I'm ranting because I just need to get everything out of my mind it's been really fun but really busy few weeks
we just finished up our spring term and that comes with its own challenges because finals and one of my exams was worth 40% of my grade 😭 like the whole grade was made out of four parts, exam one, exam 2, final project, and the final exam 🧍🏽♀️ everything is worth 20% except 40% for the final and man has nothing in the gradebook which doesn't make sense to me because he physically handed this back or exam with the grade on it but when I check canvas there's nothing there 😔💔 so absolutely no clue what my grade will be because with the two exams I have at least a B + in the class but 60% of my grade is like up in the air
my other classes graded things so quickly especially cause most of my classes I'm in are taken by seniors and they need their grades in order to graduate
unfortunate thing is I'm not a senior so still have more school to go (I'm actually very grateful for that cause this job market is scaring me) but that means that I've made a very great friends with multiple seniors and they all graduated which is so amazing for them but they're all leaving me 💔😩
these last few days have been especially busy because I had my exams on Thursday, hung out with friends to like one is that night just because it was like one last hurray all together before they graduate, Friday was school specific graduations where the undergrads actually walk the stage because we have like 9,000 students who are graduating and that would be way too many people to have all during the official commencement so I was running around all day two various different grad ceremonies and then Saturday was the official commencement, went to one of my friends grad parties but I still had go back to my apartment and pack my things in order to go home
last summer I ended up staying at my apartment part-time so I could continue working my on-campus job and I was taking summer classes but this time I'm not doing either one of those so everything had to come back with me and that took longer than anticipated but we made it with almost everything
had another grad party yesterday but that was really nice and we just hung out
oh and in the midst of all this I'm trying to plan a surprise party for my sister and her graduation, so I'm doing all the coordinating, getting decorations, communicating with people with all of this happening at the same time 😀
plus a friend is coming to stay with us for like 5 days so we're like deep cleaning the house and setting up the guest room planning what we're doing for her while she's here with us
like I know all of this is going to be so fun and it's going to be worth it but it's just been back to back to back for everything and I just want to leave and have everything to work itself out
I also really just want to sleep 😴
anyways sorry for the long rant and a lot of unnecessary information, byeeee 🏃🏽♀️💨
hiiii youre always welcome to come and rant here dww
I'm only grateful that these are just like my class exams and not like the giant exams other places have to go through in order to qualify to get into college because that sounds like an absolute nightmare and I'm so sorry if that's what you're going through 😭
also if an exam is worth more than like 10 maybe 15% of a grade that's just ridiculous cuz at that point the only thing they're teaching you is how to regurgitate information onto a piece of paper and not actually applying it
AND WHEN IT'S CUMULATIVE IT'S EVEN WORSE!! how am I supposed to remember things that I "learned" 10 weeks ago 😭
so real about planning your days to study and then not following that plan, end up cramming everything in the last few days
oh 100% agree that growing up is scary, especially with so much change an instability that's happening in our world
also there's so many different jobs out there that just aren't taught to students, and if we don't know they exist then how are we meant to know what we want to do in life?? point of college is to study + go into a field you want but if you don't know what fields exist and what jobs exist in those fields until after you're done studying it kind of makes you feel like you're wasted years
a big thing I've realized in the past 3 years is that I don't really understand how I'm perceived by my friends, because I am a friendly person and I'm able to like talk to a lot of people but I find it hard to like go past surface level friendships and then if that does happen, I don't understand how much I mean to other people (I don't know if that made sense cause I'm still trying to figure this one out) but hopefully I will be able to maintain these friendships I've made
I slept like 10 hours straight and it was lovely so I highly recommend
our grades have finally updated and I managed to pass my classes with all A's 😝
so I manifest that same energy onto you for your exams
💪🏽🗣️FIGHTING
