tired

[daisiscraze]

[rozcdust]

growing up with an angry father is terrifying but growing up a daughter with an angry mother is gut wrenching because you get it, you understand that she’s been worn down by the world and being treated as less and she’s been carrying the rage and traumas of her mother and her mother before her and her mother before her and when you see her you recognise that same rage in you

but her rage is not pointed at the world, it’s pointed at you because you’re 14 and not used to the harshness of it yet but she will make sure you get there and you don’t know what to do but cry and she hates seeing your tears because they make her nauseous

growing up with an angry mother feels like being ripped apart because you know she loves you, she’s your worst enemy, she makes you feel safe, she terrifies you, she’s your best friend, she’s the reason you can’t let people get close, you love her, you never cried over a boy or a girl as much as you cried over her words, she made you, you’re her puppet, you’re desperate to leave, you’ll never escape her blood or her judging gaze and even when you leave you can hear her voice in your head and it will haunt you until you’re dead

you understand her rage but you see it in yourself and that scares you more than anything else

[konoko]

[impossibleandtired]

Imagine having a family that doesn't make you want to fucking kill yourself, god i wanna jump off a fucking cliff

[impossibleandtired]

Mother cancelled christmas and said she doesnt want to be alive anymore cuz my little brother saw the train she got him

[impossibleandtired]

It sucks to think this is just my life. There's nothing magical about it. I'm not going to have some great romance. I'm not going to be some amazing hero that'll on some big adventure. I'm just me. Boring old me. Nothing about me is special. It'll never be special and I'm just really tired of thinking about it.

[impossibleandtired]

It sucks. I hate that I can feel myself giving up. I hate that I can barely pay attention anymore. Nothing makes me happy. Everyday is so draining to the point I don't want to stop sleeping. Will this ever end, this tiredness? I just don't know.

[impossibleandtired]

I don't want to live anymore

[impossibleandtired]

Life isn't fucking worth it anymore. Breathing isn't worth it. I'm so tired.

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[sa-dnesss]

“I could be doing “fine” but as soon as a small inconvenience happens, I am right back at the suicidal tendencies because I realise how much life sucks and how useless I am.”

—

[betyourefine]

I'm so sick of myself

[sad-empty-lost]

I don’t get mad anymore, I just get really quiet. Why keep talking when nobody is really listening to you?

[sadallthedamntime-blog]

[jupiters-saddest-alien]

I don’t wanna get out of bed. I don’t wanna eat. I don’t wanna go to work. I don’t want to go anywhere. I just wanna fall asleep and never wake up.

[depresseddisneyprincess]

if you raised a child who is afraid of you and afraid of your reactions to things they do or mistakes they make you fucked up and were a horrible parent

[impossibleandtired]

Haha panic attack cuz of people screaming Haha fun