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Shaking and Throwing up

Got to find something to believe in,

Or I won’t make it through this season,

Cuz when them dark feelings creep in

There ain’t no fleeing

Not even searching for a reason.

You’re really gone

And I’m struggling to grasp it

The dopest soul I ever known, now you ashes

Left me with a nasty lil habit

Fuck,

If this ain’t hell, it’s close enough

I miss you so much Baby Chris.

It’s still tough

#cehe #poetry

I did it to make u happy..

But u never made it there..

Underloved and unprotected

Teamdarkskin

#colorism

Nervous

Last week i went to visit my mother...and saw my 13 year old brother there, He asked why I never seemed embarrassed, and I had a secret I should share, I told him the big secret was I don't care about the opinions of other sinners, When I thought I was dork, my friends loved me like I was a winner, He asked me if I get nervous..I get nervous and I stutter.. Like a cheater who told a lie and got caught in that muhfuqa, I get nervous like a rapper who can't rhyme, like driving on suspended license with 2 fines, I get nervous like a punctual person with a watch that stopped but they didn't know til they ran outta time, I get nervous like I'm claustrophobic, and in the closet, and someone is on the other side holding the door knob...shit I get nervous..like the store alarm went off while I'm stealing shit on purpose, I get nervous..because you are Trayvon.... And our mom could become his mom I get nervous because our mom can be Sandra Bland-ed... And her murderers will go free without being repremanded, I could become motherless or brotherless at any moment.. on anyday I get nervous because it seems like God ain't listening to us pray.. And u can be gone

Realization

When I was 19 I knew everything about ANYTHING, I'm 26, I admit, I aint know nothing about shit.

#poetry #PoetryMonth

Blacktiful

When was the last time somebody called you beautiful? Have you always loved your melanin or is it something new to you? Personally I love every shade, & every hue...do u? I love all the pretty colors they guise as slaves in movies too, Maybe I'm obsessed....

They taught her to hate everything that I love about her..& that's fucked up. Beautiful is she...with her melanin on fleek, Full lips, and brown eyes that make me weak, Thighs so thick that the inside of her jeans are thin....

-SeptemberBlvd

I imagine this convo happening

I told her what happen she started laughing said "that bitch is the reason u left me? U wanted sumn ratchet? U coulda had this... A good girl mixed with a badd bitch.. But u followed ur heart to a girl who left her heart with her ex... I mean *exes U did bad... Told u that u could only downgrade from me... But u decided to step. You shoulda just stayed but instead u got played to da left. Anyway at the end of the day I missed you lady, come home baby" nothing sweeter will ever be said to me.

Team April's Happiness is incomplete w/o u.

My soul

Remember that time u said "Forever" but u really meant "until I get tired of you"?... I'll never forget that time.

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Twisted love

For her I'll go 2 war because with her I never bore cuz 4 my thirst she is my reservoir better than infinity n beyond Staying away from her is a chore, though she's clearly a label whore, if she had bags under her eyes they'd be Louis bouton

Tale of the Lady w/o a Heart

Yesterday my heart threatened to run away, I said "Cardiacia, It's crazy out there" she said she didn't care but she couldn't stay, An hour ago I found a note she wrote it read "I'm leaving today, I'm out You'd rather have me bleeding than beating, wtf was that about?! I always held you down, & held you up with no fucking help, But SOON as you fell for dat pretty lady you didn't want me for yourself, You didn't put me on a shelf, BITCH u threw me in to her hands, And right now u probably pouting actin like you don't understand, But you know you shoulda locked me in a box in a closet n kept me safe, NAWW u decided that her hands would be a better place, Never checking for a murmur, a palpitation or no shit, You ASSUMED that if there was a problem she would take care of it?! You placed things in me to live for but nothing you would die for, Then everything didn't go as planned & parts of me made you cry more, And she AINT EVEN give you her heart BITCH you should feel dumb, You shoulda knew from DA JUMP she wasn't the Muhfuqin one, But fuck it I'm finished, over it, I'm done, I tried talking & dat didn't work so now I'm just gonna run," In the same place she left her note I left a reply, Incase she decided to return to my side It stated "I know that you're hurt but I'm sorry doe, And without you baby I can't even do my cardio, I know that you're hurt, you feel like you got burned, But I'm hurt too, & I need you lesson learned, If you don't wanna come back I can understand dat, But if you do you'll be in charge of my life & command dat, There ain't much dat I can say but plenty I can prove, But I might not get that chance but I don't try I definitely lose, Well it's up to you to chose guess I can't say I love ya, but I do miss you."

You're funny, charming, a social butterfly, gorgeous, smart, honest, and you have this approachable appeal.... That's what makes you attractive to me. You are the exact OPPOSITE of me....So I don't know why the FUCK I expected you to feel the SAME

I develop obsessions when I'm in relationships..... That's why they never work. Except for my relationship with Tumblr. We never disagree on anything

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America should stop continuously coming up with mental disabilities/disorders for criminals.... Some people are just bad people.

-idkhow2say

You weren't safe

From the moment we became official... I knew you weren't safe. I knew it wasn't safe for you to hug me because when I hug you, I will never let you go. Squeezing so tight that your back pops and spinning you in a circle til you feel light headed and your head drops, but I won't stop. To be honest you'll probably dehydrate or starve before I let you go. PLUS you have the lips that I thought were only myths until I saw you. And I will kiss those lips until you turn blue its non-negociatable so don't argue. Just know even if you mutter "stop" I will continue til my heart's content. While holding you past the point where my arms go numb, to the point where they are just weak and shaky. I knew from the beginning, I would think of you til my heart was drained, and my brain was fried and overloaded with thoughts of you. I want to over-love you.

Okay Love

I know some bitches did you dirty & I’m aware of that, Open up your heart to me & I’ll take care of that, Sooo it’s okay to love bae, It’s okay love, Because when superman leaves his cape at home, I got you covered…glove The days you want private time, I spend those days in, And I would never cheat on you, I think you’re amazin’, But it’s like a maze I’m in..Getting the run around, You tryna push me away when I’m tryna hold you down, It’s okay to love bae, it’s okay love, Because if love doesn’t save the day, we got everything above, You say you got trust issues & I bet you do, Long as you need me to, I’ll protect you boo, It’s okay to love bae, it’s okay love, Nobody will even touch your heart,they’ll get wrecked if they get close…

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