#that rare time when sam n bobby were actually in communication actively coz dean was just Like That abt the first widower arc#they were so scared n dean was just sooo#insane things smh#cas...black goo... nightmares....maybe he doesn't need to breathe.... fucking daphne...poor dean lol via @jasmineintheforest
Right? They're both terrified out of their minds, and they deal with it poorly at times, too. When Sam brings it up, he doesn't bring up Cas as betrayal but LOSS. LOSS is what Sam's pinging in on for Dean, and that's pretty amazing (subconscious?) insight here.
Bobby doesn't know what to say, so he pivots to something that translates to: Quit worrying, Sam, because you have ENOUGH to worry about with your own mental health.
SAM: Yeah. Yeah, I kind of mean more like, uh... more like ever since my head broke... and we lost Cas. I mean, you ever feel like he's -- he's going through the same motions but he's not the same Dean, you know?
BOBBY: How could he be?
SAM: Right, yeah, but what if --
BOBBY: What if what, Sam? You know, you worry about him. All he does is worry about you. Who's left to live their own life here? The two of you -- aren't you full up just playing Snuffleupagus with the Devil all the live long?
SAM: I don't know, Bobby. Seeing Lucifer's fine with me.
7x09
Bobby is reacting like a cat that you've sprayed water on. He knows Dean might let himself die. He doesn't want Sam to say it outright. I think Bobby's terror parallels Sam's later terror in season 13.
So Bobby goes hard with Dean, but he goes hard because he's T E R R I F I E D by Dean's reaction to Cas's death in a way maybe he's never been before. Maybe Bobby can't quite make sense of it, but he's locked in. Dean's drugged out state ALSO revealed to Bobby that this... is about Cas.
About Dean's loss of hope.
BOBBY: I wasn't talking about that.
DEAN: Oh, Bobby, don't—don't go all Sigmund Freud on me right now, okay? I just got drugged by a sandwich.
BOBBY: I want to talk about your new party line.
DEAN: Party? What are you talking about? I don't even vote.
BOBBY: "The world's a suicide case. We save it, it just steals more pills"?
DEAN: Bobby, I'm here, okay? I'm on the case. What's the problem?
BOBBY: I've seen a lot of hunters live and die. You're starting to talk like one of the dead ones, Dean.
DEAN: No, I'm talking the way a person talks when they've had it, when they can't figure out why they used to think all this mattered.
BOBBY: Oh, you poor, sorry... You're not a person.
DEAN: Thanks.
BOBBY: Come on, now. You tried to hang it up and be a person with Lisa and Ben. And now here you are with a mean old coot and a van full of guns. That ain't person behavior, son. You're a hunter, meaning you're whatever the job you're doing today. Now, you get a case of the Anne Sextons, something's gonna come up behind you and rip your fool head off. Now, you find your reasons to get back in the game. I don't care if it's love or spite or a ten-dollar bet. I've been to enough funerals. I mean it. You die before me, and I'll kill you.
7x09
It's so interesting to me how Bobby's worry comes out so... horrific. Because this is the same Bobby that proudly showed off his magic suicide bullet to Sam and Dean and announced he's pretty much suicidal 24/7 and only stays alive for Sam and Dean.
Bobby really HATES being on the other side of this. And he doesn't quite understand it, either. Or well, he subconsciously understands it.
Earlier this season? He was more open:
DEAN: Yeah, well. [Pours himself a cup of coffee.] I’m not Sam, okay? I keep my marbles in a lead friggin' box. I’m fine. Really.
BOBBY: Of course. Yeah. You just lost one of the best friends you ever had, your brother’s in the bell jar, and Purgatory’s most wanted are surfing the sewer lines, but yeah, yeah, I get it. You’re – you're fine.
DEAN: Good.
BOBBY: Course, if at any time you want to decide that’s utter horse crap, well I’ll be where I always am. Right here.
7x02
Earlier in this very season, Bobby leads with Cas, and offers his support to Dean. But later in 7x09, when he sees the depths OF that grief, how "Cas" slips out under the drugs, Bobby SPOOKS. He can't even really talk about Cas. He circles safer topics, like Ben and Lisa, and hunting. And he shat the bed, really, when he said, "You're not a person."
But it was driven by fear. He wants Dean to nut up and be strong so he doesn't die. Because he and Bobby both recognize deep down that it is Dean's grief for Cas is killing him. (This is the same spooked-out carefulness they had when they broke the news about Cas's double agent status after Like a Virgin.)
It's a surprisingly Sam quality, this professing to be "here to talk," but when it comes down to it, can't really do it. I'm reminded of Sam's tendency to say, "Wanna talk about it?" then to turn around and totally freak out, like he does in 13x05.
Bobby shat the bed on the pep talk. And Sam completely avoided it like 8| I just think it's neat.
Side note: It's also interesting to me how Bobby's words echo how Billie talks to Mary and Dean about their respective suicidality in 12x06 and 13x05
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