Rants
It's not what I want, but when I don't hear a word from you... How am I supposed to know what you are feeling? You tell me not to bottle things up and that I can talk about anything. So here I am. I know I made a mistake trying to walk away, but who are we kidding? We both know I wasn't going anywhere. I let my feelings lead. You of all people know the most of what I'm going through. You saw how upset I was. Of course I'm not thinking clearly. I'm making stupid decisions. It kills me that I might have lost you because of this. I don't even want my things back. They will just remind me of you and that I made a stupid choice of not thinking before I talked. I'm sorry. I hope you remember how much we loved each other. How much you said I mattered. But until then I don't know what else to do besides walk away. I can't read minds. I don't know what you are thinking.
