Always remember you are not part of the choices- you are the priority! Don't beg for someone's attention, he will come to you if he thinks you are. If not, then it's time to move on girl. You are strong independent woman, you know where to stand- you know when to fight for it and when to stop. If everything just go on circles you need to get out of it, don't be drag on that cycle. You are more than that, you worth more than that. Just remember giving up is not your lost and it will never be your definition, you've been fighting and I see how hard you tried. You cried so many tears... And today isn't one of those days anymore. You have learn that instead of holding sometimes you need to let go. Just let it go and you'll see how it will affect your everyday living. You're not suppose to be entrap by someone's game. Just play along but you need to remember, if you cannot win then make it draw. Go girl, you can do it. Don't be intimidated by peer pressure, we all got different lives to live. If they have a happy family, doesn't mean you can't. You will have but maybe not on the same measures that they have. Do your own measuring and don't ever measure your self less. I'm saying this because I know it's hard, I know how hard you've been through. Yes it is. But see you're still standing. You are strong, you already went too far with this. If it becomes too heavy just let it go, don't hurt yourself by carrying it too long. Stay safe girl. I know you can do it. You'll have your time soon. Xoxo