Chapter 11: Continue Adding Drama
(T/N: I feel like now is a good time to say (about time, actually) that âunresolved tensions/worries/whateverâ is translated from ĺżçť which means âheart knotâ aka the worries that Lu Li couldnât put down. Idk if that made it through with the translation. Something like trauma, suspicion, secret fear, etc. XJWâs mission is to find them, the roots of Lu Liâs emotional and mental unsettlement, and heal them so that his personality pieces can peacefully go back together.
Also just a reminder that âEnâ is a sound of confirmation, like âmm-hmmâ or âOhâ and stuff like that.
Of course Xie Jianwei knew what he was saying.
He was slightly nervous, terrified that if he said too much, Lu Li would split apart; if he said too little, he was going to run again.
His heart felt tired, thinking about it.
It was a good thing that, although Lu Li liked making trouble, in regards to strategising for benefits, he was still very persistent. [1]
Not needing Xie Jianwei to say anymore, he interpreted it on his own as: âYou want to use me to make Xu Li give up?â
Xie Jianwei, as a person whose intelligence quotient and emotional quotient scores were both high, was also somewhat stunned at this particular moment.
He had to reflect for a few seconds before he could keep up with Lu âBigâ Liâs train of thought.
Lu Li sneeringly said: âPresident Xie truly is deeply infatuated with Xu Li.â
Xie Jianwei mostly understood - Lu Li thought that: Xie Jianwei still loved Xu Li, but the two could never return to the past; especiallyâs since Xie Jianwei current identity couldnât give Xu Li a future, even to the extent of being unable to ensure his safety. The Xie family had huge wealth and power - their enemies were extremely numerous even as their branches grew lush - Xie Jianwei couldnât have weaknesses, and as long as he and Xu Li were together, then Xu Li was inevitably his weakness - others had no way of taking revenge on Xie Jianwei, but would put their hands on Xu Li, so Xu Liâs plight would become very dangerous.
Perhaps Xie Jianwei had the power to protect Xu Li well, but in Xie Jianweiâs heart, Xu Li loved his freedom, and would definitely be unwilling to live within limits; if he were to protect him, he would inevitably have to clip his wings.
Xie Jianwei couldnât think of a way that would achieve both, and so could only refuse Xu Li, contrary to his own desires.
And normal methods of rejection could hardly make Xu Li give up, so he could only use Lu Li.
In all honestyâŚXie Jianwei, being able to understand to such a degree, was also considerably amazing.
Of course, even if he understood, grass mud horses (T/N: another way of saying fuck your mother, a common swear) still rampaged madly through his heart and lungs.
How come he hadnât seen Lu Big Li put this much thought into things when it came to the government affairs, with its many twists and turns and plays for power?
Xie Jianwei could only cooperate with him saying: âThis isnât quite using youâŚâ
Lu Li watched him with narrowed eyes.
Xie Jianwei lightly sighed, saying: âIâm bound to have a life-long partner, and youâre a pretty good option.â
Lu Li self-mockingly said: âYou mean pretty good in bed, right?â
Xie Jianwei: ââŚâ Pity that he had no way of saying out loud, that he was even better otuside of bed.
With him not saying anything, Lu Li continued to independently carry out his interpretations: âPresident Xie truly does make the best use of his things. Itâs not enough to make me a bed partner, I must also be used as a shield to protect the person you want to protectâŚâ He walked close to Xie Jianwei, lowering his voice and saying: âHave you ever thought about it, whether I would be willing?â
Xie Jianwei knew what he wanted to hear: âIâm not forcing you, if you arenât willing then there are stillâŚâ
The two words âother peopleâ hadnât been said yet, when Lu Li had already gripped onto his face, fiercely kissing him.
Even though it was a little hard to take, but since he angered Lu âlittleâ Li, then Lu âbigâ Li must inevitably come out for a stroll around.
Xie Jianwei yielded after displaying some reluctance, and after finishing, he felt that he needed to eat more Chinese leek to supplement himself. [2]
Even though Lu Li wasnât satisfied, Xie Jianwei indeed had him thoroughly in the palm of his hand. [3]
He definitely couldnât endure letting Xie Jianwei go to seduce others, and he also needed to get closer to the Xie family; a bed partnerâs identity, in the end, wasnât as convenient as a loverâs - if he wanted to truly possess Xie Jianwei, then heâd have to pull up the Xie family behind him, roots and all.
The difference between a lover and a bed partner was that a bed partner was fixedly for once a week, and the two were strangers when they met at other times. After becoming lovers, Xie Jianwei played the role very well; of course, in Lu Liâs eyes, Xie Jianwei was doing this wholly to incite Xu Li, but it couldnât be unsaid that this style of interacting made him feel really comforted.
Xie Jianweiâs actions were speedy; not even a few days had passed before the two started looking for a new place to live: âHow about living close to the sea? If youâre worried that it would be too damp, then we can consider making the storey a little higher.â
Lu Li feigned disinterest: âDo what you want.â
Xie Jianwei was actually just asking anyways - he couldnât be clearer on Lu Liâs likes.
And so he patted the board, deciding: âThis place is pretty good. The first and second floors and living rooms, the third and fourth floors are for the functional (?), weâll live on the fifth floor.â
(T/N: Yeah I really didnât know about this one)
Lu Liâs lips moved slightly, but didnât make a sound in the end.
Xie Jianwei was pretty enthusiastic as he drew and wrote; âConnect the two rooms on the fifth floor, the bedroom needs to be a little bigger, the dressing roomâs position isnât too good, move it, oh, putting the elevator hereâs too in the way, alter on remove it and swap it for a glass one and put it outside the bedroomâŚalso the bathroomâs small, weâll smash the small room next to it, combine themâŚâ He spoke on by himself, and Lu Liâs heart was tickled from listening.
In the lazy afternoon, the sunlight lit up the warm study; the youth with the delicate features dipped his head over the desk, writing as he spoke, his voice pleasant to listen too, and his expression focused, as if he were genuinely drafting the twoâs love next, describing a sweet and warm blueprint of happiness.
Lu Li sat across from him, watching, and experienced in his heart the pain of interweaving fire and ice.
On one hand he was telling himself to calm down some, to not be bewitched by him; on the other hand, he was unable to resist fantasising - how good would it be, if this were true?
Even if Xie jianwei, to him, were the slightest bit serious, Lu Li would stop every move at hand, and wholeheartedly cup him in his hands and bring him to the heavens.
Xie Jianweiâs heart wasnât big - after fitting inside a Xu Li, everything else was stopped outside the gates.
Lu Li stared at the emerald tea leaves in the celadon cup through lowered lashes, his expression dark and unreadable.
After Xie Jianwei spent ages making arrangements, he again asked Lu Li: âis using a shade of warm white as the houseâs main colour okay?â
Lu Li had been waging war on the outside for many years; he was known as the famous Iron Blooded Supreme Commander throughout the entire galaxy. He was already born handsome, and once a suit of uniform was added to his body, he was even more stunning [4], the cool and aloof male god in tens of thousands of young girlsâ hearts.
Young girls always fantasise that their male gods were aloof and steely, that their favourite colour must be black, that the place where they lived must be cool-toned; theyâd probably even imagine their underwear to be in the series of dark colours.
But actually, the colour Lu Li liked most was a warm shade of white.
The shade thatâs like sunlight, a colour that had a temperature.
This probably had something to do with his childhood experiences; on the deserted planet, there had only been a few short days out of the year when sunlight could be seen; staying in that sort of gloom and cruel environment, when he saw sunlight, it was like seeing the worldâs most beautiful treasure.
So his favourite colour was a warm white colour.
Actually, there was another reason that even Xie Jianwei didnât know.
On the deserted planet, the first time Lu Li saw Xie Jianwei was on a day when sunlight had illuminated everything.
Xie Jianwei had fainted on a piece of bright and smooth rock - the sunlight sprinkled upon his body, coating his porcelain skin with a thin layer of beautiful light.
Lu Li touched it; that was his first time coming into contact with a shade of white that held heat.
â as perfect as imagined.
Lu Li, having been continuously poked in the heart by Xie Jianwei, finally couldnât resist answering in a low voice: ââŚEn.â
Xie Jianweiâs eyes curved in a smile: âThen itâs decided.â
Lu Li struggled for ages to stop himself from walking over and kissing him.
Ever since the two had confirmed their relationship as lovers, Xie Jianwei had been practically inseparable to Lu Li [5], and withheld nothing from him.
Of course, this was Xie Jianweiâs deliberate doing; he was only too anxious to help Lu Li break down the Xie family faster, and so all sorts of flaws and holes were seamlessly placed in front of him, giving him the opportunity.
But instead, Lu Liâs actions gradually slowed down; Xie Jianwei pondered for a bit, and could mostly know what was going on.
Xie Jianwei had been too nice to Lu Li, and this idiot got soft-hearted again.
Xie Jianwei was just wondering how to stimulate him a little, considering developing in another direction, when Lu Li began âself-abusingâ.
On this day, the two were walking downstairs after eating; just as they walked into the carpark, they saw Xu Li.
Lu Li ceased his steps, and Xie Jianwei was also momentarily stunned.
Xu Li caught sight of Xie Jianwei, and immediately came forward, saying: âWhy are you avoiding me?â
Xie Jianweiâs forehead furrowed: âThere is no need to see each other again.â
Xu Li appeared quite fragile; he had probably been looking everywhere for Xie Jianwei all these days, yet Xie Jianwei kept evading him - he had lost his appetite, his sleeping was unrestful, and his entire person had become a lot more downtrodden.
Xie Jianwei didnât want to talk more with him, turning around wanting to leave; Xu Li was very emotional, and went forward wanting to pull him to a stop: âDonât do this, Jianwei, donât do this to me.â
Xie Jianwei paused for a moment, somewhat unable to grasp onto what sort of âsceneâ Lu Li wanted to see.
Yet Xu Li took it as a chance, lowly pleading: âJianwei, I truly miss you, I miss you very much, Iâm begging you, donât hide from me to not see me, everyday, IâŚâ
âMister Xu, please have some self-respect.â Lu Li came forward, face cold, blocking in between Xie Jianwei and Xu Li.
Xu Li raised his head, gazing at him, abhorrence flashing past in his eyes: âWhat are you worthâŚâ
His words had just fallen, when Xie Jianwei opened his mouth, saying: âHe is my lover.â
Xu Li watched wide-eyed, dumbfounded.
Xie Jianwei spoke: âI think I explained it very clearly already, the past has already gone by, I now have a lover, can you please donâtâŚâ
âYouâre lying to me!â Xu Li interrupted him, pleading with an expression of disbelief: âI know youâre being angry, how could you like someone else? Itâs impossible!â
Xie Jianwei didnât feel the slightest bit soft-hearted towards him, and so when he spoke cruel words he was without mercy: âItâs your choice whether you want to believe it or not; Iâve been with Lu Li for over half a year already.â
Xu Li was somewhat panicked, his gaze towards Lu Li filled with resentment: âYouâre only trying to anger me on purpose, you randomly found a person to make meâŚâ
Xie Jianwei grasped onto Lu Liâs tie, and strongly aimed a kiss at his lips, turning his face to the side to Xu Li and saying: âDo you still need me to do anything more?â
Xu Liâs face was already ashen, his eyes filled with dismay.
Lu Li smiled, pressing down on Xie Jianweiâs waist, deepening the shallow kiss.
Xu Li was completely unable to keep watching, he practically fled in defeat.
After the guy left, Xie Jianwei pushed Lu Li away.
They were in public - kissing some was fine, but he didnât have to kiss nonstop.
Pity that, with his one push, the already dejected Lu Li grew even more dejected; he grasped Xie Jianweiâs hand, throwing him onto the front passenger seat.
Xie JIanwei blinked, instinctively sensing that things werenât good, but it was too late.
The two had a happy time rocking half the car with car sex [6].
Even though the car was wide enough, in the end it wasnât suited for doing something of this warring sort.
And so Lu Li didnât do it all the way, only making Xie Jianwei shoot.
And then Lu Li planned on taking Xie Jianwei home, but the car was probably unhappy from being shaken, and actually failed to be ignitedâŚ
Lu Li dialled his assistantâs number.
Xie Jianwei looked at the mess inside the car, and felt that waiting here for the assistant was somewhat awkward, and so suggested: âLeave the car here for now, letâs take a walk outside?â
Lu Liâs anger had long since been half put out, and he also knew that h was easily embarrassed, so replied: âOkay.â He took off his coat and draped it over Xie Jianwei.
Xie Jianweiâs clothes had a few buttons fall off of it, it wasnât really good to walk out like this.
Wearing his clothes, Xie Jianwei was pretty happy in his heart, carrying a smile even in his eyes and brows: âHopefully the weather outside is pretty good.â
When they came to eat, it had been somewhat overcast, and the weather forecast had also said that it might rain at night.
It was already eight oâclock now - and whether it had rained or not was still unknown.
The two were surprised to find out after they had walked outside that, not only did it not rain, the weather was actually pretty good - the gloomy clouds had been scattered in the wind, and the glittering stars in the night sky were especially moving.
They walked side by side on the side-walk, enjoying the pleasantly warm night wind, all of the sudden not knowing what should be said.
Xie JIanwei wanted to hold hands with him, but he was also afraid that this action of his would be too ârushedâ.
But very quickly, as if their heartss were linked, Lu Li grasped onto his hand.
Xie Jianweiâs lips raised a little, trying very hard to make his smile not so obvious.
Lu Li asked him: âAre you cold?â
Working hard to hide his emotions, Xie Jianwei said: âIâm not cold; the weather is quite nice.â
Lu Li said: âJust now, I was in the wrong.â He was referring to the âhappy rockingâ, Xie Jianwei had refused at the time, but Lu Li hadnât listened.
How would Xie Jianwei care about that? Not to mention that Lu Li felt worried for him, and so didnât do it all the way; even if he had gone all the way, he wouldnât get mad at him for this stuff.
He wasnât as inflexibly old-fashioned as Lu Li thought when it came to sexual matters, it was just that he didnât dare to indulge him in these matters, because got knows that if he did indulge, to what extent this guy would âignore his work dutiesâ [7]
The atmosphere between the two was surprisingly amiable; perhaps it was that their interactions these past few days had been too nice, perhaps it was that the nightâs scenery was too beautiful; either way, a strange feeling bubbled up within Lu Liâs heart - as if, as long as he kept on walking like this, holding Xie Jianweiâs hand, Xie Jianwei would belong to him.
Well and truly, belonging to him in both body and heart.
Time was very powerful; there will always be a dayâŚmaybe, there will always be a day, that Xie Jianwei will forget Xu Li, will see him, who has always been by his side, will once again open up his heart, and place him within.
Lu Li felt that he was wishfully thinking, but humans were always greedy - even if they were situated within a tumultuous storm, they would still hope that, in the next moment, they will be able to see a beautiful rainbow.
He imagined it slightly, only imagined it, shouldâŚ
Suddenly, the sound of muffled thunder arose, and the originally clear sky, because of this loud strike of sound, was suddenly covered by dense clouds; the stars and moon were hidden away, giving the night wind a dense chillness.
Lu Liâs heart thumped, fixedly watching the scene before his eyesâŚhis heart and brain basically simultaneously exploded, completely losing the ability to think.
The sound fo the carâs horn was ear piercing, and Xie Jianwei fell in a pool of blood.
And Xu Li, who should have been lying right there, had âfrightened out of his witsâ written all over his face - he cried out: âJianwei! Jianwei youâŚyou canât dieâŚâ
In order to save Xu Li, Xie Jianwei didnât even want his life!
Lu Li didnât know how he walked over at all; he picked up the man before him, pale as frost; smelt the nose-piercing scent of blood, his entire thought process a field of empty blankness.
He would never have Xie Jianwei, forever and eternally never have him.
Xie Jianwei startled awake from the dream.
Yan Ke said: âWhat happened?â
Xie Jianwei massaged his forehead, his voice somewhat rough: âWhy would I come out?â
Yan Ke said: âItâs the magnetic fieldâs self-protection system - when you receive intense trauma within the dream, you will immediately come back to reality.â
Xie Jianweiâs forehead tightly furrowed, and in a light voice said: âIâm going back now.â
Yan Ke asked him: âWhat exacty happened?â Anything that could make an impact on Xie Jianweiâs psyche, must be very serious.
Xie Jianwei said slowly after pausing for a moment: âI saw Lu Li get hit by a car.â
But that person was clearly Xu LI!
The author has something to say: Small dark room is waiting~
Cough coughâŚthis refreshment is actually supposed to be for tomorrow morning, as to why itâs up now, itâs because tomorrow is the time for the rankings, if the word count isnât enough then it (T/N: the novel) canât go up (T/N: the rankings), so it is put up early.
As for the reason why there is so much explanation, itâs mainly because I (T/N: first person is implied rather than directly stated) want to tell the little angels: See you the morning of the day after tomorrow!! Kisses!!
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AAHHHHH THIS CHAPTER WAS SO CUTE MY HEART WAS PALPITATING OUT OF MY CHEST AS I READ IT FOR THE NTH TIME
And as always the authorâs note is the worst part of the chapter to translate. You can see Iâve begun to make a game out of it.
[1] âstrategising for benefitsâ: Any âbenefitsâ where Lu Li is concerned usually refers to sexual favours :) )
[2] ââŚsupplement himself.â: Actually says to provide supplementation for his kidneys, in that he expended too much energy and needs to boost himself up a bit. No idea why he needs to specifically eat chinese leeks tho.
[3] ââŚin the palm of his hand.â: actually says âhe would definitely eat him.â but I felt that itâs too easily interpreted in a sexual way - I think it refers more to something like how Lu Li can no longer escape his fate of submitting to XJWâs wishes.
[4] ââŚeven more stunningâ: actually says âas handsome as cypress and pine even moreâ.
[5] ââŚpractically inseparableâ: literally âlike how the body and the shadow doesnât partâ
[6] âThe two had a happy time rocking half the car with car sex.â: Where to begin with this phraseâŚ???? It says â两人ćĽäşĺ个轌éććäšâ, which translates literally to âThe two had (had as in had a round, had a meal, etc. - something that was brought to them) fun shaking half a carâ. But â轌éâ is also a euphemism for car sex, so I was like why not incorporate them bothâŚbut like honestly âshakingâ is sorta implied twice in this sentence, once in car sex and once in the last three characters idk.
[7] âââŚâignore his work dutiesâ.â: To abandon his work and go do other things - in Lu Liâs case, to ignore his duties as Supreme Commander and Ruler of the planet galaxy federation thingo heâs in charge of in order to play hooky with Xie Jianwei.
