she was a sad story, told twice over.

sometimes quiet is violent i find it hard to hide it my pride is no longer inside it's on my sleeve my skin will scream reminding me of who i killed inside my dream i hate this car that I'm driving

[idfc-blake]

blue ↬ blake

blue: "just kill it"

blue: me

blake: it's on you fam i can't help

[idfc-blake]

Logan got up and shut the door, making sure no camera guys would come in or anyone would over hear their conversation. “Sorry to bother you, but I just need someone to talk to about something and I can’t talk to any of my close friends about it.” He started pacing feeling a bit nervous. Logan hadn’t even come out to his parents yet, this was a big deal, but he felt like he could trust Blakelynn enough with the secret to tell her. And at the same time it would be easier to tell her because she was someone who just came into his life. “I’m just having a hard time lately being honest with myself and the people around me,” he began biting his lip nervously. “I don’t know how this is supposed to go exactly because I’ve never told anyone this, but I’m.. gay” he spoke at a lower volume when he said the word he’d been so afraid of admitting. 

Blake sat comfortably on the bed watching as he stood up and went off to close the door. Her brows knit in confusion but she didn’t say much. “Oh yeah that’s fine you can tell me anything.” She assured him as she waited patiently. The girl didn’t want to rush him because she could tell this was something important and he would need to to get it out. “I think you have to be honest with yourself and then work around to being able to tell others whatever it is.” She nodded her head and listed to him, his words almost inaudible. “Wow, okay. Do you want me to help you with coming out or did you just wanna talk?” She questioned in a soft voice and stood up, offering a small smile and wrapping her arms around him to assure him she wasn’t judging him. “I don’t know what to say, nobody’s ever come out to me but i support you and i don’t think of you any different an you can talk to me anytime you need to.”

[idfc-blake]

“hey, you, can you hand me that?” cayden asks as he waltzes into the kitchen shirtless. being a model, he never minds being a bit naked in front of other people, especially if it was just an absence of a shirt. “the water bottle. it’s fucking cold outside, but it feels like the congo in this damn house.” he groaned, holding his hand out for the water.

“Yeah sure here you go.” she tossed him the bottle and eyed his body, not from a sexual stance but more from an admiring stand point. “Can i draw you?” She question running her fingers through her hair. “did you try taking a cool shower? it might help you get less warm.”

[idfc-blake]

Logan always felt like he had this second being with him at all times, his dark passenger so to speak. He never told anyone that he was into guys. He wouldn’t dare. It just was something that was out of the question for him. He knew there were celebrities out there who were gay as well, even his mate Kenny has admitted to being pansexual, but he just doesn’t want that to be the main focus. Logan never wanted to come out because it wouldn’t be about his music anymore, they would just call him ‘the gay boy’ or something along those lines.

There was a girl in the house who he seemed to immediately get on with and since he posed for her art he figured she’d owe him one. Logan sent a text message to Blake asking if they could meet up, he just needed someone to talk to and she seemed like a good option. @idfc-blake

Blakelynn wasn’t by any means close with Logan and she was actually kind of surprised at the text message she received from the boy but she didn’t have anything better to do at the moment. The girl made her way down to his room and texted him back on the way telling him that she was on the way down. She entered the room and took a seat on the end of his bed, running her fingers through her light hair. 

“Hey, what’s up?” The girl questioned with a smile as she placed her legs in a criss cross fashion, waiting for him to offer some type of response to her. “Did you wanna talk or something?”

[idfc-blake]

[tannxrhall]:

“I can model if you want. It doesn’t bother me, love. “ Tanner smiled as he turned his head a bit back in the position she had him in.

“Alright do your sexy modelling thing and i’ll tell you which pose is best.”

[idfc-blake]

[fckinlorena]:

“I’d buy the magazine if you were on the cover in a heartbeat. All you have to do is sit on the window sill. We’ll keep the conversation going and I’m going to take some off guards.”

“at least now i know who to send my nudes to when i need comments and esteem boosts. alright i can do that. Is this okay or does it look to not off guard?”

[wandaism-deactivated20190311]

[idfc-blake]

let’s do s o m e t h i n g fun.

[about-cara]

[idfc-blake]

[fckinlorena]:

“Getting to do a playboy shoot would be a dream, but my mother would murder me. You do have the body for it though. Don’t worry, it’s simple and not revealing at all.”

“I could so be a playboy model if i put my mind to it. Alright just let me know what to do and do your magic.”

[idfc-blake]

[rxbbieee]:

Robbie stood still so that she could get the picture she wanted and smiled a little, “You’re welcome.”

“You’re like the best. i’ll give you a copy when i’m done.”

[idfc-blake]

[tannxrhall]:

“Well do what you please. I’m a model so this is normal for me…”

“Alright, do you wanna live model or would you prefer me to take a picture?”

[idfc-blake]

“uh… okay. i’ve never been sketched or painted before. is that what you’re here for? artsy fartsy stuff? i wish i had that type of talent.”

“Oh yes yes, very artsy fartsy. that’s the professional term we like to use.”

[idfc-blake]

[fckinlorena]:

“How about we strike up a little deal? You can paint or sketch me all you want, however you want, if I can use you to be a figure in a photo that I’m currently envisioning. Of course mine would be much quicker, so whatever happens first is your choice.”

“I think that is a very fair deal on both ends. As long as you’re not trying to trick me in to posing for a playboy magazine or something crazy like that?”

[idfc-blake]

“Oh okay!” Logan smiled widely, “People make fan art of me sometimes and I think it’s super awesome. And I’m sure you’re just as talented, if not more talented than them.” 

“i’ll try and make it as nice as your fan art but no promises.” She teased and kissed his shoulder gently.

[idfc-blake]

[vinnie-williams]:

Thanks, this isn’t my normal work though…

“It looks good though. I’m sure whatever you do normally will be just as great.”

[idfc-blake]

“Sure, but when you’re done, can I get a copy of the painting or sketch?”

“Yeah of course, i’ll make a copy for me and you can keep the original.”

[idfc-blake]

[vinnie-williams]:

You can still say what you wanna say i don’t mind. 

“No no. It’s really good. I was just saying maybe blend your shading up a little but i changed my mind when i saw the full thing, it looks amazing like that.”