🎣 A shallow seeker sinks horizontally, exhibiting a natural kicking action to attract a variety of fish.🐟 ME: Chaotic SPN/SPNwin meta writer who’s been sharing my thoughts since 2023. I'm a little contrary (in good fun), and I enjoy in-world meta shenanigans. STUFF:👬 pro-DeanCas (I have eyes) // 🤩 Mary stan //⭐ Jack stan // 🕮 Sam / Donatello / Metatron-coded
I'm Shal. I watched SPN off and on in college, but I didn’t join Tumblr or the fandom until late 2022, when I was bedridden due to a heart condition.
That’s when I started reading fics like american oracle by @handsliketruth & @whiskeyjuniper, The Black Dog Ache by @winchester-reload, and Redux by @valleydean... and I was hooked. Ficlets, meta, shitposts, the whole nine. (I'm still obsessed with all of these stories, if you care.)
⭐ Shal's fave re-readable Dean-Cas fics ⭐
(I need to update this so badly, but you folks keep poking me.)
Anyway, I also have my bookmarks but they are forever a mess, and I keep my macaroni trash comfort porn in there, so read at your own risk.
Anyway, I'm happy to say that my heart condition is much more stable now, and I’m no longer bedridden, but I’m still on Tumblr and still having an amazing time!
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TAGGING / WARNINGS
I’m not anti-anything, but I have a real soft spot for imperfect characters. If they come across as too polished or boring, I love digging into their flaws and exploring their Achilles' heels. (For example, I’ve paralleled Lisa Braden’s struggle with understanding grief against Jody Mills’s deeper, lived understanding of it.)
Anything I think could be challenging or a bit of a downer, I tag with #complex at the beginning—#complex john, #complex sam, #complex dean, and so on.
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META
The meta-organization will go here... eventually. (I'm working on a #shal spn rewatch.)
Over the past couple of years, I’ve written a lot of opinions, some of which people still request. My meta tends to focus on later SPN seasons, with deep dives into Jack Kline—aiming to add variety to the ecosystem by highlighting the real, complicated Jack over the "fanon (toddler) stereotype."
A few people have called me TFW-positive, and I genuinely love Team Free Will, even when I'm mentally wringing their necks. My core focus is on Sam, Dean, Castiel, Jack, Mary, and Rowena/the MacLeod family.
Side Goals: @spnwin-reader @wheretheloveisstored
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FICS
I post my fics on Ao3 under shallowseeker, and the new Tumblr page for them is here. (I post a lot of rapid-fire ficlets and ideas in my Tumblr posts, too.)
I write to improve my cognitive dysfunction, and I’m fascinated by religion and natural phenomena (avalanches, sinkholes, etc). My writing style has been described as chaotic, random, and weird—"like one long manic episode."
PSA: My meta thoughts = / = my fic. Sometimes fic is just me goofing off, or horny drivel, or melt-in-your-mouth cotton candy. Don't expect that My Thoughts (TM) will align with it. I reserve the right to be lame and incomprehensible. TY~
= O N G O I N G =
For your crimes against the most high (5 of 14) = "Cas isn't real."
= C O M P L E T E D =
Proper adornment (1/1) = Cas gets obsessed with Dean + jewelry
The facts of life (and death) (1/?) = Chuck VS Symbiote
Blackout on the eastern seaboard (2/2) = Victory sex tango
Truth & despair (15/15) = Dean misremembers the confession
Mirror, mirror (1/1) = The empty peeks into the bunker
I will not be diminished (1/1) = Chuck VS Jack
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OTHER STUFF
👬 pro-DeanCas (I have eyes) // 🤩 Mary stan //⭐ Jack stan // 📚 Sam / Donatello / Metatron-coded (and was told by a friend: Kevin Tran-coded)
My username @shallowseeker is a type of fishing lure, so I thought a Dean and Jack fishing theme would fit perfectly this time around!
you're not supposed to wander around appalachia at night bc you'll fall off a sheer drop that you couldn't see coming. this is also a major risk during the day. you really have to watch out for the sheer drops that you don't see coming due to the undergrowth. I suspect 100% of spooky missing persons cases in appalachia have the spooky explanation of "sheer drop disguised by undergrowth"
really cannot overstate how many utterly invisible ravines we got here and also how big the woods are. they can't find people because the woods? are big
Castiel and Dean, trying to be strong for the people they've got left.
I'm so sorry you lost (the one that raised you).
CAS to Sam re: the loss of Dean: Sam, I'm so sorry. (11x23)
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DEAN to Jack re: the loss of Cas: Jack, I'm sorry. (15x19)
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BONUS:
CAS to JACK re: Sam's death: I'm so sorry (that Gabriel and I couldn't save Sam).
Jack's icy stare:
(13x21)
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CAS to Jack re: Dean's near-fatal injury: ...we have to carry on. (14x14)
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I think I've talked before about how Dean and Cas are generally reserved, quiet grievers. Bobby's words from 14x19 overlay Dean and Cas here, and though it’s primarily about Dean, it also applies to Cas.
And yes, sometimes Sam mistakes this lack of dramatic grieving as "not processing."
In this same scene, we see both Dean and Cas leave at different times to process alone. Cas, to get takeout. Dean to the clearing:
#jack and gabriel#jack making gabe feel like actual dirt lol#very much the vibes of fuck you cas and also FUCK YOU TOO GABRIEL YOU HAVE DISAPPOINTED ME BEYOND DISAPPOINTMENT#and in the bg mary dean an maggie just look depressed... which probably makes jack even madder/more frustrated
"neanderthal poetry perfectly in tune with the spheres" from the guy who likes pop girlies and trashy talk shows and kardashians and thought you breed with the mouth of a goat was hilarious
good chance neanderthal poetry was actually full of some crazy gossipy shit and cheeky wordplay
#casisms#neanderthal poetry was all diss tracks via @lazarrusrising
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#that iiisss the language of the spheres#the stars like a bit of gossip this must be said#you ever read a horoscope?#lol#you know what never gets old?#human drama @pleaseraisemefromperdition
I feel like someone said this before me, i just can’t remember who. ANYWAY. Love the idea that Dean and Cas both come back particularly scuffed up by Hell.
Like maybe Dean isn't t he brightest, most beautiful soul Cas has seen... Maybe he's a crooked, fascinating little ember, tiny beautiful glow. And Cas is not a beautiful angel by any means, but a battle-hewn one who has stood the test of time only by virtue of Heaven carving him up
"neanderthal poetry perfectly in tune with the spheres" from the guy who likes pop girlies and trashy talk shows and kardashians and thought you breed with the mouth of a goat was hilarious
good chance neanderthal poetry was actually full of some crazy gossipy shit and cheeky wordplay
The champ of jeopardy today is named dean and I imagine dean winchester watching like "I bet I could be a jeopardy champ" and Sam would do that high-pitched, face-scrunched "WHAT?" And cas would say "of course you could, dean." And Dean would be like 😌
