Mayo’s ill diary !

Kukuku…

[idinee]

!! warning: this is mostly a vent acc soo tw for talks about suicide, suicidal ideation, eating disorders, self harm, past rape and sexual assault and all that “no good” stuff.. BLOCK DONT REPORT ty <3

mayo ; 20 ; they / them

jirai ; vent acc ; diary ?? of some sort . come see me loose ma mind .yay

asd ; adhd ; mdd ; bulimia (diagnosed) ; fdis ; dpd (suspected by professionals)

byf: anti-censorship ; donot care bout proshippers / darkshippers etc ; donot have a dni. I block freely ; would greatly appreciate tonetags.. !

[idinee]

happy to! Would you mind if I have an anon tag? Completely up to you what it is!

oho ? so im free to assign u whtever i think suits u most hmmm.. oki…

ill tag u.. “🦢” .mhm. yes… bc swans r one of my fave animals !

[angelfies]

do u have a fav show ? :0

hmmm .. i like criminal minds alot and always have . unfortunately am one of those basic asshats who obsess over matthew gray gubler . i have a banner of him covered in kisses and a shirt of spencer reid ….

[idinee]

ooooh ive heard a loot bout it.. i should watch some of it smetime.. !

[idinee]

very very afraid of what mama will force me to eat from now on.. dont wanna get force fed again… bleh

[jiraibu]

throws upall oferthe floor .oospie

[idinee]

I know enough about you to know you deserve much more than you are given. And don’t worry. No one is pressuring you to just immediately believe in yourself. That takes time. I would love to continue telling you how much love you deserve though! Would you like me to stay on anon, or DM? /nf

waa im rlly soso thankful dear.. ! DM makes me kinda nervous soo would u mind staying on anon…? srry,im very awkward 😞😞

[idinee]

You’re kind, you’re pretty (I haven’t seen you but I’m always right about these kinds of things) you’re struggling with so much yet you’re still strong enough to be here today, so you must be very strong and brave. You’re super sweet and nice and smart. If you weren’t deserving of love just for being alive, you certainly deserve love for all the reasons listed above.

ouuu thats.. thats rlly, really ,really really so sweet, dear anon… truly, ur makin me tear up a lil. heh. i still dont fully believe it, as u prob understand years n years of self hate cant disappear w just few messages, n i cant completely understand why u would waste ur kindness in some stranger in tumblr. but it truly made me smile. ty for believing in me even when i dont n even when u dont know practically nothin bout me,dear. it means a lot🫶

[idinee]

you should believe it bc it’s true. I don’t like lying. You deserve love and affection.

can i.. can i ask why u think so? if its not too much of a bother of course, sweet anon..

[idinee]

you are pretty and lovable and deserve to be cared for and adored thank you very much >:c

ouu anon.. ! ty so much, i appreciate it greatly .tho icannot truly believe it… but it makes me happy thinkin smeone out there believes it for me. smiles widely

ure truly a sweetheart <3

[yorozxu]

i love you jirai systems!

[meandmymadness12]

I feel bad when people waste there money on me

[r0ttingfl3shxx]

WE LOVE IVANTILL

[zombfiixx]

yall getting romanced by your anons im gonna BEAT you all with hammers /silly i can't believe this really i can't. all of you need to stop being so lucky right NEOW.

[idinee]

iiii neeeed to cuuuut soooo badddddddddddd……

[porceiaincat]

suicide feels like an inevitability

like even if i dont do it now, i know it’s how i’ll probably go out.

[idinee]

why cant I be pretty why why why

[saccharine-cruor]

bitches will be constantly self isolating and then wonder why they feel so isolated ( it ' s me i ' m bitches )