fragile as a dream.

— .indigo‛ indi ’ baxter. 24.-----——— ——————“ i think i still have rain . . . somewhere in my heart. ” ♡

[indindigo]

virginiafeldman​:

alisonxhayford​:

sullivanmock​:

clearliquors:

BOLD what applies to your muse.

PLACE IN SOCIETY

financial: wealthy / moderate / poor / in poverty.

medical: fit / moderate / sickly / disabled / disadvantaged.

class or caste: upper / middle / working / slave / unsure.

education: qualified / unqualified / studying.

criminal record: yes, for major crimes / yes, for minor crimes / no.

FAMILY

married - happily / married - unhappily / engaged or betrothed / partnered / single / divorced / separated.

has a child or children / has no children / wants children.  

close with sibling(s) / not close with sibling(s) / has no siblings / sibling(s) is deceased.

orphaned / adopted / disowned / raised by birth parent(s) / raised by guardian(s)

TRAITS + TENDENCIES

extroverted / introverted / in between.

disorganized / organized / in between.

close minded / open-minded  / in between.

calm / anxious / in between.

disagreeable / agreeable / in between.

cautious / reckless / in between.

patient / impatient / in between.

outspoken / reserved / in between.

leader / follower / in between.

empathetic / unemphatic / in between.

optimistic / pessimistic / in between.

traditional / modern / in between.

hard-working / lazy / in between.

cultured / un-cultured / in between.

loyal / disloyal / in between.

faithful / unfaithful / unknown.

BELIEFS

monotheist / polytheist / atheist / agnostic.

belief in ghosts or spirits: yes / no / don’t know / don’t care.

belief in an afterlife: yes / no / don’t know / don’t care.

belief in reincarnation: yes / no / don’t know / don’t care.

belief in aliens: yes  / no / don’t know / don’t care.

religious: orthodox / liberal / in between / not religious.

philosophical: yes / no.

SEXUALITY + ROMANTIC INCLINATION

heterosexual / homosexual / bisexual / asexual / pansexual.

sex repulsed / sex neutral / sex favourable.

romance repulsed / romance neutral / romance favourable.

sexually: adventurous / experienced / naive / inexperienced / curious.

potential sexual partners: male / female / agender / other / none / all.

potential romantic partners: male / female / agender / other / none / all.

ABILITIES

combat skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none.

literacy skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none

artistic skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none

technical skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none.

HABITS

drinking alcohol: never / sometimes / frequently / to excess.

smoking: never / sometimes / frequently / to excess. 

other narcotics: never / sometimes / frequently / to excess.

medicinal drugs: never / sometimes  / frequently / to excess. 

indulgent food: never / sometimes / frequently / to excess. 

splurge spending: never / sometimes / frequently / to excess.

gambling: never / sometimes / frequently / to excess.

[indindigo]

salvadorewho​: 

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“well i’m glad you said it,” this would be the perfect time for a couple of beers. his dark eyes briefly glanced around, scorching sand all he could see. there was a cloud in the sky that wasn’t there before but there definitely wasn’t a plan. like, where even were they? he’d never seen this place on tv. it was no love island, no bachelor in paradise - he’d always fancied himself on a show like this but this was more of a survivor situation. he was probably going to die. unless of course… he was already dead! “alien abduction it is. that’s what you were thinking too, right?”

“ no. i--- even if that were possible, and not highly unlikely, why would they toss us out here on some random island with no explanation? ” indi was bewildered. maybe she didn’t have a bright enough imagination, or maybe she was more concerned about one small detail than the bigger picture. ( it didn’t matter so much why she was here or how she’d gotten here until she found her son. ) but she couldn’t figure out if this man was joking or being serious. she wasn’t sure which was worse. “ do you think you’re being monitored, or just some sort of damaged, discarded experiment? ”

[indindigo]

virginiafeldman·:

… .

“ yeah, yeah – i know this’s gotta be, like… a nightmare, ” you know, even beyond that whole ‘waking up on an island with no recollection of ever going there and suddenly being forced into a survivor-like scenario only there are no helicopters and emts ready to save you if you fuck up a challenge’ aspect. had she been with ava… “ alright, so that nixes my ‘super fucking extreme blackout’ theory, ” she remarked, beginning to walk rather aimlessly so as to follow through on her promise to offer another set of eyes. “ you seen anyone else around ? ”

“ i want to believe that, ” she sighed. she would love to wake up any minute now. she hated the sound of her alarm and right now it would be the biggest relief imaginable. something told her she wouldn’t be waking up, though. the texture of the sand on her lips was too real. “ i don’t even have any theories, ” she admitted, “ not one. ” there was not a logical explanation. forget the whole waking up on some random island part, surely there were ways she could’ve gotten here, but with no recollection of memory, no phone, no son? “ a few. i don’t think anyone knows what happened. do you think it will come back to us? temporary memory loss? ”

[indindigo]

ddarcy·: 

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“Joey…Joey is easy.” Thankfully, the kids name wasn’t remotely close to another name, there wouldn’t be any confusion. Even if it meant repeating his name over and over again for hours on end, they would find him ( or find everyone named Joey on the whole island ). But what else was Darcy doing? Picking up one end of the frond, she waited for the other woman before lifting it and moving to stand by a clear patch of sand. “Head first?” She really had no idea…maybe this wasn’t the best idea but she was willing to give it a try if it would help find this kid.

indi nodded --- she’d definitely gone the simpler route, unlike her own father. choosing to name her after some random color for no reason whatsoever. “ head first, ” she agreed, balancing it across from darcy. she realized that it would be easily washed away with rain, but it wasn’t raining yet, and she couldn’t think like that. she’d just have to find joey sooner rather than later. it was in everyone’s best interest, right? “ i am suddenly blanking on how to draw a dinosaur, ” she admitted after a moment.

[indindigo]

alisonxhayford·: 

Alison couldn’t help but have the feeling that this little boy was not with them. That they were brought here on this island alone, with none of their loved ones. While that didn’t mean much for her, she knew what it must mean to others. To a mother. “I’m sorry, I don’t. It seems to be morning? Maybe?” She doesn’t know what to say. She settles for placing a hand on the other girl’s arm gently. “We’ll figure this out. Don’t worry.”

indi only nodded. she was so confused. it was like coming off of heavy anesthesia --- with no recollection of why she’d been dosed in the first place. her eyes fell to her own arm, letting out a soft breath. “ okay. ” she wasn’t sure she believed that, but it did mean something that this stranger would try to comfort her in the midst of whatever she was dealing with herself. “ i’m indi, by the way. and i really appreciate the help. ”

[indindigo]

virginiafeldman​: 

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“ joey. alright. ” she wanted to say that oh, they would find him! he couldn’t be far! but bullshitting already wasn’t in virginia’s preferred repertoire – but it wasn’t even a question when it came to mothers and children. if someone said some ‘oh, it’ll all work out!’ bullshit to her about it, she’d gladly deck them. “ we can walk around, look for him – power in numbers and all ? ” that was the only thing they could do, as she saw it. she shook her head in response to the other’s following question. “ not a fucking clue. you don’t either ? ”

“ thank you so much. ” it was no guarantee they’d find him, hell, he may not even be there, but it certainly made indigo feel better to know there would be two sets of eyes looking out for him. and at least if, later, they didn’t find him and split up, the other girl would know where he belonged. “ not a fucking clue, ” she repeated, usually not one to use such language, but sometimes it couldn’t be helped. “ the last thing i remember is picking my son up from daycare. well, heading home. i remember i was talking to my boss... ” she remembered snapping at joey. he wouldn’t be quiet in the backseat. she’d been so annoyed. “ and that’s it. ”

[aphroditefm]

the first thing callista saw when her eyes opened was a swath of dark clouds cast across the sky. the first thing she heard was…..water? she popped up from where she’d laid so quickly she made herself dizzy. she raised a hand to steady her spinning head, pausing when she realized it was….sand? there was sand covering her hand? callista closed her eyes for a second, trying to come to her senses — when she opened them again, she fully took in her surroundings. sand, the sea, and a sky that was about to open. her jaw slowly fell open and her heartbeat felt dull. sand in her hair, all over her designer outfit, and her chanel pumps were scuffed. a sense of panic began to set in as she realized she had no idea where she was or how the hell she’d gotten there. “what in the absolute hell…,” she said quietly, toying with her layers of necklaces just to check that they were still there. she scoffed in disbelief and began shaking her head. “oh absolutely not. this is a dream; this is a dream and i will be waking up from it immediately,” she said out loud, to no one in particular.

[indindigo]

she was thirsty. she was so fucking thirsty. it must’ve been awhile since she’d had anything to drink, and indi had spent most of the minutes since she’d woken screaming joey’s name. and nothing. no sign he’d ever been here. no tiny boot prints in the sand. no toys. no ‘ mama ’ shouted back at her. no sound of crying. people had helped her search, and nothing. “ i wish that it was, ” she replied without even looking at the source of the voice. her own voice came out raspier than she expected, though it wasn’t surprising based off the way her throat felt. and she felt. so defeated that she wanted to lay down in the sand and fall asleep right then and there. just give up. but she couldn’t. if she did, she could miss the only chance at finding her son... alive. “ let me guess. you don’t know how you got here either? ”

[indindigo]

ddarcy​: 

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Oh, she hadn’t expected a request on a shape and a dinosaur seemed outside of her artistic ability considering she had next to no talent. “Okay, sure. You might have to take the lead on the dinosaur though, you’d know what he likes best.” Looking around, Darcy hoped to find something to help them draw with…smiling when she saw a palm frond laying not too far away. “Help me carry that? We’ll have a dino drawn in no time and then we can look for…what was his name again?”

“ i guess he would recognize my terrible art skills, ” she almost laughed. the girl had made her feel a little better. as long as she just didn’t think about all of the places he could be. while she was well aware that assuming bad outcomes wouldn’t change anything, it was hard to keep her mind from going there. starting over to their improvised drawing utensil, she offered darcy the biggest smile she could, all things considered. “ joey. joseph, really, but i’m not even sure he knows that. everyone calls him joey. ”

[indindigo]

salvadorewho​: 

“Well, I’m not a conspiracy theorist or anything but this definitely feels like either a weird dream or definite alien involvement.” It was a solid theory, right? Sal thought little about most things but in the given circumstances it made perfect sense that the only thing that could get him here was alien abduction. Even his friends wouldn’t abduct other people for a prank. 

indi wanted with everything in her to believe this was but a dream --- however, she could usually tell when she was asleep, and she certainly didn’t feel like it right now. she could taste the ocean air, and typically you couldn’t taste things in your dreams. “ there is no logical explanation, ” she had to agree -- a lot of strangers waking up on some island they didn’t remember planning a trip to? “ i would think a plane accident, but i don’t see any large chunks of metal lying around, and, well, we’re all alive. ” her mind flashed to joey, and, oh, no, oh, god, she hoped.

[recaption]

[indindigo]

virginiafeldman​: 

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the mcdonald’s play pit ? an ihop at 3:47am ? a midnight screening of the scarlet letter because mom wanted to see demi moore take a bath and knew how to trick the ticket-takers ? none of those seemed to be true possibilities – not here ( and not while the scarlet letter was no longer showing ) where they lacked even basic shelter. but, five years ago, what would she have been doing ? it was bold to assume she knew. “ looking for my mom. ” which was totally unhelpful. “ so – okay, three-year-olds can, like, barely talk and walk steady, right ? ” which meant he probably wouldn’t be able to make much progress looking for his mother - who virginia assumed was the woman she was talking to. “ what’s his name ? ”

it physically hurt her heart to think about her little boy wandering around looking for her, confused at why he was alone. she couldn’t dwell on that. she couldn’t dwell on anything. she just had to find him. “ right, ” she repeated, her voice soft. on one hand, he couldn’t get very far by himself. on the other, he couldn’t get very far by himself. “ joey. he’ll probably answer to ‘booger’ too. or ‘munchkin’. i call him those more than his actual name. ” she hesitated. she had to ask. “ do you... happen to know how you got here? ”

[indindigo]

virginiafeldman​: 

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virginia was still so stuck in the cycle of all the things this could be ( hallucination, fever dream, an episode of the long ago cancelled punk’d ) that she’d yet to think of everything she should’ve been thinking about ( in the long-term, that is ). the question she heard was a bit of a kick into reality – she couldn’t stay with him, not long-term - hell, not even short-term – and a bout of severity moved in. “ i… fuck. well there are people popping up, eh, every two seconds, right ? they could – he might be around here somewhere. ” not that there was much room to hide. goddamn punk’d crew.

she was right. while indi had thought she was alone at first, by now she’d ran into a few others. it wasn’t unlikely that someone else had ran into him while she was out here asking every new stranger about him. if his path had crossed with someone she’d yet to question, surely he’d be safe. no one would leave a small child alone so close to a large body of water. “ right, ” she replied, letting out a breath she hadn’t realized she was holding. “ so... the question is... if you were a three year old... where would you be? ”

[indindigo]

alexxwatson​: 

Although the trees offered some protection from the heat, Alex knew that it was important to keep her temperature down. The last thing she needed, especially before she could determine where clean fresh water was, was to fall ill from heat stroke. Which was why she was currently sitting on the beach, her legs in the water and small waves breaking over them as she tried to look for land in the distance. 

A sudden voice causes her to flinch, muscles tense as she brings herself up to a standing position. The person is clearly frantic, and Alex’s lips turn down into a pinched frown. “I’m sorry, I haven’t seen anyone matching that description.” The only people she’d stumbled across so far were young women, which is strange enough, but a little boy lost on an island? She doesn’t really want to think about it. “I can help you look for him, if you’d like. What’s his name?”

by now, she was expecting a no from every person she managed to run into. if she knew he was somewhere safe, that would be a relief. but the fact that no one had seen him didn’t mean he wasn’t here --- it meant he wasn’t being looked after. it meant that he could be alone, or surrounded by animals, or wandering into the sea. god, she didn’t even want to think about the sea. “ it’s okay, ” she replied, weakly.

it wasn’t okay. not at all. but it wasn’t the other girl’s fault. “ joey. ” her voice wavered as the lump in her throat grew. she appreciated the offer to help, but she’d had a few others looking for him by now, and he hadn’t turned up. she was trying very hard not to cry, especially since it was her job to pull it together and keep searching, but all she wanted to do was lay down on the sand and sob. all she really wanted to do was hug him --- but that wasn’t an option at the moment. “ he’s never even been to the beach before, ” she realized aloud. they were supposed to go in the summer, but she’d gotten sick and they hadn’t gone. “ he must be so afraid. ”

[indindigo]

alisonxhayford·: 

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“Joey.” Alison repeated, nodding her head. She began to call the boy’s name out into the surrounding area, but through the sound of the rain, she was sure it was pointless. Although Alison had never felt what it was like to actually be a mother, she wanted so badly to be able to relate to and comfort this woman. “I don’t know where I am either,” she admitted back. But all she had left behind was a cat and a few house plants. Not a child. “He’s going to be okay, I’m sure of it. If he’s here, we’ll find him. If he’s not here, I’m sure he’s safe.”

shouting along with alison, indi could feel worry growing with every second. if he heard her calling for him, he’d come running. or he’d call back if he didn’t know how. some days she was annoyed over the amount of times she heard ‘mommy’, but she’d give anything to hear him shouting it right now. “ you don’t? ” that was both comforting and horrifying. how could neither of them recall? “ i... i don’t know, i had just picked him up from daycare. i think. that’s the last thing i remember. what time--- shit, do you know what time it is? ”

[indindigo]

ddarcy·: 

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This wasn’t good. Darcy had been freaking out herself when she woke up and she didn’t have anyone else to worry about. Here this girl was with a three year old who was missing. “Okay, I don’t think it’ll be hard to see a little kid toddling around on an island, right?” Plus the bright clothes? This was as easy as condemning a perp a witness found standing over a body with a knife in their hand. Easier actually. “Grey makes him cry? I’ve never seen that before.” To be fair, she’d never spent that much time around any kids before, was that normal? “We should make some kind of mark in the sand to show where we started and pick a direction.”

“ no, no, you’re right. he should stick out like a sore thumb. ” she wasn’t sure if she believed that, or if she was just trying to avoid spiraling into a panic. sure, he would look obviously out of place. but he was also very small. and everything around them seemed so big and... unknown. “ he knows if he cries i’ll change him into something else, ” she explained halfheartedly. if there was one thing indi was guilty of when it came to her child, it was giving in. though she didn’t see the big deal with letting him wear yellow every day, if that was what kept him content. “ oh, that’s so smart! yes, thank you! let’s make it a dinosaur, so maybe if he sees it, he’ll stay put. ”

[indindigo]

salvadorewho·: 

“I haven’t even seen my wallet, definitely haven’t spotted any weirdly small men.” He wasn’t really looking at her. All in all Sal didn’t often find much time to think about anything but himself. She should be happy if she lost some annoying kid, they’d be even worse on a semi-deserted island. “I’m not taking bets but I don’t think there was any packing considerations when the aliens beamed us up.”

at his remark, indigo immediately patted her back pocket to realize her wallet was missing too --- as well as her phone. not that it was a great concern at the moment. she was more worried about finding a missing person than her license. “ aliens? ” was that really his theory? it was enough to distract her for a moment. “ so-- hold on. are you saying... you don’t remember coming here either? ”

[indindigo]

ddarcy​: 

Darcy heard someone speaking and she had to assume it was to her since there didn’t appear to be anyone else around them. “A boy?” She repeated, narrowing her eyes trying to remember anything but there was nothing there - especially not a kid. “I’m sorry, I don’t think I’ve seen him. I haven’t seen any kid, I’ve barely seen anyone at all.” Besides this woman there had been figures on the horizon but Darcy had been keeping her distance for the most part. “Maybe I can help you find him.”

“ a boy, ” she repeated, bottom lip pulled between her teeth. “ he knows not to wander away but... he’s only three. ” could she fault a three year old for disappearing when she wasn’t even sure how she’d gotten here herself? her heart sank lower, but it was what she was expecting to hear. surely anyone that saw a toddler on his own wouldn’t leave him. “ would you? please. he shouldn’t be that hard to spot. he’s always wearing bright clothes. he loves them. if i dress him in grey, he cries... ”