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It was never in his intention to actually hurt her to the point that she was crying, but he could also not deny that he found pleasure in her tears. It wasnât that he wanted to see her in pain, but the soft expression of hers mixed with tears, it was so delicious and cute. It surprised him, too, that she would be willing to date him â or rather, that out of all people she has had a crush on him. There were guys and girls more suited for someone as frail and petite as Aoi, but he was all the more protective of her knowing that she was so weak and tender. Sometimes, he wished that he could protect her from himself, too, but that was something he was incapable of. Certainly, he had been treating her with utmost precaution compared to other people â when he would be completely reckless around other people, he tried his hardest to be more docile around her. But it was just part of his personality, so he kept on guilt-tripping himself whenever thinking about the possibilities of harming her unintentionally, but gravely so.
Even if her fluids were to get onto his pants, he would not care too much â there were ways of washing his clothes, so there was no harm done. On top of that it was only natural to react in certain ways â heâd more so be concerned that she was thinking of him as some kind of weirdo to get so riled up over her praising him in such a manner, it was a lot less normal than becoming soaking wet over her partnerâs reactions. But he doubted that she understood just why he was getting into the mood and why he was being fine with being more submissive than he usually was â it just was in his personality to become softer whenever he was acknowledged in such a manner, of course, he was softer around his girlfriend already, but it only added up to that immensely. Nodding to her question, he really did not want to repeat himself â when he gave someone his word, then he was not backing out of it! No matter what! And that included a situation like that. If he allowed her to do anything with him that she wanted to, then he was fine with it. He was not expecting something crazy anyway since his partner was so, so shy about anything of those sorts â but perhaps sheâd be more open to doing something that sheâd like when she was given the freedom to do so. Heâd certainly find pleasure in it either way, it was weird to not be in charge for once, but he also trusted Aoi enough to know that she was not going to turn it against him or make him feel weak or vulnerable. Instead, he believed whole-heartedly that she was capable of making him feel just as good with whatever she may want to do.
Watching her undo her skirt as well as her underwear, he felt his abdomen tighten up more and more, though when she was brazen enough to undo his pants and pull them down along with his boxers, he was staring at her with slightly widened eyes; it wasnât like her to be this forward, but he could appreciate it since it was something new to him. Usually, he always had to be the one to push his urges and himself onto her, but to have her do those things on her own accord was exciting (and he hardly was able to believe that he felt that way). As she embraced him like that, he returned the favour and placed one arm around her waist to keep her close, his other hand brushing through her hair gently. The sensation of her wetness on his own sex was driving him crazy, it felt better than he had expected, but it wasnât nearly as good as to feel her tightness and warmth around his member. Purring into her ear before kissing her neck gently, he breathed against her skin, wanting so badly to have a peek of what was going on, to see her privates grinding up and down against his own, but with the way they were so close on top of one another it was not possible. âFâŚFuckâŚâ Exhaling as he pressed his lips against her skin, he bucked his hips against her movements, wanting so badly to feel her more than just that, but he figured that the more patient he was, the more praise heâd earn, right? Salivating at the thought of feeling her around him, he leaned his head back as much as he could to watch her face. âDo you feel good, yes? Am I being good?â Pushing the topic onto her, he tried to be as sneaky and sly as possible, but he simply needed some kind of validation.
aoi was quick to cry, quick to stop crying -- quick to go through emotions. she was honestly surprised that shiro didnât hate her for these traits,  but he never seemed to get mad at her for getting upset. he was always concerned, always asking who made her upset. the opposite of how a lot of people would deal with someone as sensitive as herself. if anything, the shock of the other dating them went both ways, since she was also in quite a bit of shock that he would date her. he was so militant, so careful with the upkeep of his body, almost robotic at times with it; while she wasnât the type to partake in turf wars let alone rank. and here she was, dating the man who stood at the top of the ladder. it made her feel as if she were sub par to him, like she didnât have a purpose to be there -- she didnât have anything to give him in terms of skills or battle knowledge, which was something she knew he cared deeply about. all that she was . . . was a friendly face to come home too she supposed. regardless of all of her negative thoughts, she still knew that there was no doubt in her mind that he loved her. he was very much softer towards her, treated her like she was something that he treasured deeply as opposed to like she was nothing but a placeholder to keep him from getting lonely when he came home from battles.Â
his submissive nature at the moment was not something that she took lightly. while he would have been mad if she was taking this as him being weak & vulnerable, she knew better than to think that. if anything, he could have easily reversed the situation on her and taken control immediately. aoi being in control with shiro was more of a privilege that he was granting her rather than her actually being the one to get him to break. he should have known that even though she was given the opportunity to get âanythingâ that she wanted right now,  she was very vanilla in her mannerisms and wasnât going to ask for anything too crazy. just being on his lap was enough to fluster her, let alone throwing out some crazy request. she was just happy to be rutting against his length right now, trying to get herself some relief. Â
she was aware of just how perverse it seemed of her to be the one undoing the rest of her clothing after she had already started on her top. most of the time, she was too afraid to undress herself, not confidant in showing her body enough to want to undress further than what shiro wanted. her pace was soft, pressing her wetness against him as much as she could. moving her hips, she was grinding against him for friction, unsure of whether or not she should go far enough to put him inside of her. all of his gestures however should have been a clear indication that it was alright -- besides, she had told him . . . she could do anything that she wanted. the sounds he made, the way that he kissed at her flesh . . . it made her shiver and shake, only to let out a loud squeak at his sudden thrust. following up with an answer to his questions, aoi was shaking still when she responded. ây - yes, you feel so good -- i - i --â her face only darkened, clearly embarrassed as she spoke.  âyouâre being s - so good, ah. --- but you donât have to be good for me . . . i - if you donât want to ---.â her tone absolutely didnât match the words, voice lowering as she continued. pressing herself down on his privates, she gave him the option to continue grinding against her or to press himself inside.