but it’s all a blur to dahyun. she hasn’t been this close to him in years. sure, they’ve seen each other in passing at various music shows, but that’s no more than a ‘congratulations’. and it’s easy to tune jaeyoon out when there are other’s around she’s more friendly with.

don’t they say that your past always catches up with you?

they’re left alone for a bit before the shoot actually starts and part of dahyun considers just not saying anything. she’s not a confrontational person, but if an opportunity ever called for it, this would be it. what would the others tell her to do? would jiyeon encourage her to stand up for herself? probably. she’s prone to letting others walk over her that maybe now is the chance to change that.

“jaeyoon.”

well, saying something is a start she supposes.

there needs to be more. be strong, she tells herself.

“you should be good at this shoot. you’ve pretended to be interested in me very convincingly before.”

and once it’s out of her mouth, she can’t believe she’s said it. 

[iddahyun]

i’m so excited to get going again with all these changes. yay!!! so hi, it’s jay and here’s dahyun reintroduced (main dance, lead vocal of aurora). not much about her has changed at all, really i just aged her up a couple years, so don’t worry folks. BUT a lot of her plots disappeared so it’s time for new things and new relationships and everything in between! the easiest way to contact me is on discord (jaylee#9782) but i’ll happily answer messages from anyone on here too. let’s get this started! woo! here’s plots and profile.

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[iddahyun]

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[iddahyun]

i’m so excited to get going again with all these changes. yay!!! so hi, it’s jay and here’s dahyun reintroduced (main dance, lead vocal of aurora). not much about her has changed at all, really i just aged her up a couple years, so don’t worry folks. BUT a lot of her plots disappeared so it’s time for new things and new relationships and everything in between! the easiest way to contact me is on discord (jaylee#9782) but i’ll happily answer messages from anyone on here too. let’s get this started! woo! here’s plots and profile.

- born in 91, she’s the youngest of five kids (she has all older brothers). - grew up in busan, she loves the water. is drawn to it. - also vERY family oriented. - when she was eight, her mom was diagnosed with breast cancer and eight months later passed away. - it was super devastating to the family, her dad grew distant for a time but it definitely pushed her closer to her brothers. - she’s basically been taking ballet and contemporary dance since she was three and she’s hella passionate about dance. and like pretty good. - uses that as her escape from sadness and all. - joined midas at 14. trained for 8 years before debuting (aka johnny seo from nct). - honestly her idol persona and her in real life aren’t that different? - people see her on screen and think it muse be an act. - she can’t really be that nice and that sort of dumb? - no, she is. she really is. - the best way to describe her is a cloudcuckoolander. - “90% of the time you think she’s plain nuts, the other 10% you think she might just be a genius.” - she’s very dense and takes everything people say seriously. - she’s generally honest but one thing she’ll always be is kind. - she’s selfless to a fault. a huge fault. let’s people take advantage of her all the time. - relationships are a big no-no for her. she’s been used and treated like crap before and it’s kind of scarred her. - she’s definitely more into hook-ups and fwb than commitment at the moment. - dahyun will be anyone’s friend and care about everyone and give her everything to anyone. - pls be her friend but also take advantage of her i love hurt.

[iddahyun]

odd ,

@idminyoung ;; aurora 4th anniversary ‘birthday party’.

sitting here, in front of fans, situated between minyoung and jiyeon, dahyun felt content. aurora had always been a safe place for her. even after the loss of a member (and the gain of a new one), she found that sense of security. most who knew her thought that she was this happy all the time. that the smiles, the laughter, it was just who she was. and in a sense, it was. but no one was without their demons, dahyun included. it was in the quiet moments that the darkness crept up on her, memories from her past flooding her brain, making her doubt who she was ans what she was doing here. so it was the big moments like this, loud and full of loved ones, that she enjoyed most.

both the group and fans knew that dahyun loved performing. whether it was on stage or on a variety show, she loved making others smile. but events like this were her favorite. they felt more intimate and personal, and as cliche as it sounded, she loved creating memories with their fans. during concerts, she didn’t get to joke around and goof off as much as she did during this fan events. at an given moment she could be found with her arms around one of the other members, head resting against them, a fond look on her face. because she was fond of aurora and all they had accomplished. but mostly she was thankful to them for giving her a family away from family.

they had found their rhythm at this point, greeting the fans, taking pictures, signing autographs, making small talk. she was sporting an intricate flower crown one of the fans had made her, composed of her favorite flowers and colors. the girl she had been talking to thanked her and moved on to jiyeon as dahyun waited with a smile on her face to greet the one talking excitedly to minyoung. as they bid their goodbyes, dahyun already had her “hello!” waiting, eyes trained on the younger girl, but to her surprise she didn’t stop at dahyun. didn’t even spare her a glance, just rolled her eyes and continued to walk. she was left speechless, unsure of how to respond to the incident. there was no way to misconstrue what had happened: the girl simply was not interested in meeting dahyun. it was almost as if she was making a statement, purposefully skipping over her, not even bothering a hi and goodbye.

floundering for words (a rarity to dahyun) she turned to minyoung for guidance, a confused and hurt look on her face.

[iddahyun]

eternal sunshine .

[iddahyun]

idminsoo‌:

“all this talk about food is making me hungry. do you want to stop by a cafe over there?” he points at a row of restaurants that line the streets, all with open seating and waiters with trays dipping in and out of the building. 

an easy laugh escaped dahyun’s lips. “but your bare face is so nice!” she reached over to tap minsoo’s cheek. “the rest of the world should get to see it more often.” but she understands the need for anonymity. the expectations society puts on them is unrealistic. can’t be seen with members of the opposite sex, shouldn’t be drinking alcohol or found out at a club dancing all night. things that normal people their age did, they weren’t allowed to do. it promoted a ‘bad image’ (when really it only showed a realistic image of a twenty-something year old living in a big city). they all broke the rules imposed on them; some were just better at keeping it a secret than others.

her eyes widened at the fantasy minsoo built on as they walked. “i’ve never been to italy. it all sounds lovely. i don’t think i’d get sick of it at all, actually. if it’s good, at least.” maybe it’s cliche, but with all this structure in her life she craves adventure. dahyun’s always been one to take on extra schedules; a photoshoot here, a guest appearance on a variety show there. she doesn’t mind the fact that her calendar seems too full to function. anything to help the group, and anything to keep her busy. it makes it easier to ignore the demons in her mind. the ones that try and convince her she doesn’t deserve any of this. but a trip with a good friend to a place she’s never been before sounds like the exact distraction she craves.

she laughed again, this time at the idea of her on a cooking show. “they’d only invite me to be apart of it if they were trying to burn the restaurant down.” it’s true, she’s never been one to shine in the kitchen. as the youngest of five, she’s never had to do much in the cooking department. “maybe they have an eating show we can both be on. some eat around the world kind of thing. i think we’d make excellent cast members.” for such a small girl, she broke her diet more than she would admit to her manager.

at his suggestion, she squeezes his arm and gasps. “yes! i’ll always say yes to food, you should know that by now.” they veer in the direction of the restaurants and slow their pace, giving dahyun time to look over each. “now the real difficulty will be choosing the best one. which smells the best?”

[iddahyun]

eternal sunshine .

@idminsoo ;; street markets of chile.

it’s rare now-a-days that dahyun truly feels an sense of freedom. her life has been signed away to midas for over a decade at this point, and as far as she sees it, that’s not ending any time soon. they tell her how to cut her hair, what to wear, what to say, how to act. her schedule is busy, with constant practices, photoshoots, and any kind of promotion she can get. she’s not complaining, oh no. dahyun likes her life. maybe it’s not exactly what she had expected, but she got to do what she loved. dancing. and making people happy. the cliche of ‘the fans made it all worth it’ rang true.

but today, free is exactly how she feels.

she’s escaped for the afternoon. or rather, they’ve escaped. she wasn’t alone on her adventure today; it was something she had been messaging minsoo about since they found out about the concert abroad. it took a little sneaking, a little planning, but both managed to break away from their groups for a few hours to explore the city unsupervised. her manager wouldn’t be happy, and dahyun was no doubt expecting a lecture when she returned. something about how she could have gotten caught out with a boy, and how aurora doesn’t need anymore bad press. hurting her group is the last thing she’d ever want to do, but rules are made to be broken. and her relationship with minsoo is one-hundred percent innocent.

“it’s sorta thrilling to get away like this,” she tells her partner in crime, linking her arm through his as they walk down the streets. “we couldn’t do this back home. we’d definitely be recognized. but i don’t even have to wear a mask here!” quite the contrary, she used this chance to dress in rich colors; reds and oranges and yellows. even tied her hair back with a red head scarf instead of the black baseball cap she’d don to help keep her identity a secret.

“it almost feels like we’re on vacation.” she gasped, as if she’d had a brilliant idea. “we should go on vacation together! just the two of us, somewhere private with a beach. or a mountain. or something, i don’t know. you deserve it. i deserve it. honestly, everyone i know deserves it but mainly us.” 

[iyeolie]

miss precious princess 🎀💫

[iddahyun]

we can take it slow .

@idjunseo ;; behind the scenes of dancing9.

she knows she’s lucky. dahyun is one of the few girls chosen to be apart of this show, and the only female on the red team. she’s still shocked, honestly. of course, she’s confident in her abilities. dancing is in her blood, it’s something she’s been doing for as long as she can remember. it’s the entire reason she got into the idol business. and while she’s used to being around other dancers, she’s not used to being around people with a passion for dance that mirrors hers. or a long built skillset that matches her own. but it seems that’s exactly what the red team is built of: passion.

no one in their group is new to her. two she knows from her trainee days (it seems the midas dancers all got stuck together) and the others have been around long enough for her to interact with on multiple occasions. in her opinion, they’re the most skilled. but that doesn’t necessarily mean they’ll win. the egos are present; everyone wants to lead, everyone wants to shine. teamwork doesn’t seem to come easily to the red team, and after an exchange of heated words, everyone decides a little break is best.

despite knowing everyone in the group, there’s only one person she feels truly comfortable around. dahyun has always been friendly, personable, but that didn’t mean she was without her preferences. it’s an easy decision to grab her water bottle and follow junseo into a separate practice room than the one they’ve been utilizing. maybe the others are suspicious, or maybe the expect it. he was caught in a scandal with her groupmate and best friend not long ago. she doesn’t care; she’s always been good at ignoring rumors. though if you asked her manager, it wasn’t the best trait.

“what do you think so far? of the dance? the song choice?” they’re off camera now which allows for a few moments of honesty. “i like the choreography so far. but i’m not used to all this.” she waved her hands wildly in the air, as if that would explain what she was talking to. “all this tension i guess. i thought i left it behind when i debuted. even with hit the stage, we worked on our stuff on our own and then performed. it’s been a while since i had to compete for my parts.” she doesn’t like it, but she wants her moment in the spotlight, just like everyone else. but unlike everyone else, she’d rather them win, even if it meant she was in the background.

[oldidhaeyeon]

feel like home.

[iddahyun]

idhaeyeon‌:

with her solo promotions done and jinx not having any major schedules, it feels like a good time to reconnect with her old friend. haeyeon has been laying in bed all day, a magical day off giving her some much needed relaxation, and she slides her phone open to call her friend. “hey dahyun,” she starts off casually, sliding into conversation easily with someone who is as close to her as dahyun is. “i was hoping maybe you had some free time tonight to catch up on some much needed friend time.” haeyeon smiled into the phone. “wanna meet up for some dinner later tonight?”

for as long as she or anyone else in her family can remember, dahyun has been an extrovert. her strength comes from time spent around others, especially those she knows she can trust and be herself around, without any judgement. even though she was an inherently trusting person, more and more she was learning that many people in this industry wanted one thing only: fame. and half the time they only wanted you around if you could help push them higher. she considered herself lucky to find the exceptions: jiyeon, the rest of the aurora girls, sophia, and haeyeon to name a few.

so when haeyeon calls her to ask to get dinner, she’s more than happy to say yes. sure, she’s a little tired from an early workout and a long day of vocal lessons, but she doesn’t get many opportunities to spend time with the older girl. it seems that’s the case with most of her friends outside of her group. both having separate busy schedules made it hard to coordinate so she found herself taking advantage of the ones that came along.

of course, there’s another reality that could have been. one where she wasn’t cut from the jinx lineup. one where she debuted at an appropriate time to debut instead of later than most. where her family was haeyeon and ryan and the other girls in the group, instead of feeling a sense of ‘what if’ and slight resentment when she sees their success. she knows she should be passed it by now, aurora works well for her. maybe it’s not the concept she wanted or thought she’d end up with, but they’re successful and she loves the girls she’s with. she wouldn’t trade them for the world. but at times she still wonders what her life would be like.

dahyun pushes all negative thoughts aside as she spots haeyeon outside the restaurant they agreed to meet at. “unnie!” she exclaims, pulling the girl into a tight hug. it’s not often that she gets to use that term; she’s usually the older one in the situation. “i’m happy we got to do this! i missed you! and it’s nice to go out without having to worry.” with her guy friends, they can’t go out like this, in public, without worrying. everything is a scandal waiting to happen.

[iddahyun]

his ocean .

solo prompt ;; detail the one time you wanted to quit.

"i’m not letting you leave.”

dahyun flipped onto her side to face minjae, a small smile on her lips. she was used to this sentiment from him. used to the possessiveness, the selfishness. but he was a master at weaving affection into the littlest of the moments, so that dahyun didn’t quite mind. she actually found it endearing that someone cared enough to keep her around. so she laugh and touched his cheek softly.

“you’re going to have to. i have to go to practice.”

life as a trainee wasn’t what she had expected. she got to dance, and that had always been her main priority. she knew it was going to be hard, and she was happy to put in the work. she’d bettered herself over the years, worked on her singing, perfected her dancing. a young, naive dahyun thought that that was all it would take. hard work always paid off, right?

no.

it wasn’t until she was cut from the jinx lineup that she learned about the politics of it all. being pretty and talented wasn’t enough. it seemed that no matter how hard she worked, she was stuck in the same place. stuck underground, constantly passed up for people that were younger than her, sexier than her, richer than her.

with a quick kiss pressed to minjae’s lips, she slid out of bed and began the familiar quest to find her discarded clothes. he was one of the first people to really see something in her. a photographer regularly contracted by midas, he picked her out of a sea of trainees and turned her into his muse and soon after his girlfriend. she wasn’t used to such concentrated attention and admiration. she wasn’t used to being someone’s first pick.

piece by piece, she found her articles of clothing and slid them on, lost in her own thoughts until minjae spoke up again. “i don’t know why you keep going back. you know you could just come live with me. i make more than enough to support us both.” she pauses at this comment. it’s something he’s hinted at before, but never flat out said to her. dahyun’s not sure what to say; being a stay at home wife isn’t something she dreamed off. and ever since she was a little girl, she was full of fantastic dreams that her parents had convinced her would come true if she just believed in herself and gave it her all. had they lied to her to make her feel better? was that just something parents told kids?

she stays quiet as she makes her way over to the mirror over his dresser. she runs her fingers through her hair, trying to get it to behave and before she knows it, minjae is behind her, brushing her hair for her. “just imagine, starting a life together. just you and me. you wouldn’t have to worry about practicing or dancing or competing against anyone else. we could go where we wanted when we wanted.” he’s practically whispering in her ear now, and even though she knows it’s a fantasy for him, she’s having a tough time receiving it as that. “it’s been seven years, dahyun. if they were going to use you, don’t you think you would have debuted by now?”

oh. she hadn’t expected that. it was an insensitive kind of honesty that she didn’t witness often from her. but she’d be lying if she said those kinds of thoughts hadn’t plagued her for the past couple of years. she closed her eyes for a moment, trying to clear her head of the negatives. every day that task seemed to get more and more difficult. she plastered on a soft smile, the type of smile people expected from her on a daily basis, before turning back to minjae.

“i have to try. at least just for today.”

[idxnoah-blog]

v for valentine.

[iddahyun]

idxnoah‌:

     “you remembered,” he chuckles, touched. “thank you. i really like it.” smoothing palms across the fabric, he abandons the black sweater he wears to pull on the blazing hoodie. reminds him of the sun. of gold coast. of dahyun. smells like her, too. “and a coincidence, but i have something for you, too. nothing special.” next to him, he takes a gift bag he bought from a hobby shop and slides it across the table. inside her tim-tams for her members and a mustard yellow knitted scarf for her. 

she knows what they call him. imperial’s ‘ice prince’. the title never made much sense to dahyun. ever since the moment they had officially met, noah’s lips pressed surprisingly against hers, she’s found him anything but icy. that night he’d sparked something inside of her, some kind of small flame that had yet to be extinguished. no, he wasn’t cold at all. he was rather warm, actually.

 his hand is reaching towards her now and she leans towards his touch on her forehead, a little grin on her face. “i’m perfectly healthy. never been better.” maybe the last bit is an exaggeration, but it’s how she feels around him. he sees her at her best, if only because he brings out the best in her. around noah, she’s found it’s easy to be herself. there’s no need to hide any aspect of her; she doesn’t think she’s ignorant for being so optimistic or dumb or that she talks to much. he looks at her like what she has to say matters. so maybe it does.

her grin doesn’t disappear as he trades his own hoodie for the gift she got him, a small gasp escaping her lips once it’s on. “you remind me of the sun,” she tells him, hoping he knows she means it in the best way. maybe that’s what he is to her. not an ice prince, but the sun. bright, warm, comforting. he leaves her wishing she could bask in his rays all day. it’s something she won’t admit to herself, but not something she’s willing to give up just yet.

“for me?” she’s shocked that he got her a present; she’s used to being the one to give. she likes giving presents, and she doesn’t expect anything in return. but it is nice to be thought of once in a while. the first thing she pulls out is the scarf, in his favorite color. even though they’re inside, she wraps it around her neck. “does it suit me? i think i’ll wear it all day now.” and tomorrow. and the next day. and jiyeon will tease her and ask her where she got it from and why she won’t take it off, but she won’t tell.

the cookies bring out a laugh as she holds them up. “tim tams! so they are real, not just some silly australian word you made up?” she puts them back in the bag and places it on the ground next to her. “thank you. the girls are going to love them.”

[idxnoah-blog]

v for valentine.

[iddahyun]

idxnoah‌:

“thanks for coming with me even though this is last minute, and your manager might kill you.” his voice is normally flat, detached as he goes over the menu a few times and only one page catches his eyes or rather triggers his stomach to growl. he tries to speak lightheartedly but has trouble emoting and what not. so he won’t say he misses her presence even if it’s on the tip of his tongue and a throb in his chest; noah abandons it and gulps. “there seems to be a special today? meal for two? should we try it?” 

the days practically blur together for dahyun at this point. between aurora’s promotions, filming for dancing9, and her other individual schedules, she just does whatever her manager tells her she’s doing that day without concern for what day it actually is. while she tries her best, she just doesn’t feel all too present in her schedules. she’s always been a workaholic, but she knows when to have fun too.

so, when noah texts her to get brunch, she jumps at the opportunity. she claims it’s because she needs a break, and she’d be just as happy if anyone asked her to brunch, but jiyeon gives her a look like she knows what dahyun is feeling. that noah adds a little something special to the idea of brunch. it’s not hard to get the girls to cover for her; they’re used to it by now, and they know she’d do the same for them. in a classic idol disguise look, her hair is tied back in a ponytail and a black face mask is over her mouth and nose. there’s enough talk about aurora right now, especially after the leaked info from the party came out and she was seen with seokyung. no need to get them all in any more trouble.

it takes her no time to find the right place. somewhere trendy, but not new enough that it would be crowded with other people who would jump at the chance to report two idols out together. he’s already there when she arrives and it gives her a moment to study him. he has his glasses on; she likes his glasses. and dark circles, she doesn’t mind those either. in a world that focuses on hiding imperfections, she takes satisfaction in the idea that he trusts her with the less than perfect version of himself.

“i think my manager is always on the verge of killing me,” she half laughs. “but they told him i had a fever last night and that i’m sleeping it off and going to the gym later on my own.” who knows if her manager believed that at this point. with how much she and jiyeon snuck out, part of her thought he had to know when one of them was lying.

“well there are two of us and i am hungry so i say yes. let’s try it.” she’d never been a picky eater anyways.

“oh!” she had nearly forgotten about the extra bag she had brought with her. “i got you something.” she hands over the shopping bag, the contents a yellow hoody. “i saw it and it reminded me of you.” his favorite color of course, and she thought he ought to own more clothes in his favorite color.

[idsophia]

jamais vu.

[iddahyun]

idsophia‌:

sophia could get used to this. to her. “must’ve been a long night, huh.” shaking her head, she bites back the smile threatening to split her face from ear to ear and sinks onto the couch next to dahyun and nods. “mm, a cup sounds nice. if you’ve made it with tea leaves, i’ll love you forever. only really here to mooch off the good stuff.” cheeky, she squints at dahyun and cups her face in her hands. the very picture of up-to-no-good. “if there are any cookies in the cupboards, i’ll like to have some too, if you’d please.”

dahyun has never been one to enjoy or seek out alone time. even at night like this, when she can’t sleep, it’s nice to have company. sophia isn’t what she expected. despite trying to be quiet, part of her had hoped noah would wake up and join her. he’d wrap his arms around her, maybe kiss her again, and talk to her until she was ready to go back to bed. they weren’t anything serious, but there was still something different about him. the way he seemed actually interested in the things she had to say, he never made her feel stupid or insecure. quite the opposite, actually.

but sophia? she was a welcome replacement. it was impossible not to know each other on some level when you were in this industry, but she had always been drawn to the younger girl. they had a similar warmth to them, and she rarely found anyone who seemed to care about people the way she did. it was refreshing to have someone else who understood her.

“i was at the gym and then vocal lessons all day and had hoped that being here-” being with him, “would help me sleep.” dahyun liked to keep busy. she took any schedule they offered, accepted any invitation to hang out or hook up. as long as it kept her mind occupied, she was happy. it was easier to stay positive this way, because she didn’t have tim to dwell on the negative. not that she had a lot to complain about right now; aurora was doing well and the company had been talking to her about a potential solo. her family was happy and healthy and so were her friends. but depression didn’t care about things like that. it was easier to keep it at bay if there wasn’t a moment alone with her thoughts.

“of course! some company sent him some really nice gift basket with a lot of loose-leaf tea, so i figured someone has to drink it.” her grin matches sophia’s before she jumps up from the couch, unintentionally on cue with the tea kettle going off. “cookies! got it!” her tones were hushed in hopes of not waking noah, but the excitement was evident in her expression and tone. she makes herself busy in the attached kitchen, grabbing mugs and pouring the tea before rummaging through the cupboards for sophia’s request. “aha!” she nearly shouts, excited at her victory before returning to the couch with their bounty.

“tea and cookies for you, miss,” she says as she hands a mug to sophia and puts the cookies down between them.

dahyun takes a small sip of her tea and lets the warmth spread through her before speaking up again. “what about you? long night too?”

[idminsoo-blog]

oh you, oasis.

[iddahyun]

idminsoo‌:

“if it had been any longer, i would have forgotten what you looked like.” he walks over to her, expression soft and open. although they kept in touch through phone, their schedules prevented them from meeting often. too busy being shuttled to their respective appointments and rehearsals, sometimes the venues would overlap, but there was always a photo-shoot in 30 minutes… a sound check in 15.  

“how have you been?” 

at this kind of party, dahyun tends to run on her own kind of auto-pilot. she meets new people, says hello to those she already knew, and makes small talk with anyone who wants to engage. she may not be as popular as some of the people surrounding her, the ones who seem to be in the business of fame. but she is from midas, and that comes with it’s own set of fans and standards. so maybe it wasn’t the best idea to mix things up tonight. maybe she shouldn’t have had as much alcohol as she did.

it was too late to change her mind and too early for regrets at this point.

she thinks that the rooftop garden might be a good idea. a little fresh air was the perfect way to sober up. at one of her groupmates’ insistence, she has a glass of water in her hand that she’s sipping on slowly. somewhere in the background, she hears her name, but she thinks it must be in her head. she turns in the direction of the voice regardless, and it takes her a moment to focus on the source.

minsoo is there, smiling in the most familiar of ways. it warms dahyun more than any of the alcohol she’s had all night could. he’s always a welcome face. there was no shortage of friends in her life, but there seemed to be few who really understood her, who had seen all sides of her. she hadn’t always been so good at putting up a strong front, and minsoo had seen that weakness in her. their days training together were fond memories, despite the pressure and the stress.

“minsoo!” she practically jumps onto him as she engulfs the boy in a hug. “i obviously need to send you some photocards of me so you never forget.” it’s a joke, of course. anyone who knows her well knows that she isn’t that full of herself. quite the opposite, actually. “i’ve been good.”

it’s an automatic response. she’s been taught to stay positive no matter what. and sometimes she forgets that there are people that don’t expect her to be the mindless happy pill. he’s one of those people.

“actually i’ve been busy. and tired.” a small laugh escapes her lips. she missed him. “how about you? i think i see your face more and more as the days go on, but i never get to see you, you know. i miss you.”