my tears ricochet is violently fu jian & yao chang coded
We gather here, we line up, weepin' in a sunlit room And if I'm on fire, you'll be made of ashes, too
↪ the overarching theme that even though yao chang was the one who killed fu jian, it destroyed him too
Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe All the hell you gave me?
↪ fu jian was never perfect, but to him, he is the victim of a shameless betrayal by the man he tried to save
'Cause I loved you, I swear I loved you Till my dying day
↪ he literally saved yao chang's life, he would not have been so angry about yao chang rebelling against him as he was if he didn't have any feelings towards him
I didn't have it in myself to go with grace And you're the hero flying around, saving face And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake? Cursing my name, wishing I stayed Look at how my tears ricochet
↪ fu jian in the afterlife watching yao chang found later qin on the ruins of former qin
We gather stones, never knowing what they'll mean Some to throw, some to make a diamond ring
↪ their relationship at first being close but then falling apart until they literally kill each other
You know I didn't want to have to haunt you But what a ghostly scene
↪ fu jian's ghost literally haunting yao chang as described by the jinshu and weishu
You wear the same jewels that I gave you As you bury me
↪ yao chang killing fu jian but still making use of his ministers, continuing to call his dynasty qin
I didn't have it in myself to go with grace 'Cause when I'd fight, you used to tell me I was brave
↪ yao chang fighting for former qin, and fu jian rewarding him with military honours
And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake? Cursing my name, wishing I stayed Look at how my tears ricochet
↪ if fu jian was dead to yao chang, he would never have dug up his corpse, whipped it, ripped off its clothes and then reburied it wrapped in thorns
And I can go anywhere I want Anywhere I want, just not home
↪ fu jian being free from yao chang in death but never truly at peace, still haunting yao chang from the grave
And you can aim for my heart, go for blood But you would still miss me in your bones
↪ yao chang must have missed fu jian despite everything because he was so haunted by his ghost and he made an image of fu jian to worship it and ask for forgiveness
And I still talk to you (when I'm screaming at the sky) And when you can't sleep at night (you hear my stolen lullabies)
↪ fu jian haunting yao chang as recorded, dreaming of his soldiers storming his camp, his ghost following him everywhere
I didn't have it in myself to go with grace
↪ fu jian was so angered by yao chang's betrayal that he refused to peacefully hand over the throne to him and got strangled to death instead
And so the battleships will sink beneath the waves
↪ the battleships is the partnership fu jian and yao chang had, where they both fought for former qin, and now that is gone
You had to kill me, but it killed you just the same
↪ yao chang killed fu jian, but that indirectly led to yao chang's own death because of fu jian's haunting, and this is broader from a metaphorical view with yao chang driven insane by his guilt
Cursing my name, wishing I stayed
↪ yao chang driven insane by fu jian's ghost until death, asking for forgiveness for what he did, blaming others
You turned into your worst fears
↪ yao chang betraying the man who saved his life, killing fu jian like how former qin killed his brother
And you're tossing out blame, drunk on this pain
↪ yao chang avoiding blame for what he did, first honouring fu jian, then when driven insane blaming his long-dead brother
Crossing out the good years
↪ yao chang ignoring all of the time he spent as fu jian's trusted commander, betraying him and killing him
And you're cursing my name, wishing I stayed Look at how my tears ricochet
↪ even though yao chang was the one who killed fu jian, he was still haunted by him and died because of him, fu jian's pain came back to him
