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I used to think that you two were the hottest couple on campus.. and I also used to think what if it were the two of us? Would we be a hot couple in the eyes of others like you two were? But then again I also thought it doesn't matter what anyone think. If it were the two of us, I would be the happiest guy ever.

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Shoutout

To all my peeps na active pa sa Tumblr hahaha Oyasumi!!

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We were lying down next to each other. I was looking straight into her eyes. I lean in to give her a kiss but somehow, I failed and said to her laughing: "God I am so nervous." But she said giggling back: "I know.. Me too." This time I kissed her for real. Then I asked her: "Totoo na to ah?" She replied: "Oo.. totoo na." *Wakes up* *Cries* *Plays song "I'm not the Only One" in the background*

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Bakit ganun

Hindi kasi valid sa inyo yung reason na sasama ako o gagastos ako kasi masaya. Kailangan laging may kwenta. Eh Pano kung ang kasiyahan ko nanggagaling sa mga bagay na walang kwenta?

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Just a thought

I've always thought na pag nawala ka sa buhay ko hindi ko kakayanin. Pero ngayon parang Wala ka na lang sakin. Akala ko irreplaceable ka. Hindi pala. I therefore conclude that feelings change. Maraming factors para magbago pero ang pinaka importanteng factor sa lahat ay ang time. Time spent with you. Time spent without you. Time. To sleep.

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Very old dream

So ive had this really freakishly and gore-y dream. Ang galing ng panaginip na yun kasi napanaginipan ko na yun dati. Mga 2 to 4 times siguro. Kwento ko:

Nasa parang highlands daw kami ng family ko. Nung una medyo silent tas ang setting eh bundok (highlands nga e) tas medyo mahangin.. nakajacket lahat. Nakalimutan ko na yung detalye pero alam kong napanaginipan ko na yun.

Ang storya kasi parang the walking dead. Pero hindi pa namin alam na may zombies. Tas nag tetread daw kami sa highlands.. grabe yung pagka steep nya. Konting mali mo lang parang gugulong ka na pababa.

Tapos may pinuntahan kaming place na konti lang napapapasok. Kumbaga isolation place siguro.. airport sya tas konti lang makakapasok. Nakapasok kami kasi si lolo ko may connection daw sa loob. Tas nung nag aantay na kami ng flight, may pinag tulungang buhatin (siguro mga 15 people, naka bilog sila; tas nilapag nila tas tumakbo) laman daw nun puro zombies eh nacorner kami sa isang tabi. Pinang harang namin ung mga bagahe namin pero shet naramdaman ko nung kinakain na ako. Kita yung lamang loob ko tas yun nagising na ako.

Walang kwenta no? Pero pag ikaw na kasi yung nasa panaginip iba yung impact eh. Kahit walang sense.. di naman yun mapapansin hahaha psychological shit.

Tang ina kelangan ko na matulog gagawa pa ako mamayang mga 8Am ng SWOT analysis at ckts lab report hahaha ciao

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Ma'am Cyrel Ontimare Manlises

I think I’m falling for you.hahaha grabe lang. Parang sir Duque lang nung highschool. Not sure kung ginagawa niya tong pagiging terror niya dahil

1. Eto ang teaching method niya. Embedding fear to her students to achieve what she wants to happen: for her students to actually learn something by force

2. She just likes to get mad at people and she enjoys to see people fear her. Her unreasonable rage is what makes her feel happy in some sort of crazy and unthinkable way?

3. Both?

Kasi naman. Lemme share lang my first meeting with her.

Sobrang late ako. Grabe as in talaga. Mga 27 minutes approx yun. Ayoko talaga pumasok kasi jusko ano oras na. Pero 30 minutes kasi ang consideration para absent diba.

Sumilip ako sa room. Nakanganga lang sila lahat habang nag cecellphone si ma’am. So inisip ko pwedeng pwede pa pumasok kasi wala naman sila ginagawa.

Pagkapasok ko, (sa likod ako pumasok), nagtinginan lahat sakin. Yung tingin nila parang sinasabi “wow ha. Pumapalag ka kay ma’am cy ng ganyan. Gg ka”. Ako naman nag tataka. Bat ganun yung tingin nila sakin? Tas yung tingin ni ma’am sakin parang sabi “WOW HA” habang nakataas yung kilay niya.

Mam cy: “YOU ARE LATE. Hindi mo ba nakikita yung mga tingin sakin ng kaklase mo? Is this your first take?”

Me: *nods*

Mam cy: “BAWAL MALATE. BLA BLA BLA BLA KYEME. THIS WILL BE THE FIRST AND LAST TIME NA MALALATE KA. AND IF EVER MAN MALATE KA, TANONG MO SA PROF KUNG PWEDE PUMASOK. WITH ALL DUE RESPECT”

And I was like, whut? Hahaha sinisigawan nya ko and yet, wala akong takot na nararamdaman. Aba eh malay ko bang ganyan patakaran mo. Di naman kita kilala at first day ko ngayon.

Nung nalaman niya yon medyo huminahon na siya. She just let it slide.

Mam cy:” Kopyahin mo na tong index card. BILIS. Wag ka nang umano jan.”

Tapos kanina. Nagpa recitation siya. Pag di ka nakasagot, tatayo ka sa likod. Ano na to? Highschool lang? Di na ko tatablan nito. I’ve experienced worse. Hahaha

Pero ang shunga naman kasi ng mga di nakasagot. (Sorry Hahah) Ang sisimple lang ng tanong ni ma’am. Isa lang don yung di ako sure. Yung kung sino nag start ng Intel. Chusko yung iba sobrang dali talaga. Kinakabahan lang ako kasi pag natawag ako baka matyempuhan na di ko alam yung sagot.

Haaay. Day 2 ko palang to sa kanya. Namiss ko pa yung diagnostic worth 2%. Pano pa kaya yung remaining 26 days? Hahahaha shit. Ayoko na. Tas may mga lab pa. 26 + 9 edi 35 days kami magkikita? Sana masurvive ko tong term na to.

Papalagan kita ma’am. Sisiguraduhin kong first and last take ko na to ng Micro sayo.

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Minsan gusto ko na lang umiyak

Ng walang dahilan. Yung feeling mo nasa music video ka. Ikaw ang bida. Walang kokontra.

Nakaka adik din kasi minsan yung feeling ng pagkalungkot. Yung tipong ginagatungan mo pa yung feeling ng kalungkutan mo. Idk why pero masarap din. Haha ang weird ko puta.

Masarap minsan magpakalayo. Sarap mag Baguio mag isa ngayon. Kaso ang layo.

Gusto ko mapag isa. Gusto ko matulog ng matagal. Yung tipong pag gising ko masaya na ako ulit. Hahah shit

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How can everything seem so real and by the next hour, seem so unreal? Maybe it was all in my head? But no. It really happened.

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Sleep Paralysis (01.10.14)

Hi there. It's been a while. Nagising lang ako kasi tang ina may nakita akong something malapit sa mukha ko na parang sumasakal sakin at nahihirapan akong gumising. Hahaha parang walang sense no? Wait ulit.

Kasi ganto. Tulog ako. Nananaginip ako na andon daw ako sa may katabing bakanteng lote ng dati naming bahay. Nakahiga at nakatingin sa ulap. Habang nakahiga ako, napansin kong untiunti akong napapa pikit. Habang napapapikit ako, may naririnig akong music. Hindi ko maexplain yung genre ng music na yun pero parang angelic na evil. Yung tunog nya parang acapella ng choir tuwing may divine intervention na nangyayare. Habang patapos na nung music pinilit kong magising.

Ang hirap shit. Eto yung sinasabi nilang sleep paralysis. Kahit boses mo hindi gumagana. Hindi ka makagalaw. Hindi rin ako makadilat. Ang hirap. Tinry ko gumalaw tinry ko mag clap ng hands yun lang nagawa ko. Pagkarinig ko ng tunog ng kamay ko napadilat ako ng onti.

Tang ina may babae sa tabi ko. Nakita ko siya for a split second tas sinara ko na yung mata ko. I couldn't see most of her face pero sabi ko sa isip ko "Oh My God" pero ang lumabas na tunog sa bibig ko "O o o" as in di ko magalaw bibig ko. Napaka minimal ng sound na lumalabas sakin. Hindi ko na pinilit dumilat kasi ayoko siya makita. After non tinry ko yung lahat ng lakas ko para pumalakpak ng madaming beses. Nagising na din ako pero ang weird kasi yung mga kamay ko parang hindi gumalaw. Nasa position kasi sila na hindi mo maiisip na makakapalakpak. Tinry ko din pumalakpak ngayong gising na ako, hindi aabot kasi may unan akong yakap. Not unless pilitin ng sobra.

Actually hindi to yung first time na naexperience ko tong sleep paralysis. Dito sa bagong bahay namin first time ko. Naka isa na din ako sa dati naming bahay.

Hindi rin to first time na makaranas ako ng something na paranormal. Feeling ko nga yung nanggising sakin (hinila nya yung paa ko pataas) yung babaeng nakita kong nasa tabi ko na parang sumasakal sakin.

Ang funny lang kasi kahapon nagbabasa ako ng mga kwento about sa sleep paralysis tas maeexperience ko agad agad? Not to mention mag aalas tres pa. Tas kung iisipin mo bat ganun yung music na narinig ko? Pero dun sa panaginip ko napapakalma ako nun. I think I was lucid dreaming inside that dream? Hindi ko alam. Shit just got real.

Hindi natin alam kung anong phenomena to. Marami pa ring bagay na hindi naeexplain ng siyensya pero please naman sana last ko na to. Kailangan ko rin naman matulog.

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#1

Dear xxxx, I really like you. It's not because you're pretty (you're not even my type). But I like you because I can see through you. I know when you are feeling stressed, I know when you're feeling happy, I know when you're feeling irritated, I know when you're just faking what you really feel with a poker face.

I don't even know why I'm writing this. Maybe just to give whoever reads this a piece of my mind? Not that I am wanting to have a relationship right now.

To be honest, sometimes I just crave for it for sexual shit that's why I'm either turning down or trying not to get involved with nice girls because I don't want to soil them with my dirty being. Lol #TooMuchInformation

Well I guess it's just normal for us boys to be like this. But I heard in Glee that girls want/crave for it as much as boys do. I don't know if that is accurate, but what the hell.

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Last night was awesome! So awesome I forgot to take this tag off.

Kahit hindi nasakyan lahat masaya naman. Pero mas masaya siguro kung walang masyadong jeje. Iba pa rin talaga sa Universal. Hahaha

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Nothing can ruin this night. Good night! :")

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Was that comment really necessary lola?

I tried to take it as a joke but how can we provide car gasoline when we don't even have jobs yet? I didn't mind it at all but dad was really offended.

And do you even see me complain whenever you make me your driver on a certain day? I don't even ask anything from you in return.

Ganyan ba talaga pag tumatanda na? I can't believe I'm saying this but you are being selfish. All you think of is yourself.

This is why I hate most of the elderly. Grr

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To the birthday girl

Happy Birthday.

I never forget this special day because it is your day.

Kaya pala naaalala kita kanina bago ako pumasok. Tas naalala ko, ay 4 na pala bukas.

Every year na lang akong hesitant batiin ka kasi sometimes close tayo pero after a long while na di tayo nagkita or nagkausap, back to square one ulet.

I've known you since we were grade schoolers and you have been the apple of my eye (and my heart) for as long as I could remember.

Head turner ka, normal guy lang ako kaya madalas nauunahan ako ng iba kahit wala naman silang palag sakin. (In terms of overall) HAHA

Pero I have been very lucky na naging close tayo. Naging masaya rin ako na nakilala kita.

Seriously speaking, we never had closure after I said those words years ago and I think we both know what each other is thinking. I never knew saying those words would be heavy on my part because those were my true feelings.

I really think you are my soulmate.

But I think I have been caught up in the past long enough.

It's time to let you go. It's time to let this go.

The idea of you and me becoming a couple was, is, and will be just as real as our dreams.

"Kaya tayo nasasaktan, kasi minahal natin yung taong dapat kaibigan lang."

#MMK #MushyKunware

PS: if ever in some way you managed to read this, wala lang to. Hahah di ako bitter at naka move on na talaga ako. Lol

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Hilik

Ayoko sana Na ikaw ay mawawala Mawawasak lamang Ang aking mundo Ngunit anong magagawa Kung talagang ayaw mo na Sino ba naman ako Para pigilin ka. Wala lang feel ko lang kantahin. Si lola kasi lakas ng hilik. Pasensya na po medyo bangag na. Hayaan niyo palagi namang umiinit kasi summer na ngayon. Kaya pag manonood ka ng tv dapat yung unan mo medyo malambot. Mahirap na baka masunog yung sinaing. Tsaka pag bibili ka ng chocnut, dapat naka bota ka. Kasi yung buhangin pag nahalo sa juice, nakakamatay kasi mabibilaukan ka. Tulog tulog din pag may time. Antaying mawala ang ilaw ng babala ng sinturong pang kaligtasan bago kunin ang mga bagahe. Pasukan na bukas. Eto klaro. Ciaoo~

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Naiihi na ako ang tagal nila ayusin yung mga bagahe. :-((