i wanted to look pretty today.i spend a hour doing my hairAnd another hour on my makeup.i wore clothes i knew i liked and i thought.Maybe today won’t be so bad? But now i’m staring at this photo. The one they took. i hate it. i hate myself and the way i look,and my fat legs,and the way my belly wraps around my jumper making me seem “big”,More then i ever had before. What a mistake;this makeup and this hair, i should have played it more safe.These clothes don’t flatter me like i thought.Have i really looked like this all along?i’m embarrassed.Not just because i look like a mess.but because i tried so hard not.Evan when i put effort in.i never look good enough.