a cry for help
hey guys. i’m not entirely back from my hiatus but i need to vent for a second.
it’s only been a few weeks and i’m exhausted. my past semesters have always been stressful but something about this one is the icing on the cake. not sure if it’s:
the start of my part time job
endless english classes = ungodly amounts of reading due every other day
waiting for my acceptance letter to my dream university that i’ve worked these past 2 years so hard for
trying to graduate with honors
losing my appetite
too busy to hang out with friends
suffering from insomnia at night
just trying to be a good daughter for my asian parents
knowing that there’s no room for failure or shit hits the fan
or what...
this amount of stress is already too much (it usually doesn’t hit this early) i’m both emotionally and physically exhausted...
i don’t consider myself a selfish person. but i’m going to be one right now. please... if there is anyone who has a drop of sympathy, please assure me that i’m okay. tell me that my dumbass and young adult mind is over thinking and that i’m just overreacting. assure me that you’ve been through this and that you have it harder than me, so that i have zero reasons to be bitching about my “first world problems.” i hate it. i hate everything. i hate myself. i keep feeling this way after endless amounts of talking it out and shit; i feel like a broken record. is there something wrong with me? do you even hear me?
please... anybody?
