hello

I'm weird. welcome.

[deancasbabyy]

since it’s midnight here already, happy november 5th, can’t believe it’s already been 5 years

[ididntmeanforthistohappen]

happy 15 years since castiel raised dean winchester from perdition :)

[ididntmeanforthistohappen]

hey ik haven't touched this app in a while but it's destiel's 1 year anniversary of becoming canon and not a chance in hell I could forget it

I miss them :[

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NO BUT YOUNG DEAN FANBOYING OVER JAMES DEAN AND BEING OVERLY HAPPY ABOUT THE FACT THAT HIS OWN NAME IS DEAN BECAUSE ITS THE SAME AS JAMES DEAN'S LAST NAME

[ididntmeanforthistohappen]

so dean didn't think cas could love him in the same way bc he was angel. we all know this.

but what if that's why dean wanted to be with cas so bad when he became human in s9 {"nobody wants him here more than I do," literally every time dean looks at cas in 9x06} - not only to protect him, but bc at that point cas was human, and dean knew for a fact that he could experience human emotions. such as being in love.

maybe dean thought cas could reciprocate his feelings bc he was finally human, and was finally seeing dean from a perspective of human emotions (which are canonically and obviously stronger than angel emotions)

[ididntmeanforthistohappen]

does your mind ever just

✨deancas✨

and then you start crying profusely, or are you normal?

[ididntmeanforthistohappen]

"Claire Novak – when she smiled at me? Nothing, no- no angelic crusade or victor's bounty... none of that could ever hold a candle to that sweet, crooked smile."

- Castiel 10x23 Brother's Keeper deleted scene

It's the way cas says "crooked." He is explicitly pointing out that her smile is imperfect. But he says it in a way that emphasizes the beauty in that imperfection.

Cas truly loves humanity, imperfections and all.

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"but everyone you know, everyone you love- they could be long dead. everyone except me"

cas really said I'll never leave you. I'll spend eternity by your side, no matter what. and I just think that's beautiful.

[ididntmeanforthistohappen]

happy birthday dean winchester

you deserved better.

i miss you. i love you forever.

[ididntmeanforthistohappen]

wait, in 14x14 after finding out the gorgon can only see dean, dean suggests maybe cas isn't his type. implying that dean is his type.

wasn't the gorgon's type gay/queer guys?

[ididntmeanforthistohappen]

don't imagine dean drinking heavily after cas died. him always being drunk bc he blames himself for cas's death. him saying "for cas" every time he opens another bottle. him drunkenly praying to cas, telling him how he loves him back. and how he hates himself for not being able to save him.

and don't imagine cas listening from heaven. watching over dean like his guardian angel. whispering to dean every night when he's passed out that he deserves to live. telling him he loves him in the dreams he always puts in dean's head.

don't imagine it

[ididntmeanforthistohappen]

i will never think of anything else when watching the scene of dean's eyes when he's in hell (in the very beginning of 4x01) after reading about how the flashes of light are probably castiel fighting his way to dean.

[ididntmeanforthistohappen]

when dean says "now you might be able to forget about that, but I can't!" - referring to cas's death - he's literally saying that cas's death is haunting him. he's saying that he can't stop thinking about it. dean watched cas die right in front of him, and he's just constantly replaying that in his mind. he can't forget. he's always thinking about it bc he can't stop feeling cas's absence. it keeps him up at night. he tries to distract himself, take his mind off it, but everything he does is just a constant reminder that something is missing. that cas is missing. that he's missing cas.

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yk what would've been a great scene? if dean (slightly unconscious or paralyzed or something) is for some reason being dragged down into like a deep body of water and then cas dives in with no hesitation and immediately pulls dean out (cas is like bear hugging dean from behind) and it's just an amazing underwater parallel to cas gripping dean tight and raising him from hell

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SOMEONE ASK JENSEN AND MISHA IF THEY KNOW THAT THEY'RE DEAD IN THE LAST OF US 2

[ididntmeanforthistohappen]

i am convinced jensen ackles only knows how to wink with his left eye

but damn if it isn't hot af

[ididntmeanforthistohappen]

ok do you also hear the name "jonathan cherry" and immediately think of the 13x06 deancas reunion hug or are you normal?