Enigmas

Odes by an Amateur

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When he has blocked me from everywhere, so I lowkey get in line for the "bandhara" he is conducting.

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I started watching The Handmaid's Tale, and the scariest part was how close to reality it felt.

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Allie is so much like me, but she had her Dean, and I feel like I am stuck with my Sean.

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You know corporate has sucked the life out of you, when you havent done the one thing you loved for almost an year

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I wish i hate him as much as i should.

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Lust is like saying i love your hips, tighs etc.

But passion is like saying your body is my worship ground and pleasuring you is devotion to me.

No one gets it, but they are a lot different.

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Its shocking how we used to never run out of things to talk about and now stay silent in each other's presence.

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I think we lost,

The day i didnt come to you first with my problem was the day we lost.

We lost when you werent the first one i called when i won.

We lost when you werent the first call i made when i was angry

We lost when i understood that you might not understand.

We lost when i stopped sharing things with you

We lost when i started being silent around you

We lost when i left midway.

We lost when i ran out of things to talk about with you.

Everyday you thought was a personal win, was the day we lost.

Everyday you chose your peace was when little by little those pieces went away.

And before we knew, i was on a different staircase and you were looking up.

And i was looking down.

But neither of us took steps towards each other.

For we lost, the day we stopped trying.

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I used to think if I dont write, I will forget how to be a writer, but whenever I hold the pen, I see myself be untethered, its something in my blood. Even if you kill me, I would probably be bleeding words.

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I dream about him everyday, I don't know whether I am in love with the idea of him or truly him. For nowadays, people can be whatever they want on social media. But God do I want to explore this "what if."

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So I finally asked the loml for flowers and guess what he said it was a waste of money.

Funny how quickly people change

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"You know i met this guy, who is so good. He likes Marvel just like me and is a bookworm tooo.!!", she said.

He said with a sad smile, "So why dont you date him?"

She replied, "I like movies now."

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We are just friends, who constantly think about fucking each other.

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He said, "Can we be friends with benefits?"

I replied, "Sure, hon, but it doesn't feel like much of a benefit to me. It feels like charity."

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You must have seen where men's ambitions die, women's ambitions start.

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Day 48 of no contact

Still hopelessly in love with him.

He will come back.