Calabash Of Voices

A writers mind.. A fragile state... Hues of imaginations... A scroll...

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Relics. Architecture. https://www.instagram.com/p/B0BnLC0l3on/?igshid=1oofobk75tfu3

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Colorful lives 22:51

I miss writing. Lately I have been feeling empty inside, uninspired ... Like I am only existing in this meaningless vacuum that continues to oscillate in a high speed frequency. These days i am more settled at a job that fairly pays to maintain a certain level of lifestyle. I love the pay, I like my role, love my boss we have deep conversations about the company and everything seems perfect. But I still feel empty. Is this what it is like to live without a passion. It is a painful torture. When I write, I enjoy an emotional and cerebral stimulus. Suddenly I am like a person who has fed herself fat on a sumptuous meal. I get to imagine, dream become somebody else through my characters. I become free and I let my mind like a little girl lead me into a different world without any care whatsoever. I want this feeling, I want it back so much.

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‘Have you ever been naked?’, she asked while facing the ceiling.
‘I’m naked right now.’ He said with amusement in his voice. 
‘I don’t mean this kind of nakedness. I mean, have you ever stripped down in front of someone emotionally? Have you ever felt like regardless of how thick your sweater was, how thick your jacket was, you were still barely dressed in someone’s presence? Have you ever had the feeling that someone could look through your clothes straight into your soul? Because they’ve seen your most vulnerable part? They’ve seen you breaking down and crying tears you didn’t know existed? How you begged for forgiveness for what only God knows for? Have you ever lost your composure, your masque once before in front of someone?’ 
‘I don’t know. Maybe once.’, he said while looking at her in confusion. 
‘I have countless times. And the sad thing is, I love to wear something. I love to cover myself behind masks and fake smiles. It gives me the feeling of safety. But you know, once you stripped down you can’t just put your clothes on again. You can’t just put your clothes on and pretend you were never naked. Because now they know too much about you.’
‘But don’t we want to lose our masks? Isn’t this one of the reasons why we love? Because we can fall knowing that someone will catch us regardless our burdens?’
'Maybe’, she said with a weak smile. ‘But I love control. I love to have control over myself and whenever I strip down, I’m losing it, I’m giving it into someone else’s hands. And I don’t want this to happen. I don’t want them to have me naked desiring their love and affection.’ ‘And what do you do when this happens to you?’ 
She turned her head to face him.
'I leave. I leave the once that saw me naked.’ 
'And how many lovers have you left already?’ He said insecure about his question.
'I don’t know. I don’t count. Sometimes when I close my eyes I see their faces but they’re gone the second I open them again’ 
'Will I be also just a face you blink away?’ He whispered while pulling her against his chest as if he could prevent her of leaving him by doing so. 
'No.’ She said while kissing his chest.
'Why?’ He said barely unhearable.
'Because I told you this. And I told this no one before.’

Joelle  (via wordsnquotes)

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"ya diri gi ka isi cherem " - "let it be unto you as you wish for me" #photojourneys #photography #southeastern #igbo #photography

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"With shifting identities (brown, white; goth, “conscious”; “big woman”, fallen heroine), our narrator seeks above all a place where she belongs. That place is what a best friend, even an estranged one, can be, especially for a woman. Its comforts cannot be underestimated, not least in a life of great change. Like all of Smith’s novels, Swing Time has brilliant things to say about race, class, and gender, but its most poignant comment is perhaps this. Given who we are, who we are told that we are not, and who we imagine we might become, how do we find our way home? Granger’s romanticisation of village life, undoubtedly naive, rests on a correct understanding: that belonging has a value all its own". - Taiye Selasi. I can't wait to get my hands on these. #zadiesmith #literature #African

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