forget I said anything

E, a bodily being, already given over, implicated in lives not their own. 20s + trans.

[ihatespeech]

i probably shouldn't bike to Illinois tomorrow w/ the air the way it is (really really bad) but like I already put it on my calendar. going to totally undo all those years I spent not being a packaday smoker. and maybe face immediate health consequences? maybe? I could? I have robust lungs

[ihatespeech]

embarrassing but I kind of did this, accidentally smashed my phone ~40 miles from home, then still made it into chicago and spent the whole weekend there totally phoneless like an idiot so if any chicago mutuals saw someone really lost pestering people for directions that was me. really stupid.

[ihatespeech]

uncle told my sister that I look like wnba player caitlin clark and that I am counting as like just a microaggression

[sextions]

some favorites from Carrie M. Becker's miniature diorama work

[ihatespeech]

I feel like I have a running list in my head of 'cool autists' and the process of deciding if any given person makes the list involves a lot of uncomfortable inferences that would like be probably rightfully regarded as bigoted if put to words

[quantizedangel]

Flock cameras should point neon spotlights at random civilians and play "somebody's watching me" so people feel more joy and whimsy in their day-to-day lives

[worldsandemanations]

Cornwall - Photo by Haarkon

[ihatespeech]

my current place is one of those lease-of-theseus situations where no one stays long but it never happens that everyone leaves all at once, so the landlord never has a listing up and it's a revolving door of stressed trans people flagging down other stressed trans people to fill in for whoever is going. this is all to say that sometimes thriftshopping is going through your attic.

[ihatespeech]

pack-a-day smokers are like 20x as likely to get lung cancer iirc but the thing abt that statistic is that 20 cigs a day for decades is an insane amount of cigarettes and that thought, that that's a lot of cigarettes, I have used to justify so much smoking. I think I'm an idiot. and I have a death drive like no other.

[ihatespeech]

so much hand ringing abt the ethics of shoplifting feels unnecessary if you just accept that having to pay for basic needs like housing + food is the first aggression. like idk if shoplifting is so much praxis or whatever as much as it's just 'hitting back.' like you don't have to pretend that it isn't itself aggressive. Really minimally aggressive, but like whatever.

[ihatespeech]

the idea of being someone that politely censors mention of shoplifting + then also clarifying that there's nothing wrong w/ shoplifting

[ihatespeech]

i probably shouldn't bike to Illinois tomorrow w/ the air the way it is (really really bad) but like I already put it on my calendar. going to totally undo all those years I spent not being a packaday smoker. and maybe face immediate health consequences? maybe? I could? I have robust lungs

[ihatespeech]

sidewall of one of my tires failed but someone on reddit like 3yrs ago said you can use a needle + thread to sew it up and then throw a rubber inner tube patch on the inside and this is a fine fix for a tire held at ~100psi, so that's maybe the cheapest thing I have ever done. My hand embroidered tire.

[noee33]

[ihatespeech]

was thinking abt that because my girlfriend commented on how I dote on her, and I love her but I also just sort of treat guests like that. Because I was taught all my social skills by a reaganite in the deep south with ocd. distinct memory of her visiting me in my first apartment and afterwards her being upset that my roommates at no point offered her a beer.

[ihatespeech]

was thinking abt it last night that I was taught a weird amt abt housekeeping/cooking/how-to-treat-guests and sooo little abt anything resembling being handy for someone raised as a little boy. Ty mom for letting me be a little faggot. this was a woman that voted for trump over clinton because, as she announced over Thanksgiving dinner, she didn't like women in positions of power. extremely low levels of oppositional sexism extremely high levels of normal sexism in this woman

[ihatespeech]

funny sad that like 5 months ago or w/e when I was finally not doing so bad I thought I was hypomanic just because I was so unused to feeling good abt things

[worldsandemanations]

A Capriccio of Roman Ruins (Marco Ricci, 1729)