monoxromatik

illustrator, musician, linguistics enthusiast - an animal trying to create meaning - they/them - ace enby trans genderfuck - >30 - slav - also has the autisms and a terrible sense of humour

[idioticbat]

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ghibli eyes nerd

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a little tune i made in february to learn the basics of trance, i ended up liking it so i submitted it to the sunvox compo

[thelensart]

I don't particularly use this site that much to post text, but I do want to say something after checking my notifs for a week and seeing it's all full of very vitriolic transphobia displayed like the beginning of a Star Wars movie.

I really like this podcast Trashfuture and one joke that's always stuck with me is the idea of Riley's Law, Riley being one of the hosts and the Law being that once you post transphobia a single time online, you will never post anything else.

I do talk about being trans here, surely, but it's by no means the only topic I've drawn about. Sometimes it's war, or love for nature, living with misanthropy, suicidal thoughts, you name it. If anything, being trans is a minor topic here.

Every single account that's ever posted something quite vile under anything trans-themed I've done, is exclusively dedicated to anti-trans hatred, with literally zero exceptions. Not a single one.

I think of how JKR was a beloved children's author I never cared for because I was busy reading real books, or how Graham Linehan was a very talented comedy writer, and how those people are now dedicated exclusively to hatred. If you go into their profiles on twitter, it's an anti-trans post every 15 minutes, without exaggeration. And I don't know. I do hate specific groups of people, like the rich, or landlords, but you don't see me posting every fifteen minutes about those and how they want to invade renters' spaces or what the fuck ever talking point. I have my reasons as to why I hate them, and none of them have to be with any sort of belief that they are naturally evil, mostly just a product of specific circumstances. And I'm very much a self-declared misanthrope. I just happen to dislike people as an abstract idea for a variety of reasons that don't imply license to treat other people badly. But these people do operate like that.

So I guess I want to say don't be that upset about those comments. Imagine the state someone has to be in. Imagine the lack of curiosity, the shameful ignorance, and imagine how miserable they must be, to engage in this kind of thing non-stop every single time they're online. They have nothing else going on. I have a, I want to think, rich inner life that translates into a lot of variety about what I draw. Hell, I'm rediscovering my love for Pokémon, which I've been critical about for a while. I'm trying to read more Emil Cioran and Bifo Berardi and Herman Melville. I'm rediscovering my love for writing about the things I think and care for out of love, not hate. But these people can't. They can only hate because they can't create anything original. JKR and Linehan could, until the very moment they got consumed by hate. They are miserable people and take it out on us, like a school bully with divorced parents.

So come on. Don't be getting the blues because of these people. Cheer up.

[idioticbat]

[knittingontheroad]

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a bit late but...tdov 2026

i wasn't even going to draw anything, but i got a little angry at some stupid things i saw

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Sorry but i don't have a print shop right now. I've been thinking about opening one for a couple months now, but i have no idea where to start even, it'd need to be something that at very least works for both the EU and North America, and is a minimally decent platform.

[idioticbat]

a bit late but...tdov 2026

i wasn't even going to draw anything, but i got a little angry at some stupid things i saw

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[leprzilla]

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i was looking at old sunvox projects and there's a lot of "the same file with five different names and inside there's a couple samplers with meows, quacks and highly distorted wilhelm screams", and the worst part is that i have an idea of what i was trying to do with these

[idioticbat]

dumb and silly doodles from the past week

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[idioticbat]

kisses on the dancefloor in my past i need some comfort just like you beating like a bass drum time goes by i want the last dance just like you

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So here we have @golday41's Angry. I'm not sure exactly what she is beyond some sort of gryphon, but i really like her design, and I wanted to draw her again as a (quite late) birthday gift!

I recorded a time lapse video for this, but as things usually go, i only remembered to start it when i already had the solid colours and lineart done. I tried a lot to do some sort of lens flare effect, but i realised that's way beyond my comprehension of how light bounces around on glass, so i just used a GIMP filter instead, i guess that's not cheating =Þ, and messing around with the filter parameters gave me a good idea of how lens flare actually work, so next time i can do it by hand using fun layer blending modes like XOR to create colour banding. =) I feel like my background painting skills are way above my character painting skills right now, and it boils down to me not having studied proper anatomy pretty much ever. But it also depends on the kind of background and even what kind of texture i'm working on. I don't have a very clear vision of what style i want to paint, my whole style is just an emergent property of the limitations of my skills while trying to represent subjects as realistically as possible (but not hyperealistically) in a manageable timeframe. Sometimes i long for a certain Impressionistic quality in my painting, but not as extremely sketch-like as Monet, Renoir and the likes. Perhaps more like Luminism, with a clear focus on how light works. Certainly like Peredvižniki/The Itinerants, a slightly softer realism than the western-european counterpart. There's already some heavy Art Noveau influence on my art (which is a way richer art vocabulary than the stereotype of drawing a circle and arcs around a character in Alfonse Mucha's style), and I also like some of the Early Flemish Painting movement, but neither is something i want to replicate, as i find doing that pretty pointless. I don't think i'll ever settle down in one style, and i guess i'm creating something of my own as i go and explore this amazing world of light and colours. In the end, the illustration and subject at hand are way more important than any rigid set of rules.

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queen's gardens (2022)

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every single day