First thing: I fucked this up. Not only am I an ass, but I broke a promise I made to you and I hate myself for it. I took too long to address a stupid mistake I honestly didn't realize I was making, and by the time I tried to talk to you again, it was too late. I just want you to know, I really do miss you. I still think about you quite often. I still have that "smile" card of yours in my wallet. I still have your graduation picture in my desk. I still have the bracelet you made me. Despite the friends that I've made, you're honestly the one that I got to know the quickest, the one that I grew to enjoy talking to the fastest and the most. I'm not just sorry, I regret screwing this relationship up more than anything else on my long list of regrets. I genuinely meant it when I said I would never leave you, would always be your friend. And I'm an idiot. I've tried writing, typing, and thinking up this message dozens of times over the last few months, but none of it has ever felt right. It still doesn't feel right, but I just want to get it out. Hell, I'm still just posting this to Tumblr, hoping you might see it, even though you don't follow me anymore, and not sending it to you directly because I don't have the guts. I'm not expecting a response. I'm not hoping that you feel the same way. I actually hope that you don't. I hope that, though I know I hurt you, that you don't hurt anymore. I know you're happy with school and your boyfriend and all of it, I can see that much. I hope for nothing more than for all of that to continue.
