Just a thought.

Can you imagine loud enough for it to manifest into reality?

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ZARA Slim Skinny Jeans size 34

Brand new never worn without tags

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Y2K Vintage Hudson Beth Baby Boot Low Rose Bootcut Jeans Blue size 25

Y2K Vintage Hudson Low Rose Bootcut Jeans Blue size 25 Excellent condition Made in the USA. Classic pullover tab back pockets that are sought after Y2K, vintage, Britney Spears

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Y2K Vintage Hudson Low Rose Bootcut Jeans Blue 30

Y2K Vintage Hudson Low Rose Bootcut Jeans Blue size 25 Excellent condition Made in the USA. Classic pullover tab back pockets that are sought after Y2K, vintage, Britney Spears

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True Religion Vintage Bootcut Flare Jeans

Excellent used condition. No rips on the bottom hem, no stain or any other damage. Comfortable and a bit of stretch on the denim. This is 99% cotton and 1% spandex. Boho Bohemian Denim Flare Sexy Western Festival Casual 70's Retro Vintage

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True Religion Vintage Bootcut Flare Jeans

Excellent used condition. No rips on the bottom hem, no stain or any other damage. Comfortable and a bit of stretch on the denim. This is 99% cotton and 1% spandex. Boho Bohemian Denim Flare Sexy Western Festival Casual 70's Retro Vintage

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✨Q&A✨ I’ve been getting a lot of questions on my photos lately, so I figured I would post a few of the most common ones! •𝘏𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘮 𝘐? 5’9 •𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘸𝘦𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵? The heaviest number I saw on the scale was 260 I believe. But I continued to gain weight after that and refused to confront the scale. So I’m sure I reach 270 at my heaviest. •𝘋𝘰 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘤𝘩 𝘮𝘢𝘳𝘬𝘴? Absolutely. It’s one of my biggest insecurities. I use a ton of stretch mark creams to help reduce the appearance but at some point I might consider surgery. •𝘏𝘰𝘸 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘥𝘪𝘥 𝘪𝘵 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘦𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵? I believe it took about a year. Maybe a year and a half. I could have done it faster but I struggled to find something I could stick with. •𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘥𝘰 𝘮𝘺 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘰𝘳𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘱𝘪𝘤𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘴? I have BLUE eyes. I do NOT wear contacts or edit my eye color. In some pictures my eye color may look darker but it is just the lighting. •Why do my teeth look different in some photos? ~If you haven’t noticed, I have a few gaps in my upper arch. I bought temporary veneers a few years ago which is why my smile changed dramatically. Call it what you want, but It made a huge difference in my smile & confidence and I’m glad I made the decision to try them. Currently I have Invisalign so my temporary veneers no longer fit. My Invisalign treatment won’t be complete until the end of the year. I plan on posting that transformation when it’s all said and done! •𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘥𝘰 𝘐 𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘭 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘢𝘨𝘦? I’ve said this from the get go- this page is NOT solely dedicated to fitness. It IS my personal page. I love posting my favorite quotes and thought provoking content & that will never change. I know a lot of my followers would prefer to just see fitness motivation or diet related posts, but I want to be 100% transparent about my journey, even when I’m not exactly living the healthiest life. That’s all the room I have on this post, but feel free to post more questions below & I’ll try to include them in my next post!👇👍

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Happy Birthday to my gorgeous best friend @nursedotson 🎈🎂🎁🎉 I love you so much!! You are truly a blessing in my life & have helped me through some of my darkest times. You have a beautiful soul and you are seriously the most driven person I know. I am so so so proud of you and everything you have achieved. You deserve the world!! I can’t believe your about to have your first son!! He is going to have one heck of a mom, and I can’t wait to watch it all unfold. I hope you are having an amazing birthday & I can’t wait to see you tonight!! 💕😘👭Love you boo boo!! 😜🤗 (at Los Angeles, California)

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I was scrolling through my old posts tonight when I came across this one. “Accomplishment drives ambition.” This is SO true & it was a huge key to my weight loss success. A key that I had completely forgotten about to be honest. I haven’t lost any of the weight I gained back, and it’s been mentally exhausting. I look back on my photos from less than a year ago and I can’t believe I have let myself go for this long. I have literally laid in bed at night wondering why the heck I can’t stick to it this time around. You would think that someone who has lost 100+ pounds would be an expert by now? Nope. Sure, I know what diet regimens and workouts I did along the way, but everyone’s body is different. But it’s so much more than that. When somebody emails me, I don’t initially just give them a copy paste diet plan or tips and tricks. There are so many factors to take into account. Hormones, genetics, metabolism... these are just a few. You really need to understand your body as a whole if you want to reach your weight loss goal. I got a bit off topic there, but what I really wanted to stress in this post is the significance of setting small goals instead of one big goal. I needed this reminder as tonight as well. I can tell you first hand that setting small goals was a huge turning point for me when I initially lost the weight. I found that as I met each small goal, I was even more driven to reach the next goal. For me, It’s a mental game. I would set goals even as small as sticking to a diet for a 3 days. Sometimes I think we psych ourselves out just by thinking about the time frame. The thought of dieting for 3 days is much more bearable than the idea of doing it for 10 months... am I right? I found that once I reached day 3, I was so pumped that I decided to go another 3 days... and so on. Anyways, that’s all my thoughts for tonight. This may not work for everyone, so take it for what it’s worth. But I know it definitely played a huge role in my success story & I wanted to share it with you guys❤️💭🙌🏽💪🏽👌🏽 (at Los Angeles, California)

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Juicing up for the week! 🥕🍎🍋🥒🍓🍊🍏🍍🍑🍐 (at Los Angeles, California)

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The picture on the left was taken when I was in college. Both pictures heavily revolved around alcohol, but when I was overweight drinking was an outlet. A way to escape the reality of my obesity & to forget about my insecurities. I actually look happy in the picture on the left, and in that moment, I probably was. But it wasn’t sustainable. Inevitably the next morning I was hit with a wave of regrets and reality was back to stay. It was a vicious cycle and if I’m being honest, it continued throughout my weight loss journey intermittently. If you’ve read other weight loss stories, I’m sure you’ve heard of the body complex after reaching your ideal weight. You literally have to unravel years of emotions, memories, and perceptions that were associated to the obesity. It’s part of the reason I stress on the importance of working through the psychological affects of obesity during your weight loss journey.

While I used to drink to escape the reality of my obesity or “get out of my head”, I found myself doing the same thing even after I lost the weight. I just couldn’t get past the body complex that I had drilled into my head for so many years.

Now, do I think that someone must cut alcohol out of their diet to lose weight? No. But I do think there needs to be moderation. & you have to ask yourself if your drinking to escape something? That’s something only you can decide. I found plenty of drinks that were low calorie and didn’t harm my progress. But for me it was the psychological effects of alcohol that damaged my health. Did I overcome my body complex? Yes! Did I consume alcohol throughout my weight loss journey? Yes. Do I still drink alcohol? Absolutely! (& probably too much, but that is a topic for another post.) I think the most important thing to consider isn’t the question of 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘶𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘤𝘰𝘩𝘰𝘭 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘥𝘪𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨, but instead, 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘶𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘤𝘰𝘩𝘰𝘭? What is the purpose? Is it putting me you in an unhealthy mindset? Are you drinking in hopes of escaping something? Take this for what it’s worth, I’m only speaking from my personal experience. Everyone’s journey is different! 💭 (at Los Angeles, California)

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Late night sauna session to clear my mind and my pores! 🔥👌🏼🙌🏼 (at Woodland Hills, California)

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⚠️If you see my transformation picture on a page that is promoting any meal plans or diet products please let me know⚠️ I have noticed an increase in pages reposting my transformation pictures, which is amazing!! However, I spotted a few pages that are actually insinuating that I used THEIR product to lose the weight. HECK NO. This is absolutely absurd. If you would like to know the truth about how I lost the weight, I have all the information on my blog. Or you can check out some of my other transformation pictures on my page to get more information. On another note, I want to be completely honest with you guys. ❗️I am no longer 150 pounds. I am sitting at 173 or so as of a few days ago❗️That’s incredibly hard for me to admit on here for the world to see, but I know some of you guys follow me solely because of my weight loss transformation, and I want you to know the full truth and struggles of my journey, from the past to present. I’m not happy with my weight gain and if you’ve read my most recent posts, I’m definitely struggling with my overall health right now. But like I’ve said before, the first step to change is being honest with yourself and getting to the root of the problem. 〰️Asking yourself 𝘸𝘩𝘺 you gained the weight in the first place. So that is exactly what I did. I was reminded that my health is not just about what foods I’m consuming, but also about what l’m feeding my mind & spirit. 💭 “Your body hears everything your mind says.” If you want to know more, feel free to shoot me an email or dm me. (Email might have a faster turn around)💌❤️😗 (at Los Angeles, California)

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I went through a period of time, or really a season of life, where I was so dang stuck on what I hadn’t accomplished. I regretted the years I wasted being unhappy and overweight. I watched my friends graduating college and getting married, while I sulked in my pity party because I wasn’t in that place. I felt like I was so behind everyone else. After I lost weight, everything changed. But I felt like I had so much catching up to do. It was as if I could “finally” live my life. Now I know this may sound crazy, but It’s true. I would dream of the “skinny” version of myself and what I would do with my life once I reached my weight loss goal. Unfortunately, this mentality did more damage than I realized. If I could go back in time, sure, I wouldn’t have waited until I was in my 20’s to lose the weight, but more importantly, I wouldn’t have “put my life on hold until I lose the weight”. I know some of you are thinking that it’s easy for me to say this now... because I’m no longer morbidly obese and clinically depressed. And your 100% right. But I wish someone would have told me what I’m about to tell you now. Don’t put your ENTIRE LIFE on hold because your overweight. If your stuck in the “I’ll do this after I lose the weight” mentality... you’ve got to understand, that your only hurting yourself in the long run. Trust me, I would know first hand. You can live your life and accomplish your goals while you lose the weight. Don’t wait to apply for that job or finish that degree until you lose weight. You’ve got to start creating the life you want RIGHT NOW. Not “after you lose the weight.” 💭☝🏼 (at Los Angeles, California)