EmaanAhmed.

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اللَّهُ أَكْبَر مِن كُل ما أَخافُ وَأَحْذَر

Allah is greater than all my fears and worries.

[iemanahmed]

You do not land upon it yourself. It was written for you to read it when all you were looking for a hope 💗

[iemanahmed]

“Sometimes, it seems everything has been stuck”, she said.

And as her daughter heard those words, she got lost into her own world. The world where she can relate those words more than her mom. She was caged but it was the kind of cage that was more than just a monotonous routine.

[iemanahmed]

Unlike her other obsessions, she could not let go of this one. Forever mesmerized by its enchanting presence, impossible is it for her to make this admiration unlearned. -SW

[iemanahmed]

Choose people who choose you, your happiness and your health over their ego.

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Once claimed they will keep us happiest once we acknowledge ourselves to be theirs.

Now, they don't even bother to think about how we feel even though we made ourselves theirs forever.

[iemanahmed]

In 2024, I chose to be at places where I am welcomed.

In 2024, I chose to be stronger and better at growth.

In 2024, I chose to believe in honest relationships.

In 2024, I chose to let go of toxic people and toxic environments.

In 2024, I chose to have more faith in God's timing.

In 2024, I chose to break through the societal cages.

In 2024, I chose to breathe freely.

In 2024, I chose to put myself before anyone else.

[iemanahmed]

I complained of my grief to Allaah today. There were tears. There was pain. There was a needle that felt struck. All of it was from my side. On the other side, there was comfort. There was silence. There was someone listening to all of it. Without complains. Without getting annoyed. Without even judging me. That was my Rab, highest of all.

He listens like no one else. He comforts like no one else. His urge to listen to his ABD with open heart no matter how disobedient he has been.

Was my suffering ended? Perhaps not. But I felt as if the weight was lifted. I felt like I could go on with my suffering with peace, for I could hear my heart repeating that there are glad tidings for those who bear with perseverance. I know the glad tidings are on their way - maybe with a delay but slowly coming closer. InshaAllaah

[iemanahmed]

Things seems to be slipping out of my hands. The more I wish to Normalise things and get back to where we had been closed, the more we become strangers to each other. Sitting adjacent to each other and yet not conversing about anything. We once would not stop talking when together and now look at us.

It hits me differently every time. The only relation that I had not given up on after breakup. The one bond that kept me sane. And now, the same bond is just another thread that's on the verge of breaking.

You got close to others in this span and seeing others on where I always had always make me go through a heartbreak that just won't recuperate. You were everything for me and now I have everything but you.

Wish I could say it loudly how I miss being with you. How we were for each other above everyone else. How noone would ever matter for us. It was us for each other. I wish to be with you in ur worst and in ur best. But time has turned tables badly. I m unable to catch up even when all I want is to be with you.

Every day I come across knowing something about you hanging out with your new best friends and a part of me tears apart everyday. I had spared a piece of my heart to you. And now this piece just won't function properly and it's harder to breath now.

I complicate things at times I realize but is it unfair to expect from someone you love to love you equally if not more. Or to keep you above all.

Sigh..

Sadly, the distances will continue to grow

And maybe will come a time when it will be the time to let go.

I may still breath hardly then.

Like a fish out of its marine clan.

I miss you, I swear I do.

Wish I could remove the love I have for you.. :').

[iemanahmed]

It costs me my mental peace when the space dedicated for me is reserved for people other than me. For you, it's not a bad idea to switch people because the newer ones gives you better opportunities to prosper better. But have you ever, in your wildest dreams, imagined how much damage it might have done to the ones you put on hold. Someone might have lost their ability to open up because of you. Someone is combating the heartbreak every other moment. Someone became a stone out of the sand that never had been destined to harden. Its an irreversible damage. You cannot fix anything. And the worst part, you won't ever realize unless someone runs over the same truck over you and you feel that debilitating pain all over your body.

[iemanahmed]

Leeds reminds of all the traces that I just couldn't remove.

[iemanahmed]

کیوں

کیوں لوگوں کے پیچھے بھاگتے ھو.

کیوں انکو پوجتے ھو.

جو چھوڑ جاتے ھیں ساتھ اپنے فائدوں کے لیے

کیوں انکے لئے خود کو ضایع کرتے ھو.

[iemanahmed]

Cement works well in fixing broken walls and filling up the empty spaces. The heart, finds all of its life a material to fill in the gaps and the broken areas. Sadly, nothing like that exists. Nothing in this freaking world can fix the dents of your hearts.

Life is an irony to happiness. We keep finding it in people and in the moments but the truth is: real happiness does not exist in this world. You can get some moments where you can be at peace and you define that as happiness. Real happiness in this world is just an illusion.

Attachments? They are the worst thing that exists here. You meet someone then suddenly like talking to them and then end up being with them every single day. You feel better with them. They feel better with you. You start valuing them from your heart. You make sure you put them before anyone else and that is where the problem intrudes in your so-called happy bonding. They start getting habitual of you. You are no longer a priority in their lives. They meet new people, start putting you on hold. Poor you, who had been so intertwined with their presence in you. You lose a well working part of yours. The story doesn't end here. It changes you completely. You become vulnerable but make sure your vulnerability is not visible to anyone and in the effort of hiding it. You hide your soft part from the world. You start becoming insensitive, unemotional from the world but in the real you're not. You head towards the place where opening up becomes impossible. Your mental health effects and you're no longer a sane person.

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#ThisRamadan

Start a Quran with translation and stick to it.

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#ThisRamadan

Make yourself punctual in prayers and continue this punctuality after Eid too.

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#ThisRamadan

Leave one bad habit and adopt one good habit.

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#ThisRamadan

Encourage each other to feed the poor more than ever.

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#ThisRamadan

Count the number of prayers you missed and complete their Qaza