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So y'know how in Ella enchanted Ella has to obey anything and we see constantly that her curse tales everything literally so if someone said go to hell to her then what would she do

Hey hey, would you mind talking about it feels like to be abrosexual? I found your Tumblr handle in a thread (on asexuality org I think) and wanted to ask. I'm having a smol crisis with my sexuality and don't understand whether it's normal that your sexuality "turns off" for certain genders for periods of time as long as months. I'm v confused but if you don't wanna, that's all fine! You don't have to. -b

Ofc!! I'd been struggling with my sexuality for at least 3 years before I learned about abrosexual and it was a bit of a game changer. It's annoying as hell and a bit of a pain in the ass. It gave me a lot of anxiety trying to figure out my exact identity each and every day sometimes I hit hours and the longest lasted a couple weeks. I went through periods of not caring at all what individual identities I was feeling and just used abro l and also periods of trying to track everything I was feeling to see if there were any patterns. I never could stick with it long enough to see anything. A lot of times they were very subtle changes and gradually changed (ex: ace, to sapphic, to bi, to pan) and then other times I went from having zero attraction to anyone and then it would drastically change to being attracted to all genders. It would feel kinda like a switch was flipped. Kinda like you're looking through the fridge and can't find anything that sounds good to eat so you wait an hour and then you see something and you're like "wait, I WANT THAT in MY MOUTH in my BELLY right nOW!" And even though nothing in the fridge changed, I suddenly felt that one food was just exactly what I was looking for. (I don't normally condone directly comparing humans to food in terms of consuming them but it's the best example I can think of and I want to focus on the attraction aspect of it rather than the beings).

Now this isnt actually exclusive to abrosexuals or any other sexually fluid group; it's not unheard of for someone to genuinely be turned away from a gender because of a bad experience (ex: rape, abusive relationships, etc.) And that's totally valid and doesn't make them abrosexual. It's the reoccurring changes that can range anywhere from decades to hours, and I wouldn't be surprised if there's people with minutes and seconds. And people can also change between 2 sexualities or all sexualities.

Since it's also really small community I think there's also an element of individuality that's really nice as opposed to other larger sexualities like asexuals. There's a lot of flexibility in the identity and how you choose to identify as and it's not as difficult to convey your idea of it because you don't have to "prove" your identity to millions because I doubt there's much more than a couple thousand of us which means you can describe it in more detail to a much smaller community. And whenever you're communicating a more complicated and personal opinion it's ALWAYS easier to convey your ideas to a smaller group.

There's also a ton of other sexualities that are hyper specific and when I was searching (granted about 3 or 4 years ago) the only reference I could find to some of them were on flag sexuality candles art (they also came in lizards too lol) so hopefully there's more of them out there but I totally forgot what search terms of been using, but it's a deep Tumblr rabbit hole you have to dig into to find it.

#lgbt #lgbtq #abrosexual #abrosexualwatermelons #rare sexualities #ask me anything #answered ask #advice

Ok peeps someone called bullshit on me using nb as an abbreviation for non-binary buts that's just how I've always seen it abbreviated that way and didn't think anything of it. And I know NB is also used as non-black which I get but I honestly thought that it was just another example of an abbreviation being used for multiple things because the internet as a whole rarely organizes this stuff. So someone told me it wasn't right and I was being ignorant. Several hours later after triggering anxiety and panic attacks I started looking into it. I hate enby, it sounds infantalizing and was originally coined as a boy/girl alternative in I believe 2013 and it just makes me uncomfortable. So alternatives I've already seen

NonB

Nbi

Enban

Enbe

NonBi

And others.

I want suggestions. I have no idea what alternative I'd be comfortable using but I want to figure something out.

As for it changing at all, I get both sides and I'm torn. On one hand non-black has been used for a lot longer with earliest documentation I can find being 1961 while non-binary being abbreviated is way more fuzzy and the earliest I've seen is mid 90's.

And even though non-black is a very useful term for the black community in discussing important issues, (and this may be my own personal feelings) but non-black isn't used as a self identifier at least not in the same way nonbinary is used. Nonbinary is one of those umbrella terms that some people (including myself) use because they just can't find something else that fits and to keep searching is distressing.

But the black community is much larger and it would be way easier for nonbinary people to change their abbreviation.

But non-black is describing a population that (while individuals in that group are discriminated against) are not marginalized for SPECIFICALLY being non-black.

And I can keep going on about the pros and cons of both sides and I'm not in any position in this aspect to make the large judgement call.

Personally I just want to think of more abbreviations and hopefully find one that fits and if not just never abbreviate nonbinary again because trauma.

So if you have any suggestions please comment and help me out.

tl;dr comment alternative abbreviations for nonbinary (other than nb or enby)

Has anyone else realized that in #frozen2 when Elsa is in atahala she sees her father reading a book of the little mermaid which is a love story about two people from different worlds coming together for love and at the beginning one of them is masquerading around like the other just like the mother was doing at that time (pretending to be arandelian)

#frozen2 #easter eggs #disney #frozen #Ariel #the little mermaid #elsa of arendelle #disney elsa

Them: Hey Alex the skeleton war is starting soon

Me:

#idk #i thought it would be a good meme format but it doesnt lookthat good #someone make it better #look at their faces that skeleton just has so much joy #skeleton war

Ok it's official I love kids

Kid: are you a boy or girl?

Me, nonbinary but don't want to have to get into explaining it: Boy

Kid: *puzzled look for like 3 seconds staring at each other* okay *runs off*

#lol #lgbt #gay #lgbtq #nonbinary #trans #transgender #transitioning

You know what. Fuck this. I don't care who sees this because it's how I feel and no one in my life actually seems to care or will listen. I feel so just alone. Everyone kinda just fell out of my life last October and now just more and more people are falling out of my life until it feels like no one is left. I haven't had a single person ask me to do anything with them or even just be near. It is always me asking them and lately just more and more people are saying no. I can count all of my friends on my hands and I'm a senior in high school. I'm supposed to be having a great year. I'm supposed to be graduating and going to prom and having an awesome spring break with friends. But none of that is happening and it's been a terrible year that I've just been putting up with until it ends. And I know as soon as I get to college I'll be great and I'll meet so many people and have so much to do that I'll have the time of my life but god these last two months of school are hell. I just feel like everyone is kinda breaking off their ties with me and then there's the people that I've been trying to keep in touch with and get to know better and be better friends with but after a while it's just so... Exhausting. I just wish one person in this world enjoyed my company enough to do something about it. And any time I talk about these feelings with anyone they can't relate and so they just say sorry or that's sucks but no one actually does anything more to help me out. I wanted to take like a month earlier in the year and just stop asking people to be near me to see if anyone actually cared enough about me to ask if I'm okay or to initiate the conversation or even a conversation and no one has. Not a single person. The only actual joy I've gotten from anyone outside my family has been from total strangers and the small conversations I've had with them. There's been nothing deep or meaningful happen in my life with anyone and it's getting to me. It's tearing me down and not a single person is noticing. And the only person who would is too far away that they would even catch on to a change in me. And you know what I don't even care if anyone on here cares about this. I don't even think a single person would read this. And if they did, I doubt they'd actually do anything about it. They'd probably just say another fucking sorry or that sucks. Cause no one cares enough to put me in their attention for more than a minute or two in person and maybe just a couple texts online. Everyone said senior year was gonna be awesome and I'm really just not getting that from anyone. I shouldn't have to grasp out for any kind of human contact outside my family. Hope everyone else is having a better year than me and I hope these two months go by quickly.

There's a special kind of like 10th level of anxiety hell where you just kinda like give up and you just start existing and like you're totally calm but even the rational part of you is like wtf no we should be freaking out rn like what's happening and it's the most peaceful I've felt in years tbh

Dogs are the one true happiness in life. Fight me.

king-of-thelizards

I’m in a film class and we have to do a presentation on a movie. He is doing his on Jurassic Park. And he has the Jurassic Park theme playing on a 10 hour loop.

studentlifeproblems

artcanbehard

In case you don't know what to draw

- Your favorite character with clothes they would never wear. - A crack ship. - Dance poses. Breakdance poses are always better. - Backgrounds!!!! - Think about a feeling/emotion, try drawing something that would make you feel that way. - A magical/mythical creature. - Modern day AUs are always fun. - What would your fave’s room look like? - Expressions! Extra points for making them exaggerated. - Flying objects. Any kind of objects. Put some wings on a refrigerator. - Your outfit! - Design a mermaid. Or a sprite.

tasteful-darkness

You are my world. 紫の

Anyone else just kinda turn on a video and turn off the sound with the intention of putting on subtitles but then you just kinda don't bc you're brain is just way too preoccupied

One of the bad things about being lgbt+ is when you have a crush on someone but they start dating someone else and you can’t even be upset because damn they’re hot too

#bisexual #pansexual #lgbt #lgbtq #lgbtqia #gay #funny #crush