If I believe it, does it make it true

Sometimes I think that I am the oldest person on tumblr. My other tumblr is: http://humiliationasmotivation.tumblr.com/

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Waiting to die

Sitting here, alone as always, it gives me time to ruminate on my life; or lack thereof. I'm not happy, can't really even say I'm content; I'm simply waiting to die. Every day is a repeat of the day before: the alarm goes off, I ignore it for a while, finally get up and dressed for work, feed dogs, walk dogs, make lunch, leave for work, exist at office for approximately 10 hours, leave to come home, walk dogs, feed dogs, make and eat dinner, walk dogs, get ready for bed, and start the cycle again. I've come to accept that I'll never live the life I dreamed about as a kid, and each day I begin to hope a little more that it will be my last. I don't want this life anymore and I'm tired of fighting to exist to the point that I don't want any life anymore. I'm tired of waiting. I'm ready.

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Physical therapy should be more physical

Ok, ok. I get that it is cardiac rehab physical therapy, but if I want to get back into the shape I was in before the open heart surgery I'm going to have to do more than a few squats and some cardio. How am I supposed to know my limits if I'm not supposed to push myself to them in a room full of nurses? At least the sessions are free through the end of the year. :-) #heart #cardio #surgery

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Another beautiful Seattle day

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I feel as though I've been disfigured

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Blue Lagoon in Iceland. I have been here and it is amazing. 

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Your ass is not a kitten

dearest tumblrverse, 

When I search the tag #kitten the last thing I want to see is your naked ass on my screen. You are not a kitten, often times you are hardly what might be considered a sex kitten. Please appropriately tag your photos so those of us looking for actual cats and kittens do not have to see your desperate pleas for attention. 

Thx!

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The reason my car is parked a mile from my house.

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I should be studying for my last section of the CPA exam but I cannot seem to focus on the content. I decided to take a break for a bit and I am going on an hour now. While I know I need to study to pass, I want to go outside or spend time with friends. Sad part is, I would still be sitting at home alone; only I'd be watching TV or napping instead of studying. 

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via the tiny project

I could live here

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I am having a bad day. There is no place else I can vent it without people telling me that I am over dramatic or crazy, like hearing that is going to help me feel better. Why is it so hard to just be happy? I really just want to be happy.

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stopped in to see kittens. I was not disappointed. Keep up the good work Tumblr family. :)

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I log in periodically to find pictures of kittens and to see if I have mail. Why can't I have a job that pays me to surf Tumblr?

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Sorry to have seemingly vanished, tumblrverse. I started in a new career, I finished my second bachelors degree, and I am now studying for and taking the sections of the CPA exam. I may not be making posts very regularly anymore. I love you all and I miss seeing your faces. :)

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to do list for today: Drink copious amounts of coffee, do laundry, study BEC portion of CPA exam until my brain melts.  So far, I have only started on the coffee portion of the day.