If only Mind could write

Literally thoughts coming out of my mind.

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I’m not a fan of James Dean. I haven’t even watched or saw some of his works like East of Eden. I just stumbled at his IMDB Account one day while I was browsing about the movie, Little Prince. One of the voice actors, James Franco, who dubbed the fox, idolized James Dean that he even played James Dean at a biopic film about him. James Franco learned that Little Prince is one of James Dean’s favorite books. So I got curious about who this James Dean was. I went to his Page, learned some information about him and what really stucked to me the most are his personal quotes. I think there is nothing wrong with sharing them here, right? :)

PERSONAL QUOTES OF JAMES DEAN

“ To grasp the full significance of life is the actor's duty; to interpret it his problem and to express it his dedication. Being an actor is the loneliest thing in the world. You are all alone with your concentration and imagination, and that's all you have. Being a good actor isn't easy. Being a man is even harder. I want to be both before I'm done. “

“ When an actor plays a scene exactly the way a director orders, it isn't acting. It's following instructions. Anyone with the physical qualifications can do that. So the director's task is just that to direct, to point the way. Then the actor takes over. And he must be allowed the space, the freedom to express himself in the role. Without that space, an actor is no more than an unthinking robot with a chest-full of push-buttons. “

“ I think the prime reason for existence, for living in this world, is discovery. “

“ Being an actor is the loneliest thing in the world. You are all alone with your concentration and imagination, and that's all you have. “

“ To me, acting is the most logical way for people's neuroses to manifest themselves. “

“ Being a good actor isn't easy. Being a man is even harder. I want to be both before I'm done. “

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My Mind thinks: If only I could go ‘Back to the Future’

Its been awhile since my last post. I know...there are a lot of things going on in your head yet you are lazy enough to write it. Haha typical of me. 

Anyway as what my title post says, its Back to the Future baby!! So I’ve been hooked to this movie for quite some time now. It started with the ‘October 21, 2015’ viral of Back to the Future Day. Its the day where Doc Brown and Marty went to the future, on the 2nd movie. Well...just like any normal kid(wait you’re not a kid anymore...you’re in your 20s already) who gets curious, I DID GET CURIOUS. So I downloaded and watched the trilogy. (hahaha as well as the Back in time documentary.) Its fun, I really like it. Its kind of the same but different kind of movie. Did you get it? hahaha...What I mean is it has a feeling of a typical movie scenarios, but at the same time there are also some fresh elements on the movie especially I guess during that year.(Its been 30 years since the movie released) I love the tandem of Doc Brown and Marty. They clicked so well. Marty understands and accepts Doc Brown’s uniqueness and craziness towards science. I guess what really drawn him to Doc is that he is not afraid to stand up and try. That’s why he is also doing that with his music. 

Aside from the duo, I also love Marty-Lorraine tandem. If ever OTP or shipping exist during that time, I’ll root for the two than Marty’s real love interest in the movie. hahaha I love their interaction and they really have a chemistry together. Too bad She is his mother. That’s why they cannot really end up together. Its a good thing that they’ve been together though during the era of 1885 as the old ancestors of Marty. I cherish those few moments as a shipper. 

I also enjoy Marty Sr - Marty Jr - Marlene Scene. Its cool to see Michael J Fox become an old man and a woman (He rocks it btw). 

Actually I’ve learned about this movie way way back. Lets just say that I’m an avid 80s movie fan since I’ve discovered John Hughes films (Breakfastclub, Ferris Bueler’s Day Off to name a few) and the rest is history. I’ve already stumbled Back to the Future a couple of times before but I never tempt to watch it because I’m thinking that its your typical fantasy, sci-fi movie. Good thing I did watch it and it never failed me. And now I’m getting a girl crush on Michael J Fox. He just so adorable and you cannot resist his charm. hahaha and as I stalk him over the internet (Oh goodness...internet is available for everyone nowadays), watched his old interviews, and discovered he has a Parkinson’s disease, I like him even more. I don’t know to others but for me, the way he is speaking, his presence, he seems like a really genuine guy. As a child who grow up with Hollywood/Showbiz world (not that I am within the circle but let’s face it, Media/Showbiz/Entertainment its everywhere, we kinda breath it), there really is something different from him than the rest of them. I’m not saying he is a perfect human being, I know he made mistakes, but he’s like what you see is what you get. He is so down-to-earth. You don’t feel the air in every word he says. 

Ahhh...I should write more often. Share what my mind has to say. Push yourself!!

(Pardon my English, my sentences, my paragraphs – in short, my post ITSELF. This is completely unedited write up and everything was written based on how my head thinks and types on the keyboard. AND I DON’T OWN ANY OF THE PHOTOS USED HERE. CREDITS TO THE RESPECTUFL OWNERS :D )

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IF ONLY MY MIND COULD WRITE: The day I decided it to write.

There are a lot of things going on in my mind. Tons of ideas are popping out of nowhere. It can be about different things. Maybe its because on what I feel at the moment – I’m bored, not motivated, inspired, curious, name it. Actually I think my ideas are much better when I’m not writing. Wonderful and fantastic ideas are popping out of my head if I’m not thinking, or I’m not attempting to document it or write it, like what I am doing right now. Maybe because I’m not frustrated on thinking the right word, the right grammar or phrases to type. I’m not conscious if my spelling or sentence structure is wrong or even if I put a period or a comma. I guess they are just all impulses.

Do you think I should start a new paragraph? I just did. Well I thought of doing that so I did. Hmmm…what should I write today? Actually why am I writing? Do I want to make an essay, a blog post, perhaps a novel or what is this all about? Should I have a theme? Should I categorize my thoughts? Naaahhh…its just to complicated and too organize to make. I am too lazy to do that anyway.  Speaking of laziness, I’ve been very irresponsible lately. I have this web design freelance that needs to be done I guess 2 or 3 weeks ago, and not even a SINGLE page is already made!! And instead of prioritizing it, I just watch, and watch and watch, and lie on the bed, sit on the chair, and watch on my laptop or in our big widescreen flat tv.  I love watching. I really do. As long as it keeps my interests. I guess I’m more of a film geek. But I also watch tv shows, online videos. I don’t know which genre I really like but there is something I’m sure of, I’m not that into Horror movies. Not that I’m scared or anything, I just never really find it that interesting.  Besides I don’t want to scare the hell out of myself anyway.  (Unlike this friend of mine. Though it’s interesting for her. She likes it, and it’s her choice, and I respect that. Btw, she’s a scaredy-cat than I am) Like I said, I just really love watching. It’s my all-time favorite hobby, past time, whatever you call it. It’s part of my hall of fame. I think half of my existence is watching, so it’s really that of a necessity. It’s not just a want for me. I watch random stuff. I love rom-com, feel-good movies, chick flicks, teen movies, adventure, fantasy, comedy, drama, old, new, indie, psychological thriller, foreign, Japanese, Korean, Polish, you name it – I guess I can be a movie/film critic someday, although I’m not really fond of writing and reviewing something. Or maybe I like writing but not as dedicated, as structure and as theme-like paragraphs just like everyone else. If I want to write, I want it to be like this – Free, self-biased, non-sense, sincere (I thought you said not dedicated?!), unstructured writing. It’s kinda liberating actually.  Anyway, I just really love to watch and tell it my friends, or someone that I know. I give suggestions or recommendations, or I even FORCE them to watch it though. I can say that there are a lot of good and bad movies. You can never really count them in your hands. (duh…we don’t even know really how many films were release up to this day. Don’t even start with yearly releases.) But there are these type of films that will really enlighten you, touch you and connect with you, and I can say, they are pretty hard to find.  For now, I have a very few films in mind.  They are of different eras, genres, and so on. But the thing is, these films are special to me because there is something in them that I find unique, I can connect/relate to, or they just really amaze me. There are a lot of times that I wonder what would it feel like to be on those movies. - To act on films. I realize, as I grow older and older, all I really want to do is to perform. I love performing; I know that deep inside, I dreamed of being a star before (I guess until now, though in a different perspective). I enjoy performing – being in a choir, simple role-play, speech choir, dance number, etc. I also enjoy making arts and crafts too. I feel that my forte is really on the Art side. I love everything Art. I guess what I really want to be is a true Artist. I love channeling my gifts – singing, dancing, art-making, I’m not quite sure with acting though. Maybe because I kinda have merits on the mentioned gifts I have before, but in acting, the one I really want to try to, I’m not sure if I can really do it. It’s easy to act but to DO-ACT, it’s really hard. Just like what they say, you really need to be open and be vulnerable, and it’s easy to say but very hard to do. Maybe because we already make these inhibitions to ourselves, in order to protect ourselves from getting hurt.  I’ve been longing to become an actress for as long as I can remember. I know that I’m not alone. A lot of people also dreamed to become an actress just the way I do, but very few from us are really trying their best to achieve it. 

 (Pardon my English, my sentences, my paragraphs – in short, my post ITSELF. This is completely unedited write up and everything was written based on how my head thinks and types on the keyboard. )