Your lips, my lips, apocalypse

Like the literal silver lining at the edge of a cloud ☁️

[ikarah]

I hate you during the day.

Scream at you,

throw insults your way

like it's second nature,

and glare at your successful

attempts

at annoying me.

I love you at night.

after the sun sets,

I smile remembering

the memory of you,

and wish it's all a lie

at your end too.

That all the bantering

and screaming

is just another pitiful attempt

at hiding

whats truly in the depths of

your heart.

after the sun sets,

I wish for something

that I do not

deserve.

[ikarah]

I am afraid I will end up being a good for nothing.

I am afraid.

I will end up being nothing.

End up dead for good.

Afraid and Alone.

I am frightened of falling apart.

Will you bring me home?

[ikarah]

I don't know about my strengths and weaknesses,

For strengths are not supposed to make you weep

and weaknesses are not supposed to be wrapped up in a woolen pashmina on a cold weather day

and lull you into complacent bliss.

[ikarah]

She was the victim of tortured screams and deepened scars.

Her eyes were filled with sorrow,

they yearned for the sun, the moon, and maybe even the stars.

[ikarah]

Forgiveness is fatal,

the forgiven, lethal.

[ikarah]

Lying on the bathroom's floor

Screaming till my throat aches.

[ikarah]

You slammed the door shut

But weren't you the one who flinched?

[ikarah]

There's blood on my fingers.

But it's not mine.

[ikarah]

There was so much written in the depths of her eyes

But you were illiterate, ignorant to the language of it.

[ikarah]

I always adored you love

and I am sure now death will too.

[ikarah]

I am tired of being the silent prayers of someone

I want to be the ballads sung proudly.

[ikarah]

If you tear apart this tapestry of scars

you will see the tangled mess that is my soul.

[ikarah]

Let me go.

I want to breathe properly for once without gasping.

[ikarah]

It's a suffocating story you can't bear.

[ikarah]

You deserve so much more, my love.

Trust me.

I know you don't trust yourself but

Trust me.

[ikarah]

So many wasted moments

reminiscing about you.

[ikarah]

There's something I want to say

But maybe not today.