Dear Campus Leader... Pakiusap ko...
A few more weeks and classes will be starting and I know you probably have tangled emotions about it. May nervousness na may halong stress na may halong excitement..... :))
I know the feeling... You see, I was once a student like you....
-- A second year college student in a university in Manila excited to experience new things.
BUT------ deep inside, I was just struggling. Amidst all the dreams, goals and new journey---I was struggling.
I just got off high school. For four years, my goal was to always be on top of the class---to retain my yearly scholarship. It was always about grades and medals for me. Due to this, I carried the stigma of being a miss “know-it-all. Parang “Come to me all who did not review and I will give you answers” kind of life... I avoided all kinds of distractions--so I didn’t have much fun in High school.
You see, I got tired. I was so, so tired from studying that I vowed when I got to college, I will make a new life for myself---far from being a high achiever! Gusto ko magexplore. Magexperience ng mga bagay-bagay. Ako naman this time ang masusunod. Little did I know, sisirain ako ng prinsipyo kong ito.
I had problems at home that time, problems with my finances, and with inner peace. I struggled with my identity. I was in a relationship yes, with a guy older than me--who gave me everything I wanted. Hatid-sundo. Todo-effort. Puro gala. ---and I really felt loved. Problem was, I was in it just because of ‘that feeling of being loved’. It took a bit more months for me to realize that I wasn’t really in love with the person, but with the comfort and material things that came with the relationship. I was fooling myself and I was hurting him. I devoted all my extra time to dancing as an outlet where I released all my anger from not being able to understand a lot of things happening at home back then. I will be happy during dance practices and trainings, but resented the fact that I had to go home afterwards. As more days passed by, the more my inner troubles succeeded overpowering me. The more I got angry and confused. I felt SO alone. I almost committed suicide and there were days, I was fooled to hurt myself and shed blood--again and again. I thought there was no hope.
That was way back 2007.
Today, 2019--I have found God--or should I say, God found me. In the midst of my weakness and hopelessness, there was Jesus. He lifted me out of a miry clay--that I thought was inescapable. Jesus changed my life. His love and mercy came and touched and healed every part of me that I didn’t know was healable. His power made me overcome a lot of faults, weaknesses and troubles. I was able to graduate last 2011 by His grace alone. My family came to know Christ and is more bonded than ever and I know it’s because God listened to our family’s prayers. My identity was restored. I received a new purpose and the emptiness withered away day after day I chose to surrender my life to Him. May malakas na agos ng peace sa puso ko araw-araw na gumigising ako. There were still a lot of storms and problems that went my way and I publicly declare and acknowledge I am still a work in progress for as long as I live. But in the years that went by after I decided to follow Jesus Christ last 2007, I answered His calling in my life. Nagpatrain at nagpa-disciple ako. Now, I am being used by God for other people. Thank God, ginagamit Niya ako for others. Thank God, He gave me a servant heart. I want nothing more than to see more people come to Christ and ayun ang trabaho nating lahat, hindi po ba?
Lahat ng ito nagsimula sa campus... sa isang estudyanteng nagsstruggle---- at sa isang leader/mentor na ginamit ng Diyos upang ilapit ako at palaguin sa Kanya.
That is why my dear Campus Leader, I urge you...... Pakiusap ko...... FIND ME. FIND THE ANNE who was struggling in 2007. Marami pa kami dyan sa school or university mo. Marami pang mga confused, lost and hopeless kagaya ko dati. Wag kang magpaloko sa panglabas naming ipinapakita... na kami ay ayos lang... okay lang.... pero pagdating sa bahay malungkot, galit at takot. Kaming mga nakaupo sa klase, sa kanteen, katabi mo sa laboratory, sa AVR... yung class president mo... or kasama mo sa student council... yung bestfriend mo... yung kasama mo sa org... kami yun. AKO YUN--dati.
Kung walang isang matapang na leader punong-puno ng compassion na nag-akay sakin na sumunod kay Lord, wala din ako dito ngayon.
May gagamitin at gagamitin talaga Siya para sa ibang tao. I know this for a fact. Isa ako sa mga naka-witness ng phenomenon ng salvation.
PLEASE. PAGAMIT KA.
Kung na-reject ka namin isang beses, dalawa, tatlo... wag mo kaming sukuan... nakukuha kami sa panalangin at consolidating... Nakukuha din kami sa radical na relationship... Maging kaibigan ka lang...
Dalhin mo kami sa lifegroups, sa mentoring, sa church or sa event kung saan pwede kami maevangelize at unti-unting matanim... Dalhin mo kami sa discipleship at trainings.... Make us value our new found purpose. Lead us in really following Jesus Christ.
Magpapasalamat kami sa’yo. Salamat ginawa mo ang part mo.
Dearest Campus leader,
In the words of Professor X to Wolverine in the movie “Xmen Days of the Future Past”... “I didn't have my powers in 1973. Logan, you're going to have to do for me what I once did for you. Lead me, guide me. I was a very different man then. You'll have to be patient with me.”
GO! FIND ME. THE CAMPUS VERSION OF ME...
OR BETTER YET...
FIND YOU.








